I miss what this place used to be

[rirv]

And now I'm old.

[b-grrrlie]

You are not the only one...

[b-grrrlie]

And I had to put my cat Cosmo to sleep last week, he had a tumor in his nose and it had spread into his skull bone...

So there goes another connection to this forum...

[Laver1969]

Sorry to hear about Cosmo!

[Dorothy Wood]

Me too. My life is pretty hard right now, but I don't wanna talk about it specifically, this place seems not so anonymous anymore. It's maybe gonna get better though. I'm weirdly calm about the chaos happening. Also I'm pretty sure I have aspergers, I've talked about it before here. I never know how to respond to people correctly, and often people are mad at me for not being enthusiastic enough. Or people think I'm mad all the time, when I'm not...or get their feelings hurt because I'm insensitive to people's emotions. Anyway, the people close to me are understanding. The general public, no so much. But the public is full of dumbasses.

I'm old too, but I still get carded ;)

[Randetica]

i moved out of a horrible place in utah then moved to oregon, got my baby boy two days after and met deep sea rain and his wife (y)

[ma belle]

It was a hoot for a while wasn't it guys?

[Rock-A]

I think I would have been so much more productive at work if it wasn't for this place back in the early 2000s. Good times, good times.

[Dorothy Wood]

im in LA, but I can't go anywhere on my own because I'm trapped with my boyfriend's family. I hate the dad. I'm glad I didn't grow up with a dad. They're always so mad. Fuckin dads...I hope my generation will have better dads.

[Adam]

<group_hug>

^for those who want a group hug and have consented but those that want to stand on the outside - know the warmth extends to you too.

I was thinking about this place other day and kinda realising I haven't made any major life decisions without consulting bbmb first. Which also means I haven't made any major life decision recently which may mean I'm stuck in a rut.

Not sure if I am. Been with my partner 5 years so that's good. Closer to 40 than 30 now which is OK but I did first log on this place as a teenager!

Memories.

[Dorothy Wood]

I guess it's still a place where you can write things when you're drunk and forget that you wrote it. :o

[mikizee]

I guess it's still a place where you can write things when you're drunk and forget that you wrote it. :o

I'm drunk right now!

This was the first forum I ever posted on. Holds a very special place in my internetty heart. Great personalities. Like Bob, the hilariously funny forever virgin. Although I'm assuming he's had sex by now. Nastee, the good looking Scottish bird. Dandyfop, the super cute chick who's now a bloody good stand up comic. That guy who I forget the name of, who flooded this place with posts for about a year including a pic of himself naked except a tie that covered his dicknballs.

Ahhhh memories

[Randetica]

you mean that gdayjoel mothereffer that litterally ate his own shit?

[YoungRemy]

You can't go wrong when you have a guy rapping in response to himself over 200 times.

[Bob]

Although I'm assuming he's had sex by now.

i'll never tell

also, joel literally ate his own shit? odd fella

[Kid Presentable]

Joel was the best.

[camo]

Did anyone know him irl?

[DeeJayZap]

<3

[b-grrrlie]

Me too. My life is pretty hard right now, but I don't wanna talk about it specifically, this place seems not so anonymous anymore. It's maybe gonna get better though. I'm weirdly calm about the chaos happening. Also I'm pretty sure I have aspergers, I've talked about it before here. I never know how to respond to people correctly, and often people are mad at me for not being enthusiastic enough. Or people think I'm mad all the time, when I'm not...or get their feelings hurt because I'm insensitive to people's emotions. Anyway, the people close to me are understanding. The general public, no so much. But the public is full of dumbasses.

I'm old too, but I still get carded ;)
I was diagnosed for Aspergers about 18 months ago! It took over two years.... It made me understand myself much better (all the collecting, failing in relationships, bad memory, emotionless for certain things, seeing small details, short attention span....)! :p Also now I get help cleaning and organizing at home (3 hours a week! :eek: ) and free dental care (as I've been scared of dentists) for four years to begin with. I don't know if it covers free teeth (I have two missing), but there could be a chance. :o

[camo]

I was diagnosed for Aspergers about 18 months ago! It took over two years.... It made me understand myself much better (all the collecting, failing in relationships, bad memory, emotionless for certain things, seeing small details, short attention span....)!

I'm currently going through diagnosis for this. My current girlfriend is a teacher who specialises in children with learning difficulties - predominantly Autism and Aspergers. We've been together for over two years now and through that time she has recognised me displaying so many of the symptoms. It started of as a bit of a joke; her noticing my obsessive collecting, forgetting dates, getting super annoyed at tiny little problems with our new house (cracks in skirting boards, scuffs on walls etc), hating being touched and preferring my own space and company.

How has it changed your life now that you've been diagnosed?

[b-grrrlie]

I was diagnosed for Aspergers about 18 months ago! It took over two years.... It made me understand myself much better (all the collecting, failing in relationships, bad memory, emotionless for certain things, seeing small details, short attention span....)!

I'm currently going through diagnosis for this. My current girlfriend is a teacher who specialises in children with learning difficulties - predominantly Autism and Aspergers. We've been together for over two years now and through that time she has recognised me displaying so many of the symptoms. It started of as a bit of a joke; her noticing my obsessive collecting, forgetting dates, getting super annoyed at tiny little problems with our new house (cracks in skirting boards, scuffs on walls etc), hating being touched and preferring my own space and company.

How has it changed your life now that you've been diagnosed?

Well, mainly it has made me understand myself much better, why I was such a tomboy as a kid, why I get easily annoyed when people don't do stuff they're supposed to do and me myself am much worse. The help I get every week has been god's send, trying to get organized and getting just through daily routines. The routines are very important as I am terrible if I misplace stuff, I can get a quiet tantrum by myself when I've misplaces something and can totally panic, empty every bag and throw things around (and just leave them there...). So putting your keys or any other item in a specific place is really important. I'm still missing my digital scales that have been on a specific place in my cupboard since I bought it and we (me and a helper) had to clear the whole cupboard after I found a meal beetle in a flour bag and I don't know where it is since then and I need it almost weekly...
Also I realize myself when I disrupt someone, thinking of just giving a bit of advice, but they find me more like a besserwisser. Actually I couldn't continue my seasonal job because of that, after five summer seasons... Found out about it afterwards why I wasn't welcome back. So these days I try to be very careful not to advise anyone if not asked to...
When it comes to relationships, I'm getting being a better and better friend with my old fb, noticing that he as well must have Aspergers. Sometimes it feels like we really should be together for real, but then we both get scared.
Also writing things-to-do lists have always been good to do, it's so satisfying when you can tick off something! Sometimes I write really essential things on the list (like water the flowers or make lunch for tomorrow) just to be able to cross over something. :o

[camo]

Well, mainly it has made me understand myself much better, why I was such a tomboy as a kid, why I get easily annoyed when people don't do stuff they're supposed to do and me myself am much worse. The help I get every week has been god's send, trying to get organized and getting just through daily routines. The routines are very important as I am terrible if I misplace stuff, I can get a quiet tantrum by myself when I've misplaces something and can totally panic, empty every bag and throw things around (and just leave them there...). So putting your keys or any other item in a specific place is really important. I'm still missing my digital scales that have been on a specific place in my cupboard since I bought it and we (me and a helper) had to clear the whole cupboard after I found a meal beetle in a flour bag and I don't know where it is since then and I need it almost weekly...
Also I realize myself when I disrupt someone, thinking of just giving a bit of advice, but they find me more like a besserwisser. Actually I couldn't continue my seasonal job because of that, after five summer seasons... Found out about it afterwards why I wasn't welcome back. So these days I try to be very careful not to advise anyone if not asked to...
When it comes to relationships, I'm getting being a better and better friend with my old fb, noticing that he as well must have Aspergers. Sometimes it feels like we really should be together for real, but then we both get scared.
Also writing things-to-do lists have always been good to do, it's so satisfying when you can tick off something! Sometimes I write really essential things on the list (like water the flowers or make lunch for tomorrow) just to be able to cross over something. :o

I can fully empathise with you on the placement of things. I've had my keys on the same lanyard for roughly 15 years. I keep them in the same pocket and even wear it when I don't even need my keys - i.e. when I'm on holiday or in another country altogether. I have to have my phone, wallet and iPod in a specific pocket and this never, ever changes. I've even made a return journey of five hours (each way) to retrieve them when I left them at a friends - I couldn't cope knowing that they weren't in their rightful place. I can't imagine how my girlfriend puts up with me because I know for sure that many girls couldn't. I've been labelled pretentious, apathetic and unloving by many an ex in the past. Pretty much all of my relationships have ended because they're just too tired of my actions!

Change is also a bad thing for me. I've fallen out with friends for simply changing plans we've made. Just the notion of someone saying that they'll do one thing, and then doing another makes me antsy and aggravated. I find myself internalising a lot of anger and vitriol towards people who change something I'm doing/going to/wanting etc.

I could go on but I'm sure you've heard it all or done it already. I'm just happy that I'll soon be able to label it and deal with it in my own way (y)

[b-grrrlie]

I can fully empathise with you on the placement of things. .... I've even made a return journey of five hours (each way) to retrieve them when I left them at a friends - I couldn't cope knowing that they weren't in their rightful place.
I forgot my ring at a friend's place after a midsummer party when I'd done the dishes. I don't wear that ring that oft, but it has a special meaning to me, and I keep thinking about it all the time! He said he'll bring it the next time we see, no worries, but I wish I had gone back the moment I noticed I'd forgotten it...

I'm just happy that I'll soon be able to label it and deal with it in my own way (y)
Getting a label on it has helped me a lot! Also I understand other people better as well. I can easily see who's an Aspie as well :p :o

[camo]

I forgot my ring at a friend's place after a midsummer party when I'd done the dishes. I don't wear that ring that oft, but it has a special meaning to me, and I keep thinking about it all the time! He said he'll bring it the next time we see, no worries, but I wish I had gone back the moment I noticed I'd forgotten it...


Getting a label on it has helped me a lot! Also I understand other people better as well. I can easily see who's an Aspie as well :p :o

Haha I like that name!

[Lyman Zerga]

I wonder what i got like i dont like getting touched, cant have eye contact (not even with my husband), poor attention span which makes reading books or watching movies very difficult, people talk to me and i have a hard time following even when it is really important (cant focus for shit) i have an outdoors tunnel view like it is difficult for me to look right and left (shyness?) I got speech problems (either say words the wrong way or switch words around the wrong way) have a hard time expressing myself in texting or talking, uncoordinated, depressions, social anxiety

When i look shit up online i find things that kinda match with my symptoms but nothing is spot on, also i had a bacterial meningitis which often leave a brain damage behind so i wonder if that has anything to do with anything

[mikizee]

I'm drunk right now!

This was the first forum I ever posted on. Holds a very special place in my internetty heart. Great personalities. Like Bob, the hilariously funny forever virgin. Although I'm assuming he's had sex by now. Nastee, the good looking Scottish bird. Dandyfop, the super cute chick who's now a bloody good stand up comic. That guy who I forget the name of, who flooded this place with posts for about a year including a pic of himself naked except a tie that covered his dicknballs.

Ahhhh memories

I don't remember writing this

[marsdaddy]

What's up kids!

Mookie is 13 and a high school freshman and my youngest is 10. Talk about feeling old!

Speaking of, 50 is rapidly approaching. (y)

[P of R]

I thin kabout this place from time to time and get all nostalgic. It makes me kinda sad sometimes. I kinda miss it.

And you can't help but wonder if everything is good with all the old guys and gals.

Anyway a big hug to all the oldies. (y)

[Guy Incognito]

You can't go wrong when you have a guy rapping in response to himself over 200 times.

Hahahahaha

[kll]

What's up kids!

Mookie is 13 and a high school freshman and my youngest is 10. Talk about feeling old!

Speaking of, 50 is rapidly approaching. (y)

Unreal. You were 21 like a year ago.

[tuc70021]

I've been coming here since...ekhhhh... the late 90's? I've had a bunch of different user names, and I never really contributed that much. But I'd pop in every now and again, and I still read it quite a bit.

It's weird for me because - and don't take this the wrong way - but the Bboys are and have always been my favorite group of any genre, and I still listen to their records almost every day. So to me they're just as active as ever....... but then I remember that they're not (at least not in the way I remember them), and that MCA is dead, and that this place barely gets a dozen people to reply to anything.

It all just petered out so quietly. No big group break-up, no shutting down of the website when the band retired, so scandal that ended the whole Beastie train.

I just wasn't looking and it all stopped. I never met them and they never even knew I existed, but I felt like I saw the Boys every day for decades. Now... I dunno. Maybe I'll be getting a sandwich sometime and bump into Adrock. What would I say? "When's the new album coming out?" "How's Biz Markie?"

[Adam]

Coming here since 90s too. Was a teenager. Now I'm closer to 40 than 30.

I still think about the boys. Still listen to the albums. This place and the band shaped my life more than what seems reasonable. But wouldn't change it. Thanks BBS, thanks BBoys

[Bitchamachacha]

Shiiiit, y'all even sound old! "Back in my day , I had to wait on AOL dial up to load before I could log in. And there was no facebook, or Instagram, and the BBMB was different colors and had more threads and blahh..blah..blah....."

Just kidding. Love you guys.

->->-> Will be 41 in one week, joined at age 26. :(

[ScarySquirrel]

I just wanted to see if I remembered my password. I do.

I've been coming here since the late '90s, I'd guess. I was still in high school when I started. I'll be 33 in November. So, there's that.

[Randetica]

i was like 10 when i started posting here, now im in my 50s
shit got too real too fast

[Bitchamachacha]

I've been coming here since...ekhhhh... the late 90's? I've had a bunch of different user names, and I never really contributed that much. But I'd pop in every now and again, and I still read it quite a bit.

It's weird for me because - and don't take this the wrong way - but the Bboys are and have always been my favorite group of any genre, and I still listen to their records almost every day. So to me they're just as active as ever....... but then I remember that they're not (at least not in the way I remember them), and that MCA is dead, and that this place barely gets a dozen people to reply to anything.

It all just petered out so quietly. No big group break-up, no shutting down of the website when the band retired, so scandal that ended the whole Beastie train.

I just wasn't looking and it all stopped. I never met them and they never even knew I existed, but I felt like I saw the Boys every day for decades. Now... I dunno. Maybe I'll be getting a sandwich sometime and bump into Adrock. What would I say? "When's the new album coming out?" "How's Biz Markie?"


I just got a chance to read this, and damn. It made my heart hurt. So, so very true. I always assumed they'd always be here, and this board and all of you awesome people would always be here. It's like having family, and you get comfortable and think home will be here forever, because it always was.

[getoninja]

last time I logged in was 1-1-2009

since then I got my grail, Beastie Boys 12" action figures, now I can move on..............

[-T-]

Joel...lmfao!! That fucker was unreal.

[silence7]

<3 Big Hugs everyone! :)

[Dorothy Wood]

I was diagnosed for Aspergers about 18 months ago! It took over two years.... It made me understand myself much better (all the collecting, failing in relationships, bad memory, emotionless for certain things, seeing small details, short attention span....)! :p Also now I get help cleaning and organizing at home (3 hours a week! :eek: ) and free dental care (as I've been scared of dentists) for four years to begin with. I don't know if it covers free teeth (I have two missing), but there could be a chance. :o

I'm currently going through diagnosis for this. My current girlfriend is a teacher who specialises in children with learning difficulties - predominantly Autism and Aspergers. We've been together for over two years now and through that time she has recognised me displaying so many of the symptoms. It started of as a bit of a joke; her noticing my obsessive collecting, forgetting dates, getting super annoyed at tiny little problems with our new house (cracks in skirting boards, scuffs on walls etc), hating being touched and preferring my own space and company.

How has it changed your life now that you've been diagnosed?

Sorry to not respond to you guys. Interesting, the similarities in behavior. I got a new job that is a lot easier for me emotionally, because I am around other quiet people, some who may be on the spectrum as well...though I don't want diagnose...and I've not been diagnosed. But it's kinda funny, I'm like "why is that person so cold to me? What did I do?" And then I realize it's how people see me sometimes, and maybe it's awesome that they don't want to small talk, ha. Definitely feeling better and less anxious and depressed than when I had to work with the public...I was very sensitive to sounds and people's voices, to the point that I would physically shake. I didn't realize how bad it was until I was away from it.
Anyway, hope you guys are doing well!

[ProfJIM]

This is weird now.

[camo]

This is weird now.

So un-weird it.

[Adam]

Over the passed 20 years (of being an adult) I've learned that a lot of people suffer from crippling-anxiety. Three of my closest friends do but I wouldn't have known when they were not close friends as they hurt themselves (mostly mentally but sometimes physically) to not show it.

A lot of us self-manage with drink and drugs which makes us OK for a brief moment but it's no cure long term with side-effects that are often worse than what we started with.

It doesn't help that there are some extroverts in the world who seem to be the life of world and we all think 'why am I not like them, they are normal' so we think that there is something wrong with us and we try to emulate. We see others trying to emulate and when you only catch the highlights of someone's life you think 'they have it sorted too, they are normal too' when actually they are screaming inside.

Life is weird. But this thread isn't weird.

[bigblu89]

Damn.

I used to be on this shit literally all 8 hours of my shift at work back in the day.

Unbelievably, the last time I logged on was exactly 364 days ago.

Clicking though some old threads is like hearing a song from your youth that you haven't heard in a decade. It instantly takes you back to that time. A time when things weren't necessarily better, but definitely so much simpler.

[ericg]

"You can't go wrong when you have a guy rapping in response to himself over 200 times.."

word up

[abbott]

I had an opinion

Then I realized I was wrong so I changed my opinion

I had an opinion

Then I learned something new. The new information leads me to change my opinion

I had an opinion

Then I realized I did not know all the facts, so again I learned something new and changed my opinion

I don’t understand why people call me all of these things for changing my opinions.

Seems to me if I learn something new and don’t modify my thoughts accordingly, that would be worse. According to my fellow colleges, seems I should make an opinion and stick to it no matter how bad it is. I should even fight and stir shit up once I realize I’m wrong. I should just fight harder to make sure people think my wrong is right.

Or just change my opinion and be known as some wishy washy guy who cant make up his mind.

Unfortunately I have this issue of not giving a fuck about bullshit, so I just say how a really feel for better or worse. The funniest thing is how a room full of people bust out laughing when I speak a hard truth that nobody wants to say.

[camo]

Eh?

[na§tee]

oh hey guys

i'm here cos of kid p.

[KingPsyz]

so old

[mate_spawn_die]

Wow, I remembered my password. I never really made any friends on this, but I sure wasted a bunch of hours between '04-'09 attempting to do so.

[mate_spawn_die]

Looking through Beastie-Free like...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BtNNn88Gxfc

[Richard Dawson]

Very old. Last login for me was 2008. Once a decade!

[mikizee]

Great now I'm sad

[DroppinScience]

I first came here in 2002 (I would have been 19 or 20 depending on the time of year), but I don't think I became a "serious" or regular poster until 2004 or so. This place was a big deal for me in the 2000s. I've forgotten to look at this board until recently. Hey it's still here, you guys!

[jayjacobson16]

Ayyo!

[miss soul fire]

I've been eating corn for the last 20 years now! :eek::D
Hopefully I don't turn into the lady in my avatar!

Oh, wait! She was cool back in the old days!

[ma belle]

Originally Posted by b-grrrlie View Post
I was diagnosed for Aspergers about 18 months ago! It took over two years.... It made me understand myself much better

Good for you - one of my close friends eventually got diagnosed and it made sense to all of us! Made his life enormously better, I'm happy for anyone who gets to understand how they are wired differently.

I used to spend a lot of time on here while I was supposed to be editing movies - but no one was around while I was in overnight regularly so I went at my own pace!

It was a great time, 2003 - 2006 particularly. Lots of sass, ridiculousness, mostly in good humour and taste. Lots of gigs to talk about, the BBoys hub to share all our bootlegs and videos on. Magic times.

One of my favourite gigs was when they played in Inveraray Castle grounds at a festival, totally bonkers. i love it when the sound doesn't come bouncing back from the walls - coz there are none! Awesome setting and they played on fire.

One of the maddest was outside the (non) gig in Liverpool UK - anyone who knows that story knows it was unreal.

Still listen to their music sometimes, loud of course. nice to see some of you still popping on from time to time. May we all grow old disgracefully!