I messed up...

[HEIRESS]

because I'm messed up

:(

[TurdBerglar]

did you fuck boomin????

[SobaViolence]

people make mistakes
shit happens

don't sweat it.

[drizl]

fix it because your a fixerupper

[Waus]

As long as there's no restraining order - you still have hope!

[drizl]

i just had a pen explode in my laundry:(

[Waus]

i just had a pen explode in my laundry:(

Oh snap...try to sell your ruined shirts on Ebay as "trendy dyed shirts!"

[drizl]

yep they're fuct. not too bad though. one pair of shorts and a little bit on a shirt. could have been worse

[Dorothy Wood]

oh no heiress! just taste it, chocolate and peanut butter taste great together!

:(




:)

[marsdaddy]

Might mousse help?

[beastieangel01]

what happened miss :( ?

[paul jones]

you didn't blow the lab up did you?

[na§tee]

awwh babes, what happened?

you can always correct your mistakes, kiddo! big hugs.

[monkey]

<3 i hope youre ok

[HEIRESS]

sadly mousse will not help

I single again

yee
haw

:/

[g-mile7]

Damn shame:( you'll make it though....

[hpdrifter]

What happened? Did you sloppy kiss someone after drinking? He's gotta be able to forgive that. I mean, how can you control lips like those, really.

[mickill]

Breaking up is hard to do. But you know there's other fish...in the sea, that is.

[g-mile7]

What happened? Did you sloppy kiss someone after drinking? He's gotta be able to forgive that. I mean, how can you control lips like those, really.

4reel, but you both started out as friends so I feel that if the thing isn't anymore then kissing someone else then it has chance of working it self out.:)

[beastiegirrl101]

Breaking up is hard to do.

just when you think you'll be ok, thats when they call. And they always do. Stay strong missy....

[beastieangel01]

:(

you'll be okay. You're a catch after all.

[wrongwayandugg]

good luck. :) ;)

[HEIRESS]

I was fucking up his life by being with him, and I couldnt handle doing that to someone who doesnt deserve that, or ruin a friendship in the process

I need to be by myself for awhile time so that Im only fucking up my life

[Rock]

im sure there are plenty of people out there that would love to have you in their lives to fuck it up. Its prolly an even trade.

[g-mile7]

im sure there are plenty of people out there that would love to have you in their lives to fuck it up. Its prolly an even trade.


(y)

[HEIRESS]

he was willing to stick it out, but I wasnt willing to watch him suffer

[g-mile7]

Suffer? How, if he was in love with you I wouldnt think it would be suffering, but the deatils are scant in terms of what went down. If your heart wasnt in it I would guess it for the best.

[wrongwayandugg]

I was fucking up his life by being with him, and I couldnt handle doing that to someone who doesnt deserve that, or ruin a friendship in the process

I need to be by myself for awhile time so that Im only fucking up my life

hmm. this sounds oddly familiar. i did something similar to my ex.

[HEIRESS]

I take total responsibility for everything that went down so Im not here looking for sympathy
really I need a punch in the face and some smartening up

I also need to get out of the "run" mode Ive been in since december

[The Notorious LOL]

yeah spare the whole "saving someone from yourself" bullshit because anyone who cares realizes everyone has issues to deal with that can and will at times make you cranky, upset, and miserable but they dont outweigh the good things....unless you let em.

[HEIRESS]

I just want everyone around me to leave me alone and let me happily wallow in my misery

is that so much to ask?

[g-mile7]

Yes, thats the price you pay for having people who care about you.

[The Notorious LOL]

I just want everyone around me to leave me alone and let me happily wallow in my misery

is that so much to ask?



then whyd you post about it here?

[mickill]

I think she meant real people. People who are tangible, physically present, significant to her....real.

[g-mile7]

I think she meant real people. People who are tangible, physically present, significant to her....real.


Yes, thats the price you pay for having people who care about you


(lb)

[The Notorious LOL]

I think she meant real people. People who are tangible, physically present, significant to her....real.



yeah well if I wanted to wallow Id go all out and wallow in real life and on the internet.

[SobaViolence]

self-pity is useless.
and you're better than that.

many of us have issues that we can blame for doing stupid shit. it's addictive; if you don't stop you'll just repeat the cycle over until you either drive yourself neurotic, making real human contact near impossible, or you can break the cycle and realize that you can not let these 'issues' govern your life and stop you from feeling happy.

it ain't fucking easy, but trying is more than half the battle.
habits are hard to break, and that includes the good ones.


seeing a therapist doesn't hurt either.
helped me.
stay strong. :)

[beastiegirrl101]

yeah spare the whole "saving someone from yourself" bullshit because anyone who cares realizes everyone has issues to deal with that can and will at times make you cranky, upset, and miserable but they dont outweigh the good things....unless you let em.

ok, I'm back to loving you.

[The Notorious LOL]

num nums

[Echewta]

If someone is willing to stick with you when you are a fuckup, thats a pretty good person. Whatever you are doing or did is forgiveable in his eyes. Why not use that support to make the change to be better?

[drizl]

the minute you tell everyone your single, the thread blows up:)

[hpdrifter]

Yeah, I tend to agree. I'm damaging him seems to translate into he doesn't make my knees weak.

[HEIRESS]

I cant go out with someone just because they want to "save" me or something along those lines
it just doesnt work
he is the nicest boy any girl could ask for but I just dont want him, I tried to make myself want him but I can't right now
do I deserve someone as kind and caring as him, yes, do I have so much to offer him that it makes his head spin, yes, do I want him, no
I have no idea whats wrong with me
Ive been a really fucking negative person the past year and I dont feel the need to spread my despair around right now

except of course on the internet

[g-mile7]

I cant go out with someone just because they want to "save" me or something along those lines
it just doesnt work
he is the nicest boy any girl could ask for but I just dont want him, I tried to make myself want him but I can't right now
do I deserve someone as kind and caring as him, yes, do I have so much to offer him that it makes his head spin, yes, do I want him, no
I have no idea whats wrong with me
Ive been a really fucking negative person the past year and I dont feel the need to spread my despair around right now

except of course on the internet


That often happens with most girls though. Maybe he's too perfect, thus the reason most guy friends dont become boyfriends. He was just lucky to get past that label, thats stigma is so hard to break.....

[hardnox71]

you can always correct your mistakes,
Oh, how I wish that was true.

[King PSYZ]

hairseas, I comand you to put on some good music in some headphones and think about nothing for a hour two times a day and drink plenty of fluids.

then call him when your head's back on straight.

[Bob]

I cant go out with someone just because they want to "save" me or something along those lines
it just doesnt work
he is the nicest boy any girl could ask for but I just dont want him, I tried to make myself want him but I can't right now
do I deserve someone as kind and caring as him, yes, do I have so much to offer him that it makes his head spin, yes, do I want him, no
I have no idea whats wrong with me
Ive been a really fucking negative person the past year and I dont feel the need to spread my despair around right now

except of course on the internet

if you don't like him anymore, you don't like him, what can you do. people get sick of people sometimes. at least you didn't get married or anything.

or maybe i'm reading the problem wrong, i dunno

[Echewta]

he is the nicest boy any girl could ask for but I just dont want him, I tried to make myself want him but I can't right now

Ahh. Thats different. OK.

[kaiser soze]

I cant go out with someone just because they want to "save" me or something along those lines
it just doesnt work
he is the nicest boy any girl could ask for but I just dont want him, I tried to make myself want him but I can't right now
do I deserve someone as kind and caring as him, yes, do I have so much to offer him that it makes his head spin, yes, do I want him, no
I have no idea whats wrong with me
Ive been a really fucking negative person the past year and I dont feel the need to spread my despair around right now

except of course on the internet

You've always struck me as a well to do young professional women with a wild side (the pics show it!). Anyways you and he will recover and learn and live and eventually fall in love again (maybe not with each other).

stay out of trouble and you'll be a'ight

[ampm]

Maybe dragging him off to meet people you know off the internet wasn't the hottest of ideas.

[DipDipDive]

Maybe dragging him off to meet people you know off the internet wasn't the hottest of ideas.

Shut the fuck up.

Heiress, I think time alone is what you need. Maybe the reason you "don't want him" is because you've spent so much of your life in recent years in a relationship, often feeling under-appreciated, and questioning what you needed to do to make the other person happy. That's all well and good and it's part of being in a relationship, but focusing on who you are and what you need to do to make yourself happy is just as important. Maybe that's why you didn't want him - he saw the real you and accepted your shortcomings, which is beautiful, but you have to be willing to do the same for yourself before you can fully appreciate being with someone like that. Don't beat yourself up over wanting and needing to do be alone. You made a rational, mature decision as far as I'm concerned.

I said this last time you dealt with a break up - do you. Be single for a while. Rediscover yourself. You'll probably be pleasantly surprised with what you find.

<3

[g-mile7]

Maybe dragging him off to meet people you know off the internet wasn't the hottest of ideas.

tsk tsk.

[Echewta]

Maybe dragging him off to meet people you know off the internet wasn't the hottest of ideas.

Fern?

[Planetary]

Breaking up is hard to do. But you know there's other fish...in the sea, that is.

pharcyde ;)

[cosmo105]

i totally agree with what DDD said.

especially the "do you" part. heh. :cool:

[drizl]

it sounds like to me like this is something you need to go through. its a relationship, its not really that big of a deal compared to, lets say, the birth of a star. but the important thing is that you are learning. self analysis and pain go together...its about understanding who you are...for him, he is going thorugh a whole trip that he will learn from too...hopefully. thats the key, to learn. you did what you had to do, and you are learning. i hope things brighten up:D

[paul jones]

I was fucking up his life by being with him, and I couldnt handle doing that to someone who doesnt deserve that, or ruin a friendship in the process

I need to be by myself for awhile time so that Im only fucking up my life
awww sorry about that buddy(n) :(

[BangkokB]

Heiress,
Sorry to hear about your latest breakup. You and the whole men thing hasn't seemed to work out. Maybe you should go through the whole lesbian phase and PM me the pics so I can guide, lead, and direct you. If you would like I can even scuttle over there and take said pictures.(y)

Seriously~ You're beautiful, funny and easy to talk to so the sky's the limit for you. Just another roadblock in the way of your loving happiness

[HEIRESS]

you always crack me the fuck up

(y)