oh my god

[DandyFop]

I just found out one of my friends jumped off a building last night and died.

I can't process this.

A long time ago I posted photos of a guy that was dressed as Bob Ross for Halloween...that's him.

Holy shit.

[like2_drink]

i'm so sorry to hear man

there's recently been many deaths here also(n)

i really don't know what to tell ya other then i'm sorry

[DandyFop]

my boyfriend is a close friend of his

but he's at work

fuck

[beastiegirrl101]

was it sucide or was it an accident? I know sounds like a weird question but we hang out on rooftops over here and i have done some stupid shit on dares.

Brab, either way...so sorry to hear this.

[alexandra]

that's pretty heavy. i'm guessing he was your age.

take care of each other. <3

[BangkokB]

His name was dressed up as Bob Ross

[beastieangel01]

god, I'm sorry :( I don't at all say this to be insensitive but it seems that there is just a lot of bad things happening this week for a lot of us.

Again, I'm sorry. I know what it's like to lose a friend. If you need someone to talk to let me know. I'm sure you know many that are willing to listen already, but just know that there is an extra ear available for you <3

[DroppinScience]

Very sorry to hear this, Dandy! :(

[Lyman Zerga]

boo :(

[abcdefz]

Sorry to read this. Very sad.

[King PSYZ]

My god... sometimes I wish people realised the effect suicide has on those left behind wondering why. I hope you and those close to him are able to get through this ok, I can only imagine what you're going through.

[ms.peachy]

Jeez, what a shock, dandy. I'm sorry to hear about your friend. Hugs.

[DandyFop]

Thanks for the kind words everyone.

This was his myspace - www.myspace.com/content_free. Sorry if that seems weird to link to, but for me as an outsider to these kind of events I'm always curious to find out about the person.

I was the last person to leave a comment before the news hit :( jesus christ.

I just saw him Sunday. We all played soccer and badminton and frisbee in the park. He seemed fine. The night before we also all hung out and got drunk and played guitar hero.

To whomever asked, it was confirmed that it wasn't an accident, from a few details that I don't want to go into. I knew he was dealing with some depression, but i had absolutely no clue he was so far gone. Fuck, I wish he could have taken some pills or some shit and been unsuccessful.

Oh man :( here's (http://www.beastieboys.com/bbs/showthread.php?t=36859&highlight=Halloween) the thread where I posted the Halloween pics. I had had such a huge crush on him and thought he was so hot, so when we finally kissed that night I actually took pictures of it, hah.

Now it's like I'm just cataloguing all the times we spent together. His poor mother and father were at my friends house when I was there (that's where he'd been living), and his mom was just about to go identify him at the morgue. Jesus christ, can you imagine that? Fuck.

It still hasn't really hit me, and i doubt it ever will. I'm not in denial, it's something different. I haven't even really cried. I can never seem to cry about the things that matter.

[DandyFop]

holy shit i found the news article

Passers-by are shocked when they discover a body in downtown Salt Lake. Police say it was in the middle of the road, near Social Hall Plaza.

It caused quite a public disturbance. Police had to shut down streets all around the area. The body was found around midnight.

Police say it's a man in his mid-twenties. They found his wallet on scene and have identified him.

Police initially thought maybe the body had been dumped and this could be a homicide. But several factors point to a suicide.

Investigators found blood in the man's car, but then something strange-- a bloody footprint found on the roof of a nearby parking garage. Detectives say the man tried to take his own life and when that didn't work he stumbled up to a parking garage and jumped. That would be roughly a five to six story drop.

So far, that's what investigators believe. But again, there's a lot of work ahead to get to the bottom of this.

The maintainence crew at Social Hall called police after seeing the body. Homicide detectives and bloodhounds initially responded, thinking there could have been a crime. But the medical examiner has determined it was a suicide.

It took hours for the roads in the area to re-open, but that happened around 3:00 this morning.

[enree erzweglle]

I am sorry to hear about this. It's so sad and it's hard to wrap yourself around something like that. :(

[HOTWIFE]

I'm really sorry Dandy:(

[Planetary]

sorry to hear :(

[Ally Al]

sorry for your loss DF, thats awful, stay strong :(

[Dorothy Wood]

that's awful, I'm so sorry.

[ampm]

I just found out one of my friends jumped off a building last night and died.

I can't process this.

A long time ago I posted photos of a guy that was dressed as Bob Ross for Halloween...that's him.

Holy shit.

Why didn't he just say he didn't want to be friends anymore? It's too bad.

[QueenAdrock]

Oh god, Dandy! I'm so sorry something like this happened to someone you cared about.

If you need someone to talk to, you know my screen name.

:(

[cosmo105]

ohh, his poor mother having to go to the morgue. that's really terrible. sorry to hear it, barb. :(

[kaiser soze]

I'm sorry to hear about this tragic news, I hope all of you who know him will find healing for your hearts in time.

but for now, cry your heart out :(

[DandyFop]

thanks again. It's a very strange feeling. I kind of shut off emotionally during times like this, and therefore can't really cry or anything. I wish I could...I'm guessing the tears will come at some point.

It's hard being around one of my close friends right now because she kind of freaked out, which obviously she's entitled to, but it almost seemed like a, look how sad I am type thing, you know?

[BGirl]

Oh shit. I'm so sorry to hear about this. That's awful.


Everybody deals with things in their own way. Nothing to feel guilty about at all.


big hug

{{{{DandyFop}}}}

[befsquire]

how terribly sad. :(

[TAL]

Not at all a good time.

[Lyman Zerga]

well yeah, depression is real

[na§tee]

i am very sorry dandy. never know what to say in situations like these. hope you and the rest of his friends can club together to help each other through this time.

[DipDipDive]

Jesus :( I'm sorry.

[Kid Presentable]

My condolences.

[DeeJayZap]

Things like this are so awful that I don't know what to say but that I hope you get through this ok.

[Documad]

I am so sorry. What a horrible thing to do to one's parents and friends.

I knew a guy who did something similar but just slightly less dramatic (he did himself in via car). I had known him pretty well in school but it had been several years since I last saw him. I wish I could remember the good times without thinking of how he died.

Don't beat yourself up if you don't react like some other people. We all have different coping mechanisms. I'm a brick wall when really serious stuff happens but I go crazy over minor irritations. Keep talking about your feelings.

[Ace42X]

I am so sorry. What a horrible thing to do to one's parents and friends.

Yah, totally... I mean, it's not like he couldn't going on living a life so intolerable that he wanted to slice himself off and chuck himself off a tall building or anything...

[b-grrrlie]

I'm so sorry to hear about your friend, Dandy.
Sometimes life is a cruel mistress.
It is always devastating to find out about deaths of friends and familymembers and you always wish you could've done something about it. But don't forget to cry! It always helps!

[avignon]

I'm very sorry for your loss.

[DandyFop]

hey all. thanks very much for your support. it means a lot to me for you to take the time to do that.

it's been a really rough couple of days. My mom has been dealing with shit of her own, a friend died because her liver transplant failed, she's going to that funeral today. And we just found out my aunt has breast cancer. When it rains it pours right? Sorry I'm not trying for a pity party here.

The wake for Moody (my friend) was last night at his parent's house. The turnout was amazing and a real testament to the kind of person he was. I know now what people mean when something like this happens and it is said that the person was so unique. It was true with him. He was such a compassionate and loving guy. I miss him so much. It's also hard obviously to understand why he made the choice he made. His mother talked about seeing his dead body and just saying "Baby you made a big mistake". God...it's just so hard to understand how somebody could hate themselves or their life so much,especially when they were someone who seemed so happy and exuberant.

Thanks again, everyone. If you can take anything from this, it's that to make sure the people you love know that you love them.

[Bob]

any word on why he did it?

[DandyFop]

Not really. I've been hearing things here and there...apparently he felt like he was surrounded by people who were so talented and creative and he didn't think he had anything like that to offer. He spent a year or so in California with Buddhist monks building monestaries or something, so I think he's been kind of "searching" for a while.

A while ago when we were playing games in the park, we were talking about his tattoo that he hates and I think someone asked him if he wants to get it removed. He responded with something along the lines of "well I'm going to die young" or something. I was there, but I didn't hear it. Who knows.

[Bob]

Not really. I've been hearing things here and there...apparently he felt like he was surrounded by people who were so talented and creative and he didn't think he had anything like that to offer. He spent a year or so in California with Buddhist monks building monestaries or something, so I think he's been kind of "searching" for a while.

oh god, i hope that's not it. what a horrible reason to kill yourself. i hate to sound rude, but really.

[DandyFop]

well is there ever a really good reason? I don't know. There's no point to me in analyzing it too much, because I'm never going to know. I know that he was lonely also. He could get any chick he wanted, but he was still lonely.

[Qdrop]

well is there ever a really good reason?

clinical mental illness, i suppose.

but that's more of a cause...

i dunno.
to truly DECIDE to kill yourself with a clear mind and an understanding of what the future could hold is pretty stupid to me, unless a debilatating illness or terminal illness was in your future, than i could undestand.

but i really have tried to understand the choice of suicide, and i just wonder if, to really do such a thing, you would almost HAVE to be suffering from some kind of mental illness....one that affects your ability to weigh decisions, understand scenarios, see long-term, etc.
which is the most tragic thing of all- almost like those who commit suicide are victims themselves, unable to think clearly during that time period.

[Bob]

clinical mental illness, i suppose.

but that's more of a cause...

i dunno.
to truly DECIDE to kill yourself with a clear mind and an understanding of what the future could hold is pretty stupid to me, unless a debilatating illness or terminal illness was in your future, than i could undestand.

but i really have tried to understand the choice of suicide, and i just wonder if, to really do such a thing, you would almost HAVE to be suffering from some kind of mental illness....one that affects your ability to weigh decisions, understand scenarios, see long-term, etc.
which is the most tragic thing of all- almost like those who commit suicide are victims themselves, unable to think clearly during that time period.

yeah, i kind of feel the same way. i guess if you've never been suicidal though, maybe you can't really understand it. i don't know. it's messed up.

the only time i could ever really kill myself would be if i were terminally ill and i'd be in pain up until the end. i don't know if that counts. other than that, maybe i'd only do it if my life were in shambles and there was nobody, and i do mean nobody who'd miss me if i were gone. family's dead, friends are dead, co-workers are jerks, etc. it just seems rude to do it if there's people who love you.