rant. ignore if you'd like.

[Rawr]

okay.
jelousy hurts.
my true bestfriend since grade 5 is leaving me out so bad.
in grade 7 she met kayleigh whos become my hate since i've caught her taking everything from me at my house and just using me to get threw my brother to steal drugs of him.
i mean, i said screw it threw the whole grade 7 and tried to ignore it and see if kayshia would notice how much she is leaving me out.
but now shes met this other girl pico and she was telling me all about her on the phone saying shes exactly like her and being all happy. and i didnt want to sound rude so i faked some laughs and said she sounded pretty cool.
now i never see her. only like twice a month before it was normal. like once a week maybe.
i SWEAR it's all because of how quiet i am!
whenever im in a big group with everyone i know, i become silent. and i have no idea why. i laugh sometimes and smile alot and say like "hey" "oh yeah" and thats it.
people probably doesnt want me around since how quiet i am it makes it ackward...
im only talkative when im drunk.
i actually conciderd drinking more so i could talk more.
it feels like i hardly even know a true friend of mine anymore :(






hows your day been ?

[miss_bhaven]

Don't take this the wrong way dude, but I think the way I found out I was bi-sexual is through being jealous of my best mate at the time...I've now realised that I must've had something for her. It may have or may not have been the reason why I dig chix now...but it is a possibility, I think anyway. I'm most certainly not accusing you of being gay or anything...but just don't scratch the idea out of you maybe having further feelings for this mate of yours? If not, maybe just confront her about it, ask if you've done anything lately to piss her off? But if she isn't giving u the time of day, I honestly wouldn't bother with the friendship anymore. Just be straight up with her! Ask her what her problem is :p

[miss_bhaven]

jelousy hurts.

Sure does dude, I reckon it's one of the most painful experiences (n)

[alexandra]

fuck this typical bestfriend-shit. focus on important stuff.

those girls have pretty cool names tho'.

[Chicka B]

I know how you feel, I've had the same problems. Sometimes I think I'd be better off without friends because of how quiet I am (also) and nobody listens to me anyway when I do talk. What I'd do is make some new friends and do it back to her and see how she reacts, either that or tell her how you feel. You shouldn't be embarrassed to express your feelings to your best friend you know? ;)

[ILLMIX]

yeh, all your names are noice, where they originate from?
o yeh the jelousy thing does suck (n)

[cookiepuss]

Um... it's never a good idea to drink to make yourself more social. (n) If you need help building your self esteem, then I would encourage you to get help through a counselor, or a team sport, drama, art classes, etc. But not drinking.