i'm so shitty right now

[tracky]

gottt damit

i can still smell her in my room

but she said no dave, no hanky panky

WHY DO I HAVE TO BE THE FUCKING FRIEND ALL THE TIME?!?!?

:(

[skra75]

yep, know the feeling.
Imma gonna try to break that cycle (lol cycle!) this weekend and get me some, it's been entirely too long. I just need a friend that happens to have a coochie that will make out with me.

[na§tee]

i don't think you should have sex with someone with extremely limited writing and, possibly, cognitive skills.

perhaps it is time for tracky to go to bed. you will feel better in the morning.

[b i o n i c]

ive taken 4 showers and gotten laid 3 times since 9pm last night (y)

and she can spell

[tracky]

FUCK!


:(

sad tracky

bed time yes, it's nearly 4:00am

fucking fucking fck fuck fuckety fuck

it's not about sex. or maybe it is. i dunno :(

not happy jan!!!!!!!


I thought she was interested, but once again i was wrong :(

she wanted to talk to people on the internet so i let her loose on the bbmb

now i think she feels bad too

we had a pretty open discussion about everything

she thinks i'll hate her for it but she couldn't be more wrong. stupid girl! :(

[Bob]

so wait won't she be able to see this

[beastieangel01]

sometimes I wish showers had knee-pads.

I haven't gotten any since sunday and it feels like it's been 904350345734 years since I have.

anyway, sorry, bro.

[tracky]

bob: no i took her home

ba01: try 6 or 7 years. i've lost count now

[b i o n i c]

sometimes I wish showers had knee-pads.


yyyyyyyyyyusssss (y)

[beastieangel01]

yyyyyyyyyyusssss (y)

ya know?

not that I really mind but the bruised knee look isn't the most ideal for me.

[Bob]

bob: no i took her home

ba01: try 6 or 7 years. i've lost count now

but i mean, couldn't she find her way back here on her own and read all your posts and stuff?

[tracky]

she doesn't own a computer & she won't remember

the not getting laid part was already established well before she came on here. she was the one who wanted to go on the internet because it's all a big novelty to her.

i didn't sleep

i'm still shitty

fuck you all!

[Rock]

or show her how you can spell 5138008 on your calculator. She should get the hint. Nothing says suave like words on a calculator.

[tracky]

you're a dick, officially. never talk to me again. for real. if you said that shit to my face right now i would deck you.

[tracky]

not you rock

[Rock]

OH YEAH! NOT ONLY AM I SORRY, BUT I ALSO APOLOGIZE!!!

SO FUCK YOU BITCH! THAT'S HOW I ROLL!!!
you guys should have make up sex. everyone wins that way.

[ericlee]

If you can still smell her in your room then have a wank. Just think of it as making to 2nd and a half base with her.

[Tzar]

whoa, showing a chick this place would be..... the last thing i'd do. i'd suck my own dick before show a chick this place.

i talk to a certain bbmb member on the phone a fair bit and i even get embarassed if this place gets mentioned.

chin up, tracky, it could be worse, trust me (n)

[Knuckles]

I'm a bit shitty myself right now and I find this thread hilarious.

kneepads in the shower!

Someone should just manufacture showers with foamy bottoms.


I'm not talking about foamy asses. I'm talking about foamy floors.

ezzy on da neezys

[Lex Diamonds]

Baby was a virgin, that's what she said. So I gave her some Hennessy, she gave me some head. I fucked her on the floor so I wouldn't mess up my bed.

[HEIRESS]

Id like to say I'd always choose sex over internetting, but somedays Im scared to ask myself that

:(

[befsquire]

ya know?

not that I really mind but the bruised knee look isn't the most ideal for me.
rug burns suck pretty hard, too. i've had them on my back, elbows and knees. :(

[HEIRESS]

I woke up in a hotel once post new years sexins and saw a gigantor bloody cut on my outer thigh and wondered what the fuck I coulda done to get that

good times!

[tracky]

i don't know why you people are so embarrased about an internet forum. There are plenty of people who I wouldn't show "this place" to, but there's also people who I have without any problems. It's like you're all ashamed of posting on the internet :confused: Anyway, long story short, I've known this girl for many years, she was being VERY affectionate the whole night. When I said lets go back to my place she said something like ok, but there won't be any hanky panky. I said what's wrong with a bit of hanky panky, she said I'd hate her for it afterwoods. We had hanky without the panky once before and didn't speak for about 6 months. I don't know why. It went something like that. So anyway we come back to my place, drunk, and go into my bedroom to hang out and she sees my computer and goes oh i wanna go on the internet! I say ok we'll go find that song you want, so I load up soulseek. She starts trying to chat to people on soulseek but no one is responding. I say here you can chat to people on here. So yeah. It's not like I said HEY LOOK THIS IS WHERE I SPEND ALL MY TIME, I'M A NERD HAHA! She was so drunk that I know she won't remember this place. Besides that, as nastee picked up on, her cognitive skills aren't all that great. I still like her as a friend and nothing will change that, but the way she was acting earlier in the evening messaging me "come round here, everyone is out and i'm all alone" then being all over me etc. kinda led me to believe hey maybe she does want a night of no commitments fun. I dunno, some people would probably just call her a cock teasing slut but I won't go that far. All that aside, anything I've written here she knows and more. I'm not one to hold my feelings back, I think the saying goes something about wearing my heart on my sleeve. Anyway I'm over it now. I got really stoned last night and watched every episode of 12 oz. mouse in a row. I finally understand it.

[QueenAdrock]

I haven't gotten any since sunday and it feels like it's been 904350345734 years since I have.

*ahem*

It's been 6 weeks. It'll be another 5.5 weeks until I do. 11 weeks = more than 20% of one year.

:mad:

[Lyman Zerga]

23 years


well im sorry tracky baby
i would totally cover you up with love if i could

*e-loves tracky*

good enough :mad:

[tracky]

it's better than good enough :)

it's better than laughing at me and making fun of me because i have issues and am not afraid to talk about them because OH NO IT'S THE INTERNET BETTER NOT TALK ABOUT OUR PERSONAL LIVES ON HERE. and then i feel the need to justify my issues and stuff with long explanations about what really happened.

bah i dunno i'm all messed up again so probably not making any sense. laugh away if it makes you feel better about yourself :rolleyes:

[Bob]

it's better than good enough :)

it's better than laughing at me and making fun of me because i have issues and am not afraid to talk about them because OH NO IT'S THE INTERNET BETTER NOT TALK ABOUT OUR PERSONAL LIVES ON HERE. and then i feel the need to justify my issues and stuff with long explanations about what really happened.

bah i dunno i'm all messed up again so probably not making any sense. laugh away if it makes you feel better about yourself :rolleyes:

bitch if you got issues, fuckin' talk about 'em

helped me (http://www.beastieboys.com/bbs/showthread.php?t=72710)

people like to laugh at girl troubles, i dunno

[mikizee]

Fuckin prick teases.

If 'come around, no one's here and I'm all alone' doesnt scream 'come over here and fuck me, big boy' I dont know what does.

I've just been to the gym, now I'm buff as

[tracky]

bob:

i do, but i don't even know how to talk about them. like getting them into words would probably take a whole book.


anyway i'm over it for now. just chucked on some metalocalypse and am gonna smoke a pipe until it all goes away


miki:

lets grab that beer some time during the week

[mikizee]

bob:

i do, but i don't even know how to talk about them. like getting them into words would probably take a whole book.


anyway i'm over it for now. just chucked on some metalocalypse and am gonna smoke a pipe until it all goes away


miki:

lets grab that beer some time during the week


im down like a clown charlie brown.


oh yeah and smoke pipe? *makes buzzing sound* wrong answer. go for a run instead. makes ya feel great.

[Bob]

bob:

i do, but i don't even know how to talk about them. like getting them into words would probably take a whole book.


anyway i'm over it for now. just chucked on some metalocalypse and am gonna smoke a pipe until it all goes away


oh

mine only took a whole thread

dethklok sounds good though

i still can't quite get over the dethkomedy one

[tracky]

im down like a clown charlie brown.


oh yeah and smoke pipe? *makes buzzing sound* wrong answer. go for a run instead. makes ya feel great.


i know it's the wrong answer :( but ... but... grrrrr. yeah bad (n)

[tracky]

i'm trying to convince myself that it's only temporary. i kinda know that it is, but at the same time i do feel like my old self again. i think i'm developing like a split personality :\

[mikizee]

spose i cant talk, ive just been to the gym, and now im having scotch! kinda defeats the purpose

[mikizee]

well you already broke the cycle, so that was the big hurdle. just try not to make a habit of it.

when i smoked again after i had stopped for a while i found i didnt enjoy it anymore, and spent the whole time when i was stoned wishing i wasnt!

[Bob]

im down like a clown charlie brown.


oh yeah and smoke pipe? *makes buzzing sound* wrong answer. go for a run instead. makes ya feel great.

it depends on how you do it. there's this lake near where i live, there's a path that goes around it, it's 1.5 miles long (1,000,000,000 km, i think). i decided one day to try to run around it and on my first day, i did, it felt GREAT! halfway through i felt like quitting, but i persevered, i ran through the pain, i got my second wind, i made it around, and the whole walk home felt like a victory parade, i felt awesome

second day, i ran again, i got the whole way around but it took me 15 minutes, which is a laughable time (for me)

third time, i gave up halfway through

fourth time i gave up halfway through again, got depressed, and haven't been back

so i dunno, treadmill maybe? don't set a goal, i guess is what i'm saying, because if you don't set the bar, you can't fail to meet it

[tracky]

definately do feel like i don't want to be stoned. it was almost like i went back to it out of habit. like the habit of rejection -> weed. But I don't really feel right right now, like i don't want to be stoned. The few times I have done it recently it's been the same feeling. It's a good thing, I guess, now I just gotta ride it out and move on again.

there's actually a treadmill and cross trainer taking up space at work, i keep looking at them thinking i should bring them home but i havn't even really got the space myself. probably enough for the x-trainer. i just have this feeling that i'd get over it a bit too quick. i want to start doing wing chung which is a martial art place just across the road from work. that would be good for my self confidence and health. i actually even went and got a brochure with all the lesson times and stuff. just have to go and sign up and get it started.

[Bob]

definately do feel like i don't want to be stoned. it was almost like i went back to it out of habit. like the habit of rejection -> weed. But I don't really feel right right now, like i don't want to be stoned. The few times I have done it recently it's been the same feeling. It's a good thing, I guess, now I just gotta ride it out and move on again.

there's actually a treadmill and cross trainer taking up space at work, i keep looking at them thinking i should bring them home but i havn't even really got the space myself. probably enough for the x-trainer. i just have this feeling that i'd get over it a bit too quick. i want to start doing wing chung which is a martial art place just across the road from work. that would be good for my self confidence and health. i actually even went and got a brochure with all the lesson times and stuff. just have to go and sign up and get it started.

it's very easy to tell you that you definitely ought to do it

it's another thing to actually do it

there's a yoga place a few blocks away from me, i pass it every day i come home from school

actually there are a few yoga schools that i pass on my way home from school...my neighborhood has a lot of hippies, and i'm beginning to suspect a lot of transgenders

my point is, i walk by them every day and i go "yoga, that's what i need, i need to fucking get in touch with myself" only i don't do it because...........

so you know how it goes

[pshabi]

gottt damit

i can still smell her in my room

but she said no dave, no hanky panky

WHY DO I HAVE TO BE THE FUCKING FRIEND ALL THE TIME?!?!?

:(
Most likely...

no game.

[ericlee]

Hi tracky, how ya been? I've only brushed through this thread. I'm also a lil bit in the sauce and getting distracted by my headphones..

Back on the weedage? Just go with it. You don't want to be stoned but, yet you are. There's nothing you can do about it so why rack your brain?

Problems with the girl, feeling upset because you didn't lay any pipe.. Don't let that bother you as well. Just be happy that you've spent time with her and will again. Try to show her that it didn't make you angry or upset that she left that night. Spend more time with her, giggle with her and get some bonding going on via communication.

I'll tell you this. Having a good time with a girl as in being a friend with her is the best and if that feeling is lost, it's alot more harmfull when it vanishes rather than losing a piece of tail for the night.

[pshabi]

i don't know why you people are so embarrased about an internet forum. There are plenty of people who I wouldn't show "this place" to, but there's also people who I have without any problems. It's like you're all ashamed of posting on the internet :confused: Anyway, long story short, I've known this girl for many years, she was being VERY affectionate the whole night. When I said lets go back to my place she said something like ok, but there won't be any hanky panky. I said what's wrong with a bit of hanky panky, she said I'd hate her for it afterwoods. We had hanky without the panky once before and didn't speak for about 6 months. I don't know why. It went something like that. So anyway we come back to my place, drunk, and go into my bedroom to hang out and she sees my computer and goes oh i wanna go on the internet! I say ok we'll go find that song you want, so I load up soulseek. She starts trying to chat to people on soulseek but no one is responding. I say here you can chat to people on here. So yeah. It's not like I said HEY LOOK THIS IS WHERE I SPEND ALL MY TIME, I'M A NERD HAHA! She was so drunk that I know she won't remember this place. Besides that, as nastee picked up on, her cognitive skills aren't all that great. I still like her as a friend and nothing will change that, but the way she was acting earlier in the evening messaging me "come round here, everyone is out and i'm all alone" then being all over me etc. kinda led me to believe hey maybe she does want a night of no commitments fun. I dunno, some people would probably just call her a cock teasing slut but I won't go that far. All that aside, anything I've written here she knows and more. I'm not one to hold my feelings back, I think the saying goes something about wearing my heart on my sleeve. Anyway I'm over it now. I got really stoned last night and watched every episode of 12 oz. mouse in a row. I finally understand it.
Yep, no game.

[Lyman Zerga]

how did the board ever work without pshabi?

[tracky]

Most likely...

no game.


what if i don't want to play that game? and do you feel better about yourself for pointing out that I have "no game"? Does that mean that you have "game"? What the fuck is that all about? Why should I have to put on some fake personality that's not me? Sure I could walk around like a cocky prick and act all hard, but that's not me. That's for the neanderthals.

[Bob]

what if i don't want to play that game? and do you feel better about yourself for pointing out that I have "no game"? Does that mean that you have "game"? What the fuck is that all about? Why should I have to put on some fake personality that's not me? Sure I could walk around like a cocky prick and act all hard, but that's not me. That's for the neanderthals.

dude fuck "game"

game's for jerks

you and me man, we're the real cool people

oh god

[tracky]

hahaha

I don't think we are the "cool" people, but that's cool in itself. Everything's cool.

[ericlee]

ericlee, I haven't chatted with you in like forever so, I'm gonna try to get some advice from the coolest guy here and not worry about what the fuck pshabi has to say

.

[Bob]

hahaha

I don't think we are the "cool" people, but that's cool in itself. Everything's cool.

that's the joke

the self deprecating horrible joke

sorry to drag you into it

[Lyman Zerga]

crap we ignored ericlee

ERICLEEEE

[Ason Unique]

Listen to ericlee. A drunk ericlee is a better mentor than a sober and neglected penis.

[Bob]

that's the joke

the self deprecating horrible joke

sorry to drag you into it


but dude, don't feel too bad about going back to pot, i mean that. was she drunk? were you drunk? you were high, pretty much, fuck it, they're comparable

[tracky]

hey sorry man, I totally didn't ignore you

I do that sometimes, read a post and think thanks, but never say it, and I'm sorry :( I read it and I did appreciate the advice, I just got caught up in other things and forgot acknowledge it. Trust me it didn't go unnoticed :) (y)

I'm off to frag some 14 year olds now ;) I'll try not to spawn camp too much :p But those M1A1's are so much fun

[Bob]

but dude, don't feel too bad about going back to pot, i mean that. was she drunk? were you drunk? you were high, pretty much, fuck it, they're comparable

funny story

originally this post was an offshoot of my post that i was quoting

but i changed it

only i forgot that i was quoting one of my own posts, and i forgot to remove that

[tracky]

but dude, don't feel too bad about going back to pot, i mean that. was she drunk? were you drunk? you were high, pretty much, fuck it, they're comparable


i don't feel too bad about getting back on it, because really i'm not enjoying it like i used to and that's the truth

frag time. let's let this thread slide so I can get over it and move on. look out the windshield instead of looking in the rear view mirror and all that.

[ericlee]

I tried..

[mikizee]

but i like this thread

im not ready to say goodbye

[Lyman Zerga]

yeah this thread became like a second home

[pshabi]

what if i don't want to play that game? and do you feel better about yourself for pointing out that I have "no game"? Does that mean that you have "game"? What the fuck is that all about? Why should I have to put on some fake personality that's not me? Sure I could walk around like a cocky prick and act all hard, but that's not me. That's for the neanderthals.
Okay, sorry. Didn't mean "game" like that. Meant it as in "the ability to attract the opposite sex."

[tracky]

there's no lack of ability there, i know i'm not ugly, if that's what you're implying. i just have problems accepting that, basically. i'm just lacking that extra bit of confidence that i need. i'm slowing getting it back, even just dressing neater at work is making me feel better about myself, and i've had plenty of compliments lately so like i say, slowly getting it back. i was more pissed off with the fact that she'll hold my hand walking down the street and dance all close but when it comes to the crunch she went all cold. Apparently they do call her the Ice Queen. She told me that BEFORE all this and now i see what they mean. I shoulda known I guess, but to be honest she was really giving me the wrong impression. At the same time, I can understand her point of view. Right now she needs a friend and nothing more. I did feel a bit bad about it, like asking her back to mine and stuff, and in a way i'm glad that she was strong enough to draw the line and stick to it, because we do have a good friendship and it probably would've ruined it.

[tracky]

I tried..

no seriously, i did read your post and appreciated every word of it

sorry, I'm just a bit scattered at the moment. tommorow will be a new day. It's going to be a bloody busy day too cause there's 3 people away from work at the moment (n)

[Pres Zount]

This is like a thread for single fathers to share their feelings.

Fuck "game". You may not be in the 'cool' group, but you are in the 'actually cool' group. I want to be in the actually cool group.

[Tzar]

know exactly what you're talking about, dave is it?


cept i always dress scruffy at work.... i always look like shit.

[Ason Unique]

This is like a thread for single fathers to share their feelings.

Fuck "game". You may not be in the 'cool' group, but you are in the 'actually cool' group. I want to be in the actually cool group.
You are, man. By virtue of being actually cool. I pity the 'cool' people who aren't actually cool.

[Pres Zount]

Thanks.

It's like high school again. Second tier 'actually cool'.

[Ason Unique]

Thanks.

It's like high school again. Second tier 'actually cool'.
I mean the people we're supposed to envy, I just get a cool slither of pity in my spine when I see them sometimes.

[tracky]

know exactly what you're talking about, dave is it?


cept i always dress scruffy at work.... i always look like shit.


that's my name, don't wear it out! :D

you should try tucking your shirt in :D (y) That's pretty much the only change i made. ok well no i lie, i've got from jeans to business pants, sneakers to leather shoes and casual t-shirts to work uniform polos and sometimes shirts. Hey even if you don't need to dress like that for work, you'd be amazed at the respect you get. It's a shame that society does judge people on the way the dress, but at the same time it's a reality.

[tracky]

ps cool people don't need to be told they're cool (I think it was marge) so I'm not saying anything to anyone who's posted in the last couple of pages...

[Tzar]

oh my shirt is tucked in! it has to be... being on a checkout and all. i just never pull gel in my hair, never clean-shaved, look tired and all that.

[tracky]

i know that my hair needs it but i just can't bring myself to use gel or anything like that. it feels unnatural so i still just let my hair do whatever it's gonna do

[Pres Zount]

I mean the people we're supposed to envy, I just get a cool slither of pity in my spine when I see them sometimes.
That was a genuine 'thanks', I dislike the cool people too.

[mikizee]

oh my shirt is tucked in! it has to be... being on a checkout and all. i just never pull gel in my hair, never clean-shaved, look tired and all that.

gel..... that is soooooo 80's and warwick capper.

matte styling wax is where its at, fool.

[Tzar]

...


i don't care what it is; as long as it keeps my hair up... and if gel does that, it's good enough.

[ericlee]

hey sorry man, I totally didn't ignore you

I do that sometimes, read a post and think thanks, but never say it, and I'm sorry :( I read it and I did appreciate the advice, I just got caught up in other things and forgot acknowledge it. Trust me it didn't go unnoticed :) (y)

I'm off to frag some 14 year olds now ;) I'll try not to spawn camp too much :p But those M1A1's are so much fun

I actually did some spawn camping last night because there was 4 of those fuckers. 3 on foot and one in a tank that hovered over my spawn point and they were pissing me off because I'd spawn and be active for a second and the shitheads would then blast me. Finally after getting tired of it and there had been killed, I set off to find their spawn point and fucking lit them up. Sure enough, it was those 4 too cause I read the names. Ahaha, revenge complete.

[tracky]

I actually did some spawn camping last night because there was 4 of those fuckers. 3 on foot and one in a tank that hovered over my spawn point and they were pissing me off because I'd spawn and be active for a second and the shitheads would then blast me. Finally after getting tired of it and there had been killed, I set off to find their spawn point and fucking lit them up. Sure enough, it was those 4 too cause I read the names. Ahaha, revenge complete.

see that's what it's all about (y) Everyone gets there revenge and it's a great feeling when you waste some one who's been pissing you off