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[Sarky Devotchka]

so, I just spent like 40 bucks to have a horrible time. I think people like my hair more than they like me. I did the kiss kiss, chat chat, but all I wanted was to be at home by myself. normally I would cry or something, but I don't feel anything. my fake boyfriend doesn't want me to come over. he wanted me to come over last night, but I fell asleep at like 11:30 and didn't go.

ever since I moved, I only think about getting the house together. I miss my old neighborhood alot. we had to walk 4 blocks to get a cab tonight. normally I could just walk down the street and get one easy. I might as well live in ohio.

I don't know what I want from this.

[Yeti]

Ohio is nice. May I suggest Columbus or maybe Cleveland?
They have cabs but you may have to call first. Single life is difficult but I have to say that marriage takes some work. My wife hogs the bed and sometimes asks me to do stuff.

[ScarySquirrel]

Cabs are expensive. Take the bus.

[HEIRESS]

Ive become a hermit the last couple months

I may snap out of it

maybe not, we'll see

[Hiebz]

hermitage is underrated

[Ace42X]

so, I just spent like 40 bucks to have a horrible time.

Story of my life. Now I let good times come to me.

[drizl]

i hate that feeling...the numbness. everything turns blah, and no motivation to do anything. i hope you feel better soon. get a sweet bicycle and ride it around when its nice out. shit my eggs are burning! i can smell it! ew!

[SobaViolence]

if i ever spend more than 10$ going out, its to get drunk and then not even lame ass guppies can ruin my time. not even after they try really really hard.

you need a change in social environment...

[beastiegirrl101]

Sarky what area did you move to?

[Sarky Devotchka]

actually I wish my social environment was like it was before. now that cort has a boyfriend, going out is not a top priority. my new roommate (beck) is dating cort's boyfriend's roommate too. that night was just weird because beck was sort of on a date. we went to the show together and I'm friends with the band, so it wasn't really that bad, but she was meeting her boy there and he didn't know anyone else.

I don't know, I just didn't have a home base. I live in a different neighborhood now, so I couldn't tag along with my boys, I was just kind of by myself half the time. It's just an adjustment. there was about a half hour during the night where I was surrounded by friends having good conversations, but when we dispersed, I was on my lonesome. although after I posted this, my fake boyfriend texted me to come over, but it was too little too late for this lady.

[Sarky Devotchka]

Sarky what area did you move to?

logan square.

[steve-onpoint]

hermitage is underrated

Tell me about it. :o

[beastiegirrl101]

logan square.

have you been to Lula Cafe yet? Yum.

[Sarky Devotchka]

yeah, but not since moving. I went there last summer for brunch once. it's all artsy and stuff. it tasted good I think, but the sun was in my eyes and we were eating with our friend's friends, who were ultra-hipsters. the guy was nice, but the girl was really prententious and left a really shitty tip, like less than 15%! cort and I paid extra so the waitress wouldn't think we were dicks...because she was very helpful and did a great job. she deserved 20%

but I'll try it again with different company. :cool: and shades.

[Planetary]

how long you been living there? you'll probably settle in eventually, just like a new mattress, you need to get used to it. and mayby embrace it. depends how you feel....

[Echewta]

Comic books are always my friend when I'm feeling lonely. Just a suggestion.

[Sarky Devotchka]

aw, comic books would just remind me of the comic book boys who've broken my heart. boo hoo.

it's been two weeks in the new place so far. just little things are irritating me...I need some sort of stability. beck is feeding george every time he asks, then he can't finish it and her cat eats it. also, she set up a separate litter box right in the foyer, so you see a cat litter box as soon as you walk in the apartment! and her cat's going to the bathroom in george's litter box anyway! we should just have one. also, she puts things in the most random places and puts pans in the dishwasher! and leaves trash on the counter!

I swear, I keep cleaning up after everyone and they must just think a magic leprechaun is doing it.

argh!

[beastiegirrl101]

tons of new stuffs are popping up in that area. It was supposed to be the "spot" like years ago...never really felt safe over there but the rent deals kick ass.

It takes a while to get settled, moving is stressful and getting into a routine is tough when your place is rocked with boxes and 2 cats fighting.

[cosmo105]

i'm a hermit and a half most of the time but steger's really brought me out of my crusty little shell. i'm actually closer to my friends from my hometown now than i ever was in school, and see them more often. and i'm better at making new friends, too. seeing as how i hadn't done it since about junior high...i still pride myself on being hXc shy and introverted though \m/

[Echewta]

When I've finished reading comic books and I am by myself, I playing hacky sack in the kitchen or replacing the candles I have in my Jane* shrine.

[Sarky Devotchka]

tons of new stuffs are popping up in that area. It was supposed to be the "spot" like years ago...never really felt safe over there but the rent deals kick ass.

It takes a while to get settled, moving is stressful and getting into a routine is tough when your place is rocked with boxes and 2 cats fighting.

I really haven't felt unsafe over here. It's mostly all families. although becks got called a "white bitch" on her way to work by some little girls. heh. nobody bothers me because I can usually pass for hispanic...on account of me actually being part spanish I guess. we're definitely minorities over here though. nobody has bars on their windows and I haven't seen any crazies...mostly just tough-looking teenagers and kids on low rider bicycles. for a few days a group of young guys hung out on the corner all the time, but I haven't seen them since last week...dunno if it was a gang or what. we have a Latin Kings tag on the back of our building, but Becks used to live next door to an old Kings hang out called "The International Club" and they were pretty mellow.

Having a bar across the street makes me feel safer actually. we're farther up, north of diversey, south of fullerton starts getting too close to humboldt park and can get seriously creepy.

and the cats fighting is the best part of the whole thing. they are hilarious.

[BangkokB]

hitchhiking is way underrated...You not only get a ride but a story that can last the ages. Shoot for the stars and look for vans that don't have inside door handles.

I ws once hitchhiking and that was the strangest Twilight Zone type of ride I've ever had.

[supermars]

Ive become a hermit the last couple months

I may snap out of it

maybe not, we'll see

i so hear you on that.

but wait, i find myself going out on during the week, then by the time the weekend comes i'm dead. i'm in reverse mode.

sarky, i hope you settle in soon. it takes time. oh and tell fake bf that he's gotta make booty CALLS, not booty TEXTS!

[Sarky Devotchka]

yay supermars! ah well, the texts were because he was hanging out with his best friend who happens to be a boy I used to care for very much. it was awkward enough I'm sure. I wonder what he says about me. bleh, I don't really care.

I put my socks and underwear away yesterday! and some sweaters and pajamas. my room's starting to shape up. I'm trying really hard to make it look like an adult's room this time. I'll take pictures when it's done.

[hardnox71]

logan square.
I used to live in Logan Square about thirteen years ago. I lived right on Logan Blvd. I can't remember the name of the fucking side street. But every Christmas there is a house the goes completely balls out with the decorations. I mean it's absolutely amazing what these people do to this house. Traffic is lined up all the way down Logan Blvd due to people coming from all over the city to see this house. Well, that's the block I lived on except I lived on the opposite corner. I hated the holidays. The traffic really was a fucking mess because of this gotdamned house.

[hardnox71]

for a few days a group of young guys hung out on the corner all the time, but I haven't seen them since last week...dunno if it was a gang or what. we have a Latin Kings tag on the back of our building, but Becks used to live next door to an old Kings hang out called "The International Club" and they were pretty mellow.
Look at the baseball caps. If they are turned to the wearer's left then they are Kings or some affilitation. If they are turned to the right then they are Folks. Which gang, I don't know. I stopped banging years ago and haven't kept up with who has taken over what neighborhoods. What you do need to watch is the fact if you do live in a Folks neighborhood and you have Latin Kings tag on the back of your building then obviously the Kings aren't spooked about riding through rival territory. Which, on the west side of Chicago, can make for a very dangerous summer. Trust me. I survived many of them in Humbolt Park.

Be careful walking around there, Sarky.


edit-Was this "International Club" in Wicker Park on Wolcott right off of Crystal street?

[ASsman]

F'ing punk asses.

[Sarky Devotchka]

edit-Was this "International Club" in Wicker Park on Wolcott right off of Crystal street?

yup

[hardnox71]

F'ing punk asses.
This is true but that doesn't make them any less dangerous. If fact that makes them more dangerous. When it comes to the streets and gangs in the summertime, Chicago is a fucking mess. When it starts to get real hot all kinds of shit jumps off.

[hardnox71]

yup
I've probably seen your Becks before. I never hung out at that club being as they were Kings and I'm a retired Dragon but I'm extremely familiar with the area. That area is pretty mellow now but it used to be shithole. Actually all of Wicker Park used to be a gotdamned combat zone back in the 80's and up to the mid 90's. King's had a terror hold on Wicker Park. Gentrification changed alot of shit. Yuppies buying condos and paying alot in property taxes made the local politicians decide that they needed to keep the yuppies alive and in one piece so they can vote come next election and keep paying exhorbitant property taxes. So that's when the cops started patrolling the neighborhood.

I was in Wicker Park last night as a matter of fact. Can't tell you all the cops I saw. Like fucking roaches.

[Sarky Devotchka]

and really, people seem to be nice around here. I saw more broken glass from cars being busted into and people being arrested where I lived before than I do here. and there's tons of kids. people keep their yards nice, etc. it's just not bustling with people, so I wouldn't want to walk around at night by myself at all.

[Sarky Devotchka]

I've probably seen your Becks before. I never hung out at that club being as they were Kings and I'm a retired Dragon but I'm extremely familiar with the area.

yeah, there was a stabbing over there and a shoot-out once, but otherwise it was quiet. she lived right next door, we lived down the street through the alley on evergreen by the park. across our back alley, there were housing projects and I saw some drug deals, but I'm pretty sure the cops nailed them because I stopped seeing hand-offs and people hanging out in front at all hours. then they built this god awful condo right between the project houses! jesus, who fucking wants to live there, the people had a nice yard in the middle for the kids to play, now there's a big brick wall, no more sunshine and a bunch of yuppie dumb fucks who'd pay hundreds of thousands of dollars to live in between. that'll make for a nice awkward time.

[hardnox71]

and really, people seem to be nice around here. I saw more broken glass from cars being busted into and people being arrested where I lived before than I do here. and there's tons of kids. people keep their yards nice, etc. it's just not bustling with people, so I wouldn't want to walk around at night by myself at all.
Yeah, I know what you mean. Once you get used to an certain type of area it's hard to get used to something else.

I grew up on 95th and Halsted. It's the kind of neighborhood where if you want to get something to eat in the middle of the night you would have to get in your car and drive about ten minutes. In '95 I moved with my ex to Lakeview, right off of Belmont and Clark. I have lived on the North side ever since. Lakeview, Lincoln Park, Rogers Park, Gold Coast, Bucktown/Wicker Park...and so on. And it's always been in parts of the neighborhood where there was alot of hustle and bustle. I'm just used to it. I like being able to walk out of my house and two in the morning and get a fucking cheesy Italian beef with grilled onions and jalapenos, ya' know? I like being close to shit. Walgreens, Blockbuster, Dominicks, Jewel, pizza, you name it. All a five minute walk. I love the South side to death but I couldn't move back there. At least not where I grew up.

[supermars]

yay supermars! ah well, the texts were because he was hanging out with his best friend who happens to be a boy I used to care for very much. it was awkward enough I'm sure. I wonder what he says about me. bleh, I don't really care.

I put my socks and underwear away yesterday! and some sweaters and pajamas. my room's starting to shape up. I'm trying really hard to make it look like an adult's room this time. I'll take pictures when it's done.

yay sarky! yay for not caring!

YAY FOR GETTING A BIG GIRL ROOM! ikea credit cards are really good for achieving that :D

[Jmoney77]

trying to get to 1000

[Lyman Zerga]

try harder