I'm worried that I've stopped feeling feelings

[Dorothy Wood]

so saturday a friend of mine came over around 4 a.m., I really wasn't expecting him, but he showed up and I was like, "eh, alright, let's watch Head". which is the Monkees movie, you should watch it really.

anyway. we're laying on the sectional couch, head to head. I put my arm out to pat him and say, "hey, isn't mickey dolenz hot?" and he says, "yeah, he's a good-looking dude" and I say, "you're gay". after that he goes to kiss me. and I blow in his face. I mean, we've made out a couple of times before and had decent sex once a few weeks ago because we were both using eachother because we couldn't be with who we really wanted to be with, but I really just kind of wanted to lay on the couch and hold hands and watch a movie.

anyway, yadda yadda. after like 2 hours of funny business, it was like 6:30 in the morning, sunlight streaming into my room, and he goes, "we need to stop doing this". and I was like, "okay, whatever, but it was pretty sexy for a bit there, right?" and he's like, "yeah, but I don't think it's good for our friendship" and I was like, "okay". and he laughed and said, "you really don't give a fuck, huh?" and I was like, "not really".

so, that sucks. because I really don't give a fuck. and I wonder why. he's pretty cool, I'll answer the phone and say, "hey, what's up cheeseburger?" and he'll say (without missing a beat) "not too much, hot dog". and he listens to all my lame bullshit about boys and calls me a weirdo and an idiot when I'm being weird and an idiot.

but I don't want to date him. it's strange, because usually sexual attraction and deep friendship should make for a good relationship. but I'm just stuck in a rut of wanting boys that don't want me. or boys that want me, but I can't have. and I'm curious about why that happens. it's like, sure, I'd bang, pretty much any cute boy I'm friends with, but I don't want to date them because it seems like the friendship would be ruined if it didn't work out and I'd rather have them in my life than not.

blah. Real Genius + vodka = nonsense

[Justin]

Just don't go Maurice Clarett on us!

[Dorothy Wood]

Just don't go Maurice Clarett on us!

GO BUCKS!

[Justin]

GO BUCKS!

hehe indeed

We have the other guy that gets arrested, santana holmes.

I think ohio state recruits out of juvenile hall(y)

[Loppfessor]

GO BUCKS!

That's what I'm talkin bout!!


Anyway don't sweat it, just cus one situation that should feel different doesn't that don't mean there is something wrong with you. You can't force it just go with the flow lady...

[Justin]

Lets go WVU

and

Lets go Steelers!





Im really looking forward to the ohio state texas game...its gonna be great.

[Loppfessor]

Lets go WVU

and

Lets go Steelers!





Im really looking forward to the ohio state texas game...its gonna be great.

I'm not even going to dignify those first two comments with a response...but I am also looking forward to playing Texas this year. I still say had we played them later in the season last year we woulda won!

[Justin]

I'm not even going to dignify those first two comments with a response...but I am also looking forward to playing Texas this year. I still say had we played them later in the season last year we woulda won!


hey hey hey:p

I grew up as a bengals/reds fan and that's saying something being a fan of the bengals in the 90's.

When i moved to pittsburgh i told myself that i wouldnt like the steelers, but i couldnt help it. Such a great sports city, great fans, so much energy here!

Speaking of ohio state. Im also looking forward to the penn state ohio state game this year.


PS= Fuck the Pitt Panthers!

[Loppfessor]

See Dorthy when you feel like you can't feel just think about sports and you'll feel great! Anyway last time I checked Justin Ohio only had ONE pro football team and they weren't in Cinci

[Nuzzolese]

You're immature and you don't know what you want. It's not a rare condition.
Stop sleeping with so many guys and having so many guy "friends" it's distracting you from finding anything of your true self that doesn't involve getting attention from men.

[fraserallison]

so saturday a friend of mine came over around 4 a.m., I really wasn't expecting him, but he showed up and I was like, "eh, alright, let's watch Head". which is the Monkees movie, you should watch it really.

anyway. we're laying on the sectional couch, head to head. I put my arm out to pat him and say, "hey, isn't mickey dolenz hot?" and he says, "yeah, he's a good-looking dude" and I say, "you're gay". after that he goes to kiss me. and I blow in his face. I mean, we've made out a couple of times before and had decent sex once a few weeks ago because we were both using eachother because we couldn't be with who we really wanted to be with, but I really just kind of wanted to lay on the couch and hold hands and watch a movie.

anyway, yadda yadda. after like 2 hours of funny business, it was like 6:30 in the morning, sunlight streaming into my room, and he goes, "we need to stop doing this". and I was like, "okay, whatever, but it was pretty sexy for a bit there, right?" and he's like, "yeah, but I don't think it's good for our friendship" and I was like, "okay". and he laughed and said, "you really don't give a fuck, huh?" and I was like, "not really".

so, that sucks. because I really don't give a fuck. and I wonder why. he's pretty cool, I'll answer the phone and say, "hey, what's up cheeseburger?" and he'll say (without missing a beat) "not too much, hot dog". and he listens to all my lame bullshit about boys and calls me a weirdo and an idiot when I'm being weird and an idiot.

but I don't want to date him. it's strange, because usually sexual attraction and deep friendship should make for a good relationship. but I'm just stuck in a rut of wanting boys that don't want me. or boys that want me, but I can't have. and I'm curious about why that happens. it's like, sure, I'd bang, pretty much any cute boy I'm friends with, but I don't want to date them because it seems like the friendship would be ruined if it didn't work out and I'd rather have them in my life than not.

blah. Real Genius + vodka = nonsense

save that bullshit for your journal dude

[Loppfessor]

You're immature and you don't know what you want. It's not a rare condition.
Stop sleeping with so many guys and having so many guy "friends" it's distracting you from finding anything of your true self that doesn't involve getting attention from men.


Ouch! That sounds like fancy talk for "whore" to me

[Funkyfreshgrape]

so saturday a friend of mine came over around 4 a.m., I really wasn't expecting him, but he showed up and I was like, "eh, alright, let's watch Head". which is the Monkees movie, you should watch it really.

anyway. we're laying on the sectional couch, head to head. I put my arm out to pat him and say, "hey, isn't mickey dolenz hot?" and he says, "yeah, he's a good-looking dude" and I say, "you're gay". after that he goes to kiss me. and I blow in his face. I mean, we've made out a couple of times before and had decent sex once a few weeks ago because we were both using eachother because we couldn't be with who we really wanted to be with, but I really just kind of wanted to lay on the couch and hold hands and watch a movie.

anyway, yadda yadda. after like 2 hours of funny business, it was like 6:30 in the morning, sunlight streaming into my room, and he goes, "we need to stop doing this". and I was like, "okay, whatever, but it was pretty sexy for a bit there, right?" and he's like, "yeah, but I don't think it's good for our friendship" and I was like, "okay". and he laughed and said, "you really don't give a fuck, huh?" and I was like, "not really".

so, that sucks. because I really don't give a fuck. and I wonder why. he's pretty cool, I'll answer the phone and say, "hey, what's up cheeseburger?" and he'll say (without missing a beat) "not too much, hot dog". and he listens to all my lame bullshit about boys and calls me a weirdo and an idiot when I'm being weird and an idiot.

but I don't want to date him. it's strange, because usually sexual attraction and deep friendship should make for a good relationship. but I'm just stuck in a rut of wanting boys that don't want me. or boys that want me, but I can't have. and I'm curious about why that happens. it's like, sure, I'd bang, pretty much any cute boy I'm friends with, but I don't want to date them because it seems like the friendship would be ruined if it didn't work out and I'd rather have them in my life than not.

blah. Real Genius + vodka = nonsense
i don't care

[fucktopgirl]

i concur with nuzzo, man you are all over the place with dudes. NO doubts you dont give a fuck...YOu are lost at sea with your emotions and feeling. Maybe you should become a nun for while and meditate a bit . MAybe you dont give a fuck but thoses guys around you do give a fuck therefore you hurt them.

And indeed, i will say it again, you remind me of My sister , she is always in troubles like that with boys because she is stuck in the pattern to want guys that are impossible or incompatible. I guess it is the thrill of the hunt but man does this shit can get lame and destroy you emotionally at the end.

MAybe you should just go buy a dildo or something and have fun by yourself for while!

I dunno but this is pretty pathetic!

[monkey]

i think everyone knows a "dorothy" in their lives, someone that puts their heart on their sleeve and waits for prince semi-charming to save them from a mediocre life. my friend "dorothy" moves around the country, following men around that love her and worship her, but dont fullfill her needs the way she dreams them to be fullfilled. she complains to her friends when she realizes she spent yet another year without truly advancing on her dreams because she was making another part of her happy - her ego. her ego is terribly inflated because every man she meets tells her she's the most beautiful girl ever and she could change his life. the problem is she ends up changing hers to fit in with his and still leaves her plans to wither.
the one man that promised and was on his way to making good on his promise to give her everything she wanted, she left.
so, the point is, i think my friend dorothy and the bbmb dorothy have this little problem that they are afraid to find out what happens in life when there are no men to feed your ego and create a world for you. what happens when you go out there alone and not live life trying to please or attract a man. or even worry about them. just worry about making your self happy.
easier said than done, but women that depend on a man's opinion to live their lives are doomed to live such unhappy lives. and it sucks cause i really love my friend but she cant see that she's the important one, not the dude she's with today.

[Lyman Zerga]

i don't care

then fuck off

[Loppfessor]

then fuck off


FACE!!!

[Nuzzolese]

Ouch! That sounds like fancy talk for "whore" to me

Not at all! But I am saying that Dorothy is shallow. Her well of feelings is shallow. This is going to sound really new agey and lame but I think of our feelings as wells full of water; the more you dip out to spread around, the lower the water gets. You have to leave it alone and it will fill up again. You have to reserve some water so that when something or someone really deserving comes along, you have surplus - for yourself and that other deserving party. Okay, so that was gay. What I meant was YOUR MOM looks like fancy talk for "whore"

I think the reason you feel so shallow is because you haven't given yourself a chance to really care about anything. You've acted on impulse and forgotten what it feels like to really want something you know is different from every other guy.

Not that I've got it all together either! I'm just as full of mistakes and weaknesses probably, just different ones. The brand of stupidity I choose to inhabit doesn't make me any better than you.

[skra75]

but I'm just stuck in a rut of wanting boys that don't want me. or boys that want me, but I can't have.

this sucks for the guys you choose to date and the ones that actually really like you. a mindfuck really, kind of selfish, I'm just being honest.

[zorra_chiflada]

worried is a feeling

[kaiser soze]

You sold your soul to lust, so at least you have one feeling!!

That's a start!

;)

[SobaViolence]

i can relate.

i have not met a girl who lights my fire in almost 2 yrs, but always have a "friend" that spends a night once or twice a week.


i'm not looking for a wife...but in the meantime, i'm just having fun with some good company.

it sucks when you realize you don't have any deeper feelings, but there's nothing you can do, except be celibate.

[Dorothy Wood]

you guys are making me out to be some sort of sassy minx that dates a different boy every week and gets laid all the time! as far as I know, nobody wants to date me. if they do, then they're keeping it a secret from me.

anyway, I need to stay away from the computer when I'm drunk. I suppose I was just trying to work out why I can have nice warm booty feelings for someone who is a good friend, but not want to date them. probably because he's a nihilist which makes him kind of a douchebag and I'm smarter than him. it's true, we took IQ tests once, I scored higher. I need someone smarter than me.

I think I'm trying to trick myself into not caring about things because my heart is broken and I'm really so tired of being disappointed. I'm really not that shallow...just my social experiences are. what I wouldn't give for a nice funny dude who just wants to joke around and do fun stuff and also touch my butt.

[Loppfessor]

I think Dorothy Wood should make sweet love...

[kaiser soze]

you guys are making me out to be some sort of sassy minx that dates a different boy every week and gets laid all the time! as far as I know, nobody wants to date me. if they do, then they're keeping it a secret from me.



Actually you make yourself out to be that way, we don't ask to hear about the guys you cuddle with, kiss, or fuck


you tell the board

I'm not one for kissing and telling and quite honestly my love life is rather mellow right now, granted it'd be nice to be with someone. It's not hard to "whore" myself out for some cheap sexual thrills but I'd rather save it for someone who truly deserves that energy.

Have some self respect and minimize your chances of getting an STD at the same time!

[Funkyfreshgrape]

then fuck off
:confused:

[Lex Diamonds]

I know what you mean. I dunno maybe I'm getting tired of playing the game or something. It just starts to feel kinda meaningless. Like Monday night this girl was all over me and we were getting it on in a bathroom for about 2 hours then in a bed for like an hour but I just didn't go for the pants. She was hot too, best legs I've ever seen and the smallest hot pants to go with 'em. I dunno why but I just wasn't up for it. Maybe it's because it was too easy, normally I like girls that I can't have. I dunno I was pretty tired and was starting to get a hangover from the night before (we were still up at 8am) and for some reason that overpowered the human instinct to fuck. It's never happened before but I'm worried I'm becoming some kind of meaningful relationship type person. Now THAT would suck.

When I decided to stop and go to sleep she just said "You're such a big tease". I fell asleep thinking about that. What the fuck's up with this shit?

Ah well I'll probably see her again this weekend anyway, I'll tap it this time. (y)

[Loppfessor]

I think Dorothy Wood should make sweet love...


I mean she and I should make sweet love...she sounds like the female version of me

[Lex Diamonds]

Hang on, I don't know how you feel DW, cuz I'm worried I've just started feeling feelings.

[Lyman Zerga]

Have some self respect and minimize your chances of getting an STD at the same time!


word

[Echewta]

Imperial Generals have feelings too :( (http://www.thatvideosite.com/view/3054.html)