My Life is a Country Music Song

[skra75]

Long time no talk.
So ... here's what's going on right now with me.

Gigantic Job shift where they are offshoring work and staff. My job is Kosher though, still, stressful. My mentor of 6 years here is leaving, he said he's had enough.

My wife has been cheating on me with her high-school sweetheart, staying up every night (20 minutes to 3 hours everynight) on her Mobile phone and listening to Am An Set cooing over him. This has been going on for two months, and fucked him several times I'm sure when we went to Ohio to visit. Now she says she's leaving me and going to Ohio to live. She's gone bananas and has bought a Banjo and studies Kundali Chakra techniques, talking about getting tattoos of fractals and shit.

I have two kids - ages 8 and 3. They are brilliant, gifted kids whom I adore and nuture every day. They are in explicably caught up in this mess. I've decided to fight for custody, setting myself for a summer of bitter divorce. Looking at being a single, white collar working, dad.

Right before my wife flaked out, we bought our dream house after much cajoling and convincing from her to move from our quiet fishing town. The new house is a gorgeous Brady Bunch looking house in a serene neighborhood reminiscient of the movie "The Ice Storm". She sprung this flaky news of leaving and becoming financially separate on me, and now I owe double mortages, and have been forced to put the new house back onto the market. Fuck.

I feel like I've been gutted. It's hard to sleep and even harder to eat. I'm getting better every day I think. I'm trying to stay healthy. Somewhere ahead there is a hope, I'm trying to stay positive.

Backwards Chimp

[chrisd]

listen to some old bullshit and read saul bellow

[Randetica]

sounds pretty bad
im sorry

[skra75]

Yeah I'm still not sure I barfed out all this stuff to you guys.
Kinda wierd to say it all out loud.
feels good, but I'm not sure what the hell kind of result I'm looking for.

[Randetica]

well you could always barf on me

[thegoodmrbrodie!]

sorry to hear all that. pretty darn crap. good luck with your future endeavours.

[cosmo105]

oh man, american analog set gets me every time. sorry bro.

[Sarky Devotchka]

that sucks alot dude. we should probably make out.

[skra75]

i'd like that very much sarky thanks.

this fucking sucks
she went to ohio and i'm here by myself with my two little kids.
they don't know what the fuck is going on, she said she may be back on 24th.

i hate her and i miss her
11 fucking years
this housed seems cold and empty and it fucking hurts
sorry for laying this on any of you loyal readers, really.
I need to get this shit out somehow
I can't stop thinking of her with that rotten emo fuck she's fucking

somebody needs to come here and hold my hand or some shit
I feel kinda retarded

I'd post my fucking mobile number but my phone is dead and I think I'd live to regret that move (mass hate mail).

i'll be back on my game sooner or later.

Backwoods

[Randetica]

i can hold your e-hand :(

[skra75]

thanks man, I welcome the love
it feels boss.

[skra75]

I'm gonna miss bragging about my travel on here.
that was very fun.
I was all lined up to go to San Diego Comic Con too before all this bizarre shit went down. No travel for me whilst I wrangle these many responsibilities.

She was pretty fucking miserable here in RI
I suppose I should have seen it coming.
I tried to be a fucking good person but she shut me out and was done.
plus I think she's off her rocker
it runs in her family
good times.

[Sarky Devotchka]

I guess the only thing you can do now is let her go and be the best dad you can be. *good natured patting* :(

[fucktopgirl]

He *give a hug*

Broken relationship are hard to handle and deal with BUT things will get better eventually. Change is always for the better even tho it is hard to see or acknowledge at first.

Anyway :) wish you strengh man!

[The Notorious LOL]

I would say "good to hear from you" but since its under such ass circumstances I dont know that thats the case.


Unfortunately, you're right that no one can really offer any real solace or sage advice on what the hell to do. Ultimately that is one of those situations that just takes time and energy to heal from and when you're in the midst of it, you want that time to be up and to feel better.

If things are as bad now as you could possibly see them getting, the only way is up. Better to raise your kids alone rather than having a bad relationship with your wife.


Sincerely,
Rick James As Your Prison Bitch

[venusvenus123]

wow, i never realised you had one kid, let alone two! i echo sentiments already expressed here... so sorry to hear all that! good luck with the custody battle; i admire you for doing that and wanting to support your kids.

*love and hugs*:cool:

[skra75]

Thanks everyone
I appreciate all the nice words
my life with the kids is very normal without her,
I go to work, come home, make dinner, and get them washed up for bed.
feels good actually, doing it myself, gives me joy.
I know this is a tough spot and I'll pull through and emerge a stronger person after it's all said and done.
I still can't believe she up and left, it's so cold.
I don't think my kids understand what the hell is going on, especially my 3 year old.
it's really sad, how could a mother do this?

[King PSYZ]

Sorry bro, my mom left my family behind too. Granted she waited until my younger brother was 18, but still just up and left and cut all ties with us. Hurts man, so I know your kids are gonna feel that anger and pain for a long time. All you can go is try and keep from flipping out towards or around them. I know you're hurting too, but from experience you gotta be strong for them.

My pops flipped out a few times from the grief of it all and said a lot of things that should have never been said, and did a lot of things that nobody should ever do. It took a long time to fix our relationship and even still, it will never be like it was.

All you can do is take solace in the fact that your kids will recognize that you stayed by them and fought the good fight for them in going after custody. They will always hold you in a high regard for not cutting out like their mom.

[skra75]

wow thanks. this is nice to hear.
i'm so sorry for what happened to you, but your words are good to hear.
i'll keep on bein a good guy for my kids and try to hang in there.

[Echewta]

I'm sorry to read about this chimp. I hope better things lay ahead.

[B4BY 4NN]

Are you listening to AQUA?

[alexandra]

aqua is the shit.

"happy boys and girls" will cheer you up.

listen to it.

[skra75]

listen to some old bullshit and read saul bellow

which saul bellow book do you recommend?