puberty rears it ugly head...

[vickista]

theres this big fight going on between a bunch of ppl in my class at school, and surprise surprise im one of the main ppl involved.and the girl who caused it all was bagging me over the net, coz she hasnt got the balls to say it to my face, and so i kinda cracked it and replied to her email, and i said alot and some was uncalled for now i feel really bad, but i have so much other shit to deal with i cnt handle her aswell. i was meant to take jackrocks advice and end it nicely, but instead i sent her this:

well, no sian i dont think it will be my loss u see bcoz u unlike you have friends and i treat the proply, i dont walk all over them, i dont ditch them and i dont treat them like shit, so we dont really care if u want a break from our group it just means we dont have to bother to ditch u. and nxt time ur lonely and u wish we'd take u back just remember we dont want or need u, so u can take ur goddamn frizzball hair and stick it up lukes ass (lukes her ex-boyfriend), u attention seeking selfish Mother Fucker. and if u ever get the idea into your head that we wld even consider calling u a fellow human being let alone a friend may i suggest u jump off the nearest cliff, coz were sick off ur shit.


im fucking horrible, i mean she was being a bitch but no one deserves that^ , damn highskool fights! bring out the worst in me.

[Kid Presentable]

Does she ave one tit bigger than the other?

[vickista]

Does she ave one tit bigger than the other?


umm no, y?

[zorra_chiflada]

Does she ave one tit bigger than the other?

she's gone all lezzy and has one tit bigger than the other so then i told sharon who got off with jay and i was like OOOHMYYYGOOOD but shattap you don't even know what you're talking about

[vickista]

she's gone all lezzy and has one tit bigger than the other so then i told sharon who got off with jay and i was like OOOHMYYYGOOOD but shattap you don't even know what you're talking about


hehe, little britan. i get it now. although my fight actually makes sense and and its not quite as juvenille as that i see how u as alduts must feel so superior in instances like this. but im in big shit.

[ms.peachy]

LOL@zorra

Seriously though vick, you now have a choice. You can admit to her that you were wrong, which means swallowing a bit of pride and writing her another message that says something like "I'm sorry, I was upset and said some things without thinking that were mean and unneccessary and although I'm still angry with you I realise I shouldn't have done that," and face the consequences. Or, you can be stubborn and refuse to acknowledge your mistake. Those are really the only options.

[vickista]

LOL@zorra

Seriously though vick, you now have a choice. You can admit to her that you were wrong, which means swallowing a bit of pride and writing her another message that says something like "I'm sorry, I was upset and said some things without thinking that were mean and unneccessary and although I'm still angry with you I realise I shouldn't have done that," and face the consequences. Or, you can be stubborn and refuse to acknowledge your mistake. Those are really the only options.


yeah i did the send her another email apologising already, but she isnt the type to forgive and forget, shes more the type to milk it for all its worth, then forget, but never forgive.

[ms.peachy]

yeah i did the send her another email apologising already, but she isnt the type to forgive and forget, shes more the type to milk it for all its worth, then forget, but never forgive.
Then you just have to let it go, and try not to get further sucked into the drama.

[Planetary]

or you could finish right now with a drive-by and fuck her shit up.

[vickista]

Then you just have to let it go, and try not to get further sucked into the drama.


well thats like almost impossible but ur advice always works so im willing to try.

[Planetary]

my advice works too, try it

[vickista]

my advice works too, try it


yeah, but unfortunatley i dont have a car.

[Ace42X]

Also, cuss-ups tend to carry more weight if you don't make yourself look like an idiot by omitting punctuation and using some lame kiddy short-hand.

[vickista]

Also, cuss-ups tend to carry more weight if you don't make yourself look like an idiot by omitting punctuation and using some lame kiddy short-hand.


well no one asked you ace. all you ever think about are computer games, grammar and how to piss me off.

[Pres Zount]

OUCH BURN OH SNAP

EDIT: Ace, you got OH SHIT YOU GOT OWNED

EDIT2: not being sarcastic here.

[Rancid_Beasties]

OUCH BURN OH SNAP

EDIT: Ace, you got OH SHIT YOU GOT OWNED

EDIT2: not being sarcastic here.
I think that was a level above being owned. That was very close to something a little more Aussie, a little more pop-country-rock, a little more sleazy facial hair. I cant say it though I've been banned.

[GuerillaMike69]

theres this big fight going on between a bunch of ppl in my class at school, and surprise surprise im one of the main ppl involved.and the girl who caused it all was bagging me over the net, coz she hasnt got the balls to say it to my face, and so i kinda cracked it and replied to her email, and i said alot and some was uncalled for now i feel really bad, but i have so much other shit to deal with i cnt handle her aswell. i was meant to take jackrocks advice and end it nicely, but instead i sent her this:

well, no sian i dont think it will be my loss u see bcoz u unlike you have friends and i treat the proply, i dont walk all over them, i dont ditch them and i dont treat them like shit, so we dont really care if u want a break from our group it just means we dont have to bother to ditch u. and nxt time ur lonely and u wish we'd take u back just remember we dont want or need u, so u can take ur goddamn frizzball hair and stick it up lukes ass (lukes her ex-boyfriend), u attention seeking selfish Mother Fucker. and if u ever get the idea into your head that we wld even consider calling u a fellow human being let alone a friend may i suggest u jump off the nearest cliff, coz were sick off ur shit.


im fucking horrible, i mean she was being a bitch but no one deserves that^ , damn highskool fights! bring out the worst in me.
leave our group.... damm i wish i was cool enough to be in the group

[vickista]

leave our group.... damm i wish i was cool enough to be in the group
i cant leave the group i am the essence of the group (without trying to sound stuck up) the group is like a rose, pretty but with a few thorns, cut off the thorns and its even better.

lol i sound retarded but oh well.

[ms.peachy]

When I was your age (yeah OK, so now I'm an old broad who starts stories with phrases like "when I was your age", deal with it), possibly slightly younger but not much, the girl who was my best friend and I got into a fight over something really really brilliant and meaningful like the fact that someone I was friends with didn't say 'hi' to someone she was friends with in the hall between classes. Or something else really quite important like that. :rolleyes: Obviously in retrospect it is easy to see how stupid it all was, but at the time, it was a social cataclysm. We didn't speak for over a year, and in that year there were all manner of nasty notes, prank phone calls, and complicated negotiations about who was sitting at who's table at lunch. I haven't at all forgotten how bitchy and catty teenage girls can be with eachother, even when they know it's not right and don't mean to be. As you allude to in your title, puberty is a nasty business and compels us all to do all manner of things that make us cringe in hindsight.

My point is, this too shall pass, eventually, although there may well be some painful "I wish the groud would open up and swallow me" moments along the way. You may or may not end up still being friends down the line, who knows, it doesn't really matter though.

In my case, our mothers got so sick of the two of us moping and bitching about eachother, they literally locked us in a room together and wouldn't let us out until we'd worked it out. Then after university we were roommates for a while. Seven years ago she was the maid of honour at my wedding. And now she's flying over in a few weeks to help me with the baby. So you just never know.

[Rancid_Beasties]

You dont sound like someone I'd want to be friends with so if I was this girl I'd count myself lucky.

[zorra_chiflada]

i cant leave the group i am the essence of the group (without trying to sound stuck up) the group is like a rose, pretty but with a few thorns, cut off the thorns and its even better.

lol i sound retarded but oh well.

are you the school bitch?
you sound like a bully
school groups don't mean shit when you've finished
and everyone hates the school bitch

[ASsman]

GAhahahahah! I deal with this shit at work, I work with all 16 and under kids. It's fun.

[alexandra]

it takes me forever to read your posts, thanks to your uniqie spelling. but anyway, just fuck the drama. y'all should focus on more important stuff.

[Knuckles]

I'm so glad I have a son.

[Planetary]

I'm so glad I have a son.

Qdrop?

[enree erzweglle]

I'm so glad I have a son.
I was thinking the very same thing. :)

When I was pregnant, people told me that in general, boys are tough for their first 6 years in the house and girls are easy then; boys are easy for their last 6 years in the house and girls get impossible then. I would say that that was accurate given my experiences with my kid.

Nobody warns you about what happens in the 6 years after your kid leaves the house. :D

[abcdefz]

well, no sian i dont think it will be my loss u see bcoz u unlike you have friends and i treat the proply, i dont walk all over them, i dont ditch them and i dont treat them like shit, so we dont really care if u want a break from our group it just means we dont have to bother to ditch u. and nxt time ur lonely and u wish we'd take u back just remember we dont want or need u, so u can take ur goddamn frizzball hair and stick it up lukes ass (lukes her ex-boyfriend), u attention seeking selfish Mother Fucker. and if u ever get the idea into your head that we wld even consider calling u a fellow human being let alone a friend may i suggest u jump off the nearest cliff, coz were sick off ur shit.





...I wouldn't worry about it; that's pretty unreadable.:D

[iceygirl]

i just have to say when i read the title to this thread i want to giggle

thats it thats all

the actual content isnt nearly as funny as the title seems to suggest

[Kid Presentable]

Little Britain sucks.(n)

[adam_f]

The first time my daughter brings home a boy will be the last time his parents see him alive.

[Ace42X]

The first time my daughter brings home a boy will be the last time his parents see him alive.

She has super-AIDS?

[adam_f]

She works at the Bristol Hotel.

[alexandra]

Little Britain sucks.(n)
like uuhh my god i can't believe you just said that!

[jackrock]

OH SHIT!

i must say i am very dissapointed you didnt' take my advice... though i can't remember what i told you, you should have done it.

[DIGI]

You all should just go down to the Peach Pit and smooth it out over some cobbler.

[vickista]

are you the school bitch?
you sound like a bully
school groups don't mean shit when you've finished
and everyone hates the school bitch


i am not the skool bitch. i get along with most of my class. they voted my class captain-im very proud of that!- but im a nice kid most of the time i just dont apreciate being treated like a doormat,-which is how she was treating us- and if im pushed to it i will say shit like that, but otherwise im alrite kid:)

[vickista]

its not fair, i tried to end it nicely so everyone could move on, so i said to her look i know this whole thing has gotten a bit out of hand and some nasty things have been said, and im sorry, but i think we can al moveon from this happy.i said you seem to get along quite well with the other group so you can stay with them if you like, we'd just like to get some recognition instead of being ignored in class and @ recess and we wld also like to be on speaking terms again. so do you think that we cld make that work?



and she said she had to go.


i try so hard, and i never get anywhere.:(

[ms.peachy]

Give it time. There are all manner of hurt feelings here. Did you really expect she would just say "oh, ok" and forget about it? Time.

[CrankItUp!]

poobs n' boobs = wut itz all bout (y)

[Lex Diamonds]

Hey guys, leave ...*vodka girl*... alone.

[vickista]

Hey guys, leave ...*vodka girl*... alone.

hehe, you used ...*vodka girl*... only special ppl call me that.:D


its all ok, we've made up its slowly comming back together nicely.everyone is happy again!

(y)!YAY!(y)

[ericlee]

ehm, hey *vodka girl* I guess everyone here is special then because it's in your sig.

Holy crap, I'm still thinking of that fact that she could be my daughter at that age.

Are the "special people" your parents as well?

Seriously though, I've had friends at the same age of you that drank vodka at that time and now I'm just imagining if my little baby girl were the same age..

Grrr, I'm furious. I didn't drink but I've done many things that could bring me to death while riding my skateboard at that age..

Where's the ultimate guide for stupid parents when I need one?

[vickista]

ehm, hey *vodka girl* I guess everyone here is special then because it's in your sig.

Holy crap, I'm still thinking of that fact that she could be my daughter at that age.

Are the "special people" your parents as well?

Seriously though, I've had friends at the same age of you that drank vodka at that time and now I'm just imagining if my little baby girl were the same age..

Grrr, I'm furious. I didn't drink but I've done many things that could bring me to death while riding my skateboard at that age..

Where's the ultimate guide for stupid parents when I need one?

i know its in my sig, but even so no one calls me it.(on the boards)
only a select few of my mates call me it.
i dont get drunk on it, i've only ever been tipsy, and i dont drink it all the time, and i only take it coz it helps, it makes me feel better, and my parents arent STUPID! they are good ppl! they dont no i drink it, if they did they'd make sure i was grounded and they'd make sure i never had it ever again, until i was 18 at least. you cant judge my parents on MY actions, i made those choices not them, their not the ones who fucked me up. so unless you got all the facts dont get on ur high horse dueche bag!

[Pres Zount]

A child is a pretty good reflection of a parent.

You only take vodka because it helps? Do you work down a coal mine in Siberia or something? Christ.

[vickista]

A child is a pretty good reflection of a parent.

You only take vodka because it helps? Do you work down a coal mine in Siberia or something? Christ.


well im not. my parents are hard working, generous, they are in no way anything like me because im a failure,and i will never get anywhere. and no i dont "work down a coal mine in Siberia" but it does help, it releaves the pressure and for a little while i can forget about all the other shit thats going on.

[Pres Zount]

Why are you so stressed?

[vickista]

Why are you so stressed?


why do you care? no one who knows me cares? so why should you, a stranger care?

[vickista]

ur all assuming that bcoz i drink vodka im a bad person, i smoke, i do drugs, i hang out with the wrong kinds of ppl, im uneducated,etc.

well ur wrong, i drink vodka but thats it i dont do any other stuff, and i wasnt always like this i used to be "a good little girl" but it never got me anywere, it led to my current state, so now i think: fuck this. and maybe i do drink a little vodka and maybe i do skip out on class sumtimes but thats the only way i can cope with it. and i dont see why you have to jump down my throat with mean comments when you dont even know half the story.

[Pres Zount]

I'm asking you for the other half of the story.

[zorra_chiflada]

we assume you're uneducated because of the way you type

[ericlee]

i know its in my sig, but even so no one calls me it.(on the boards)
only a select few of my mates call me it.
i dont get drunk on it, i've only ever been tipsy, and i dont drink it all the time, and i only take it coz it helps, it makes me feel better, and my parents arent STUPID! they are good ppl! they dont no i drink it, if they did they'd make sure i was grounded and they'd make sure i never had it ever again, until i was 18 at least. you cant judge my parents on MY actions, i made those choices not them, their not the ones who fucked me up. so unless you got all the facts dont get on ur high horse dueche bag!

you read my post wrong. I'm not implying that your parents are stupid. I'm saying that I need it for when the time comes for my daughter to be of your age as to how I'm going to handle this.

and to help you a little ur is spelled your and dueche is spelled douche.:)

I also ride a low rider horse, thanks.

[enree erzweglle]

its not fair, i tried to end it nicely so everyone could move on, so i said to her look i know this whole thing has gotten a bit out of hand and some nasty things have been said, and im sorry, but i think we can al moveon from this happy.i said you seem to get along quite well with the other group so you can stay with them if you like, we'd just like to get some recognition instead of being ignored in class and @ recess and we wld also like to be on speaking terms again. so do you think that we cld make that work?You probably put people here off with your writing style, but when you read what you've written out loud, you can see that you're articulate. You're just fond of that AIM shortcutty way of talking, huh? :)

i try so hard, and i never get anywhere.:(All you can do is apologize for the shitty thing that you said in mail and then try a time or to to explain yourself, repair things. But if the other person cannot reconcile with you--if what you said is so, so awful to her--then respect her decision and [make yourself] let it go. Maybe she'll come back around, maybe she won't. Whatever, don't resent her if she stays away and either way, try to learn something from it.

I'm probably as old as your parents are and I still fuck stuff like this up. I'm impetuous when I'm stressed--I say right what's on my mind. I have to tell myself to slow down and when I don't do that, it's bad.

(Also, you didn't ask, but I want to say this anyway. Maybe try not to do the vodka/drinking thing. It might feel like a help to you at first, but eventually, it'll just become a tether and that's not good.)

[ericlee]

yeah, alcohol is a depressent. It should be used in only having a good time when you're of age. I don't know why people turn to the bottle when they're down in the dumps. It's never helped me so it's the last thing I think of when feeling down.

It's terrible to think a person of such an age would use alcohol as an excuse and all it will lead to is a nasty habit.

There's a bigger list of what to do when down than just trying to drown it all away.

She said nobody cares but yet, we seem to reply. If I didn't care, I really wouldn't take the time.

Glad to hear you've worked things out though(y)

[DIGI]

Alright, Dr. Phil, what did you do with Eric? :mad:

[Ace42X]

You're just fond of that AIM shortcutty way of talking, huh? :)

READ: juvenile inane way.

[adam_f]

I heard some girl actually say 'LOL' after a joke and she meant it. I was all like, WTF?

[Ace42X]

I heard some girl actually say 'LOL' after a joke and she meant it. I was all like, WTF?

Ell-Oh-Ell or "Loll" ?

Although I think an ironic "roffle" can be permissable.

[ericlee]

I'm still a little curious as to how he said wtf.

[like2_drink]

so is there gonna be a teenage cat fight or what?(y)

[insertnamehere]

when people say roffle i want to punch them in the face.

when people type like that i kinda want to punch them in the face too. i know a girl that uses "skewl" and "cuz" and only ever usues elipses (in sever excess) and punctuates everything she sais with "um" and "hehe". she also types *giggles* a lot. god i hate her.


alright, i just had to get that out. ps-vik, dont drink. drugs, especially at your age, are a BAD idea, trust me on this one. yes, alcohol is a drug.

[ms.peachy]

I'm still a little curious as to how he said wtf.
I say that to mr.p all the time, when he's doing something goofy or just otherwise inexplicable, usually after he's had a pint or three.

[vickista]

I'm asking you for the other half of the story.


this is the other half of the story:

* my parents work six and a half days a week so i hardly see them.

* i feel as though im never good enough for them and after so many years of trying to please them, and getting nowhere ive decided to take the self distructive path.

*i get beaten by my sister and although my parents have tried to stop it they've had no luck, and the teacher i told about it hasnt done anything either.

* im smarter than all the girls im my class(not being stuck up or anything) so at school the work is much to easy and i cant be bothered with it.

* i feel neglected by my family and i have no one except ppl on the board (medellia and ms. peachy mainly) to talk about it with, but not having an actual person here as i tlk about just makes me feel alone an empty.



* and sometimes i get so upset about the shit hole life i lead that i drink vodka, and i sometimes skip class, coz i just cant deal with all those people and what they think of me and all that shit, its just too much to handle by urself.

so there you are a brief guide to the other side of the story.

[Pres Zount]

Fuck your family. Stop worrying what they think.

Stop drinking vodka and you may notice that you don't feel so bad all the time. It doesn't sound like you have it that bad. No offence.

[vickista]

Fuck your family. Stop worrying what they think.

Stop drinking vodka and you may notice that you don't feel so bad all the time. It doesn't sound like you have it that bad. No offence.


compared to some ppl i have it easy i dont deny that, but that doesnt make it any easier on me, especialy facing it alone.

do you know what its like to lay sprawled on the floor bruised and sometimes bloody after being beaten by ur sister, for no good reson?

do you know what its like knowing that all your talent and hard work will go unrecognised and end up just being a waste?

do you know what its like being ignored by everyone you care for? its almost like seeing them enjoy themselves while you watch though a double sided mirror. and the fact that your ot there doesnt seem to bother them, its as if you dont exist.

do you know wat its like when your parents work all the time just so they can afford monthly bills and school fees, but the money never goes far enough, theres always something that we need but cant afford?


do you know what its like being 13 yrs old and being so self pittying that you drink vodka to try forget about it, coz i can the amount of self loathing you need to do that is astonishing.

[ms.peachy]

vick,

Some of the things you're describing about the way you feel are, in fact, very very normal. There isn't a 13-year-old in the (industrialised) world that has not felt, at sometime or another, that no one understands what they are going through. I promise you, even the girls at your school who seem to be the prettiest and most popular and for whom everything seems to go 'just right' have these same moments, believe it or not.

This is not to make light of your situation, however. The physical abuse you are suffering at the hands of your sister sounds awful and if I had in my power to stop that for you, I would. I don't have any quick fix advice for you about that. The only thing I will say is, keep talking about it. I am sorry that the teacher you confided in has not been of help, but don't let that stop you from continuing to say, "this is happening to me and it's not right." I know you worry about giving your parents any more trouble, but you must continue to speak up.

Many of the young people your age that I work with have stories that, whilst not entirely the same as yours, are quite similar in many ways. I have kids whose parents are heroin users, alcoholics, in jail, physically abusive, ignorantly neglectful, or any combination thereof. I also have kids whose parents are lovely people, but the kids have been very badly bullied or suffer from disfiguring illnesses, and who never leave their houses out of fear. I'm not saying these things to tell you, "you have it easy." I dont neccessarily believe that you do. I'm only saying, we all have our crosses to bear and life does not deal everyone a fair hand.

The only thing that we all do have equally is the choice to decide how we are going to handle this hand we have been dealt. You aren't yet an adult, so I wouldn't expect you to respond to everything in an adult manner. But the fact is, you will not be a child forever and whenever you want to you can decide to take responsibility for your own life. Yeah I know at 13 it doesn't seem possible, because it seems like you have to follow everyone else's rules and do what everyone else wants, and to an extent that's true. But as you get older, you'll start to realise that no one will want to hear that all of your problems are somebody else's fault - you will have to start taking responsibility for your own actions. Is that fair? No. but that's the way it is.

Listen - I would write more but I have to go as I'm having my baby shower in about an hour and I still need to sweep and vaccuum and stuff. Sorry to cut short like this, I will be back later though.

[Rancid_Beasties]

do you know what its like to lay sprawled on the floor bruised and sometimes bloody after being beaten by ur sister, for no good reson?

How much younger than your sister are you? This sounds like a serious problem and you really should make an issue out of this to your parents. Its not normal to be beaten that seriously by a sibling. If your parents dont do anything about it then I'm sorry to say but they suck as parents. You need to talk to someone like kids helpline to see what options you have. I'm serious, dont think I'm taking the piss.

do you know what its like knowing that all your talent and hard work will go unrecognised and end up just being a waste?

We've all had thoughts like that, but you are way too young for them to be controlling your life so much. You say you are intelligent. Well, in my experience in the Victorian Education System, even if you slack off throughout highschool and then do some work in year 11-12, you will get good marks and get into a decent course. Plain and simple. You are in what, year 8-9? Why are you even worried about your future at that stage? I was failing maths, french and geography in year 9 and I ended up with 99.40 in VCE. Keep your chin up and stop thinking about things so much.

do you know wat its like when your parents work all the time just so they can afford monthly bills and school fees, but the money never goes far enough, theres always something that we need but cant afford?
When I was a bit younger than you we went bankrupt...and then when i was your age we went bankrupt again...then came close again about 3 years ago. And not through big business ventures, but through small business ventures (milk bars and a butcher shop), medical bills, credit cards, unemployment etc etc. And yet my parents kept me and my brother in private schools (mind you I was on a singing scholarship) because they value education. I assume your parents are doing something similar. You sound alot like my brother, always whinging about how hard you have it. You know why you are thinking like that? Probably because you are going to school with kids that are almost certainly wealthier than you are. I assure you if you were in the state system, or knew some of the kids from my area that live in the housing commission zone you wouldnt be complaining so much.

[voltanapricot]

You are in what, year 8-9? Why are you even worried about your future at that stage? I was failing maths, french and geography in year 9 and I ended up with 99.40 in VCE. Keep your chin up and stop thinking about things so much.

I agree. You shouldn't be worrying like that. I was at that age, it does you no good whatsoever. Just stay focused on what you're doing now, the future will work out for itself. Stay smart and keep off the voddy. You'll see that your talents aren't going to be wasted if you persist and come out on the other side, which you will.

[insertnamehere]

your situation really isnt that unusual, at least based off a lot of the people i know. i dont know exactly what your family's financial situation is like, but i know what it's like to go without hot water, heat, and electicity sometimes... or sometimes water at all. me and my dad have taken change to the grocery store before and put it in the machine that gives you a ticket of how much money it was and used that to get groceries before.

as for your sister, that does sound strange. i dont know how much bigger she is than you, but you could try fighting back. winning a fight isnt always a matter of size and strength.

you feel unappreciated when you work hard so you decided to take the self destructive path? im sorry that people arent more supportive, its good to get a pat on the head sometimes, but what are you expecting, a party because you did your homework? dont work hard to please your parents, work hard to make something of yourself. i promise wasting away your potentian will only make you regret it later in life

[like2_drink]

Stop drinking vodka


THANK YOU.

[Kid Presentable]

we assume you're uneducated because of the way you type
hahaha

ps, I failed my first six maths exams, cheated and still failed a Latin exam, and look at me now.

[vickista]

your situation really isnt that unusual, at least based off a lot of the people i know. i dont know exactly what your family's financial situation is like, but i know what it's like to go without hot water, heat, and electicity sometimes... or sometimes water at all. me and my dad have taken change to the grocery store before and put it in the machine that gives you a ticket of how much money it was and used that to get groceries before.

i know it probably isnt unusual, bu theres no one to fall back on or to talk to about it, so it makes you feel so icilated.

as for your sister, that does sound strange. i dont know how much bigger she is than you, but you could try fighting back. winning a fight isnt always a matter of size and strength.

shes only two and a half years older than me, but she is very built muscle wise, and i cant really fight back because i do karate right so i know ways to hurt her really bad, but i dont want to for obvious reasons, and i also know how to hurt her just enough to give me enough time to get away, but that hasnt worked because she'll hit me once shes recovered twice as bad, so all i can do is take it, and she only does it when were home alone, and were home alone quite often due to the long hours my parents work.


you feel unappreciated when you work hard so you decided to take the self destructive path? im sorry that people arent more supportive, its good to get a pat on the head sometimes, but what are you expecting, a party because you did your homework? dont work hard to please your parents, work hard to make something of yourself. i promise wasting away your potentian will only make you regret it later in life.


i dont mean to sound like a whiner when i say it but its true. i dont want "a party because i did my homework" but my english teacher mrs brain told my mum at a PTI that i was a gifted student who had a brilliant mind etc etc. and when my mum got home she told me, but then acted like that was expected.and its been happening all my life like when i've done really good work like in grade five i was writing at a yr 8 level, i mean a little bit of "good work vicki" or "were proud of you vicki" wouldnt hurt would it. so then in last yr. i decided if they didnt care either did i and when my report came i'd gotten A's in every subject except maths were i got a D. and my mum went on about how dissapointing it was and how my standards had gone down and i was like "the seven years i spent getting pefect marks so you could tell me just once that you were proud, and you didnt, now for the first time ever i've gotten a D and you lay on the guilt so thick!" i mean its like all i am is a report card to them. they ignore me all yr- im not sure if its ignorance or there just so tired thay cant be bothered with me- but when report time comes around they pay heaps of attention to me. and whats worse is at school whenever we do writing things where they chose one representative from our class to present stuff i always try really hard and study up on the topic and everything and its never me thats chosen i mean im not saying i should get it all the time but at least once out of all the times we've been asked. i mean i no i sound like a selfish bitch when i say this stuff but im all i've got no one else wants anything to do with me.

[insertnamehere]

i dont really know what to tell you about not having anyone to talk to, i mean i guess the standard response would be go out and meet people but im kind of in the same situation as far as that goes, and i dont really know how to meet people. i wont really go to events of any kind alone because then i just stand there all alone and awkward and really im pretty much a social retard but i can tell you that some day you'll meet someone that understand you.

as for the whole deal with the report card, i understand that too. let me explain how it works... you starting off doing really super good, and so it's just expected of you. you raised the bar for yourself. your mom was disappointed because she knows you could have done way better.you probably woudlnt have even really had to work hard to do better, i know when i was in middle school i didnt have to do shit and i still made A's and B's. i was tested and considered academically gifted and all that and no one treated it like a big deal. what it means is your average is higher than the average person's average. you doing average happens to be making A's, and you cant really go above and beyond that to get recognition, but you can do worse. if you're as smart as your making yourself sound (no offense, im not trying to argue) then it really isnt any work to make good grades. and i promise that making good grades now will pay off later. i wish id done more than "just enough" in highschool now because it's hurting me in college. im trying to do calculus when i cant even remember simple algebra. and for me "just enough" still happened to be A's. i have a skill of looking over something 5 minutes before the test, doing better than everyone on it, and then forgetting it by next class period. or at least i did then, its not working out so well now at the university level.

the only problems you've described that i havnt been in the exact same situation is with your sister, and you're drama within your group of friends, and the latter is because i didnt have any friends. so i promise you arent the only one and in a few years you'll think that you were acting silly now.

[vickista]

i dont really know what to tell you about not having anyone to talk to, i mean i guess the standard response would be go out and meet people

i now ppl just not ppl who i can talk to about this. its wierd when im at school most of the time i will be loud, cracking jokes, and you know getting along with everyone gr8, but i cant tell them shit like this then they'll just think im a freak.

if you're as smart as your making yourself sound

i dont mean to sound full of myself but im just trying to get across that its frustrating.
so i promise you arent the only one and in a few years you'll think that you were acting silly now.

maybe i am being silly but its hard feeling like ur always alone, (you said urself you have a hard time making friends so maybe you no what i mean sometimes when ur down and you feel like such an idiot, and u have that feeling that ur all alone, like no one else knows u exist. do you get that too?or am i not making sense?)

the only problems you've described that i havnt been in the exact same situation is with your sister.
i think thats the one that really fucks me up, coz after she hits me it like all these emotions rush in like depression,frustration,anger,loathing,pitty and then when no one does anything about it, it makes me really angry coz its like there turning a blind eye so to speak and its kind of like why should i bother with anything at all, coz she'll always bring me down in the end.

[Lyman Zerga]

fuck you
im without any friends for like 9 years
and do you hear me whining?
well yes you do

[Pres Zount]

Step it up a notch with your sister. Tell her that if she hurts you again you will stab her in her sleep.

[Kid Presentable]

Her replies are very remniscient of one Qdrop. Multi-tiered quotatable madness.

[ericlee]

but yet she still implies that it helps ease her when she drinks. This is one of the stages of a habit or addiction settling in. When people start making excuses as to why they drink is not a good sign.

One thing that's benificial in ways to overcome stress is just plain old exercise. Especially in the situation between her and her sister.

A good work out session eases so much stress period, and not just that fact, she can step up to her sister and hand her ass to her.

[jackrock]

Kids under 15 who drink are plenty more likely to develop a drinking addiction in the future. Fact.

[vickista]

but yet she still implies that it helps ease her when she drinks. This is one of the stages of a habit or addiction settling in. When people start making excuses as to why they drink is not a good sign.


i am not an addict, and i will prove it to you. as from today.tuesday the 25th of april i will not have a single sip of any alcoholic substance including vodka. is easy as pie, i will update u if u like, i do not NEED it i just like having it from time to time, if it worries you all sooo much i will stop because im not addicted.

[ms.peachy]

as from today.tuesday the 25th of april i will not have a single sip of any alcoholic substance including vodka.
That's good to hear, vick, I think that's a very good decision. But don't do it to prove anything to anybody else, do it because it's a better choice for you - it's not about any of us, it's about your life.

I don't think anyone else was saying that you ARE an addict, only that you if you do choose to keep drinking and making excuses for doing so, you are setting off down that dark and dangerous road, and no one, even a bunch of random internet strangers, wants to see you do that.