beastieangel01
03-30-2007, 01:42 PM
one of the best feelings is getting the courage to do something you are frightened to do.
No matter how big or small.
One of my biggest faults is my avoidant nature. I avoid conflict, sometimes at all costs. There's something I did recently that may not be completely awful, but a friend was very hurt and mad about it because they WERE in fact doing me a favor and I blew it.
Granted, I was going through so much stress. And it got me to the point where I completely shut myself off from just about everything. But he didn't know that and I kept avoiding telling him because again, I am avoidant. I get this huge feeling of shock going through my body and the sickness in my stomach kicks in and I break down and just do nothing instead.
But today I made a step. I made contact and talked a bit about the situation and said I want to talk more when they have time.
It may sound easy to some, but believe me, this situation... and me actually making contact is HUGE. And I'm actually proud of myself. If it turns out that I lose a friend anyway, at least I made the effort to try and face the problem instead of running away from it or doing nothing.
Your turn: give kudos to yourself!
No matter how big or small.
One of my biggest faults is my avoidant nature. I avoid conflict, sometimes at all costs. There's something I did recently that may not be completely awful, but a friend was very hurt and mad about it because they WERE in fact doing me a favor and I blew it.
Granted, I was going through so much stress. And it got me to the point where I completely shut myself off from just about everything. But he didn't know that and I kept avoiding telling him because again, I am avoidant. I get this huge feeling of shock going through my body and the sickness in my stomach kicks in and I break down and just do nothing instead.
But today I made a step. I made contact and talked a bit about the situation and said I want to talk more when they have time.
It may sound easy to some, but believe me, this situation... and me actually making contact is HUGE. And I'm actually proud of myself. If it turns out that I lose a friend anyway, at least I made the effort to try and face the problem instead of running away from it or doing nothing.
Your turn: give kudos to yourself!