sleep eludes me

[monkey]

i have seven thoughts. maybe eight. four of which make me cry in an instant. make that nine or ten. i just came up with two new ones.

im knitting. i couldnt find my pencils to color, so im knitting.
i wrote in my beautiful new journal before. and i watched a movie that made me feel like i was going to go crazy.
ive had unsettling connections to certain movies lately. <-- a new thought in the making.

i cried on the floor of my bathroom, my head was spinning, i wondered how much longer until someone realizes im not well.

everyone knows im not well.

i dont care what people know. the problem is what i dont know.

i dont know how to fall asleep.

[TurdBerglar]

i bet i would be able to make you fall asleep

[monkey]

are you that bad in bed?

[TurdBerglar]

who ever said anything about a bed?

[NurfBallJeaneus]

i have seven thoughts. maybe eight. four of which make me cry in an instant. make that nine or ten. i just came up with two new ones.

im knitting. i couldnt find my pencils to color, so im knitting.
i wrote in my beautiful new journal before. and i watched a movie that made me feel like i was going to go crazy.
ive had unsettling connections to certain movies lately. <-- a new thought in the making.

i cried on the floor of my bathroom, my head was spinning, i wondered how much longer until someone realizes im not well.

everyone knows im not well.

i dont care what people know. the problem is what i dont know.

i dont know how to fall asleep.

Insomnia or going crazy?

[monkey]

turd:
one track mind, you should expect that from me by now. i wasnt about to make you another one of my thoughts. i just tacked it on to another thought i was having. namely, the one about sex with people that i find terribly undesirable at this point in time. (thinking about the person that caused this thought in the first place. CRINGE).

ehh.

this is not making sleep any easier.

[monkey]

Insomnia or going crazy?

cause and effect.

[TurdBerglar]

yeah


i think the back of a truck is more appropriate

[SobaViolence]

drugs used to distract me from horrible and restless nights...


do something dumb to not think about your worries.

[monkey]

oh the power of drugs. i know the power. im also unable to get that power when im in my father's house.

ehh... now im watching sex and the city. theyre talking about monogamy. now ive got yet another reason to stay awake. guilt is a bitch.

[Rancid_Beasties]

I think I have the opposite of insomnia. I can sleep for like 16 hours and still feel tired as shit when I wake up. Not like tired "can't do anything", but tired "I could go for a nap about now" tired. At times I've even thought I may have chronic fatigue. But thats an extreme assessment. Anyway I think insomnia like you are describing it is much worse :(

[guerillaGardner]

i have seven thoughts.... i wrote in my beautiful new journal before. and i watched a movie that made me feel like i was going to go crazy. ive had unsettling connections to certain movies lately. <-- a new thought in the making. i cried on the floor of my bathroom, my head was spinning, i wondered how much longer until someone realizes im not well.

everyone knows im not well. i dont care what people know. the problem is what i dont know. i dont know how to fall asleep.

What's going on here? Was this original posting a joke? None of the rest of the posts in this thread seem to be congruent with this original post? Am I missing something or do I just take things too seriously?

If you are thinking you are losing it Pauli best to take a time out if you can, step back from life a little bit and empty your mind, get things off of your chest and work out what's going on with you. Try writing your thoughts down and see what they tell you.

I've seen what happens when people let that state of mind fester. Work out what it takes to make you heal - that's if I am not taking you too literally :)

[P of R]

Well Paulina, I could bore you to sleep. I'm very good at it.

[monkey]

i knocked myself out at some point. ;)




my ramblings are absolutely not a joke, by the way. ehh

[ToucanSpam]

Paulie :(