im really bummed out right now

[insertnamehere]

I started watching my so-called life on the interwebs, you may remember it, it's an overly cliched mid 90s drama starring claire danes as an angsty teenager.

anyway, its got me kind of depressed, because i realized i never had a teenager-hood. i never did whatever it is teenagers do. like, have friends or go out of the house. i went to school every day, and came home, and that was it. pretty lame. no fond memories or anything. so that had me sad, and then i realized its pretty much the same now. i have more social contact, well not over the summer cause everyone is gone, and even when its not the summer not as much as id like cause my friends are dating each other and that makes me the third wheel... but mostly i just go to class and go to work and sit in my room. i have such a boring life.

yesterday was my first day off work in 18 days, and i have like another 2 weeks of constant working ahead of me, and i wanted to do something really fun, but all i ended up doing, well cause i didnt have anyone to do anything with, i went to target and got shampoo and laundry detergent, and did my laundry, and hung out at one of my jobs to get lunch and talk to work people, and laid in bed and watched tv on my computer

right now im staying in the dorms, and its a suite style where like, you enter from the outside, and there are 4 bedrooms and one bathroom, an each bedroom is supposed to have 2 people but there arent many people cause its summer... and one room is empty, i have my room to myself, one room has two girls, and one room i sometimes hear noises from but ive never seen anyone. just sometimes theres a light coming from under the door or some music. the two girls i have seen, one of them i said hi too and she said "excuse me" all annoyed like and walked around me, and the other one, the only exchange ive had with her is she got all pissy with me cause i was talking a shower at 9 in the morning once and apparently thats her time to shower, so she came in the bathroom to stick her face up against the shower curtain and say "excuse me, whoever's in there, are you gonna start taking showers at 9 every morning, like is this a regular thing, or did you just wake up late"

people are so nice

[marsdaddy]

I started watching my so-called life on the interwebs, you may remember it, it's an overly cliched mid 90s drama starring claire danes as an angsty teenager....
people are so niceI used to think you were an alias from that show.

People are nice, when they're not busy being anxious.

[insertnamehere]

hey, i was never as cheesy as that show. i am offended sir.

she says the dumbest shit. i remember i liked the show when it was on though. but thats when i was like 10 and thought all 15 year olds were totally awesome

[marsdaddy]

There is no time, like the present, to do stuff. You're going to give me lots of reasons why you can't, but to that I say, psshhaahh!

[insertnamehere]

oh, and

me: hi :)
her: excuse me *push out of way*

is not nice

i dont know, a lot of times i'll talk and people will ignore me. not even act uninterested, totally ignore me. so it kinda makes me want to give up on talking. some people have said i talk too quiet and that probably a lot of times people really dont hear me or know that im talking. i dunno.

i tried to get an apartment for this year but my attempts failed. im pretty sure it would make my life way more awesome though. for one, i could have a dog, and that would pretty much eliminate my need for live human interaction. for two i would have a kitchen, and that would rock. for three, i wouldnt have to have a roommate that i want to strangle in her sleep.

[insertnamehere]

There is no time, like the present, to do stuff. You're going to give me lots of reasons why you can't, but to that I say, psshhaahh!

what kind of stuff do you suggest? i have no one to do "stuff" with, and i cant really think of things to do that dont suck without other people

i keep thinking of getting some books, but i feel like if im not going to spend the time i should reading my textbooks i shoudlnt read for fun. although, watching youtube videos isnt exactly a better use of my time.

[insertnamehere]

i just noticed your sig. i will do as you command.

[marsdaddy]

People ignore me all the time. I'm like McFadden and Whitehead.

[insertnamehere]

i have no idea what you're talking about, but im listening

so, what kind of stuff?

theres a lot of stuff i want to do. like go to the zoo. but thats like a whole day trip and id get all weirded out that i was alone.

hey jitters, want to go to the zoo?

[trailerprincess]

I bought a box set of My So Called Life about 6 months ago.

You have just reminded me that my sister still has it, the wench!

And do stuff on your own. It's awesome.

[trailerprincess]

Yes perhaps but in the continued absence of 'someone special' then I'm going keep doing stuff on my own. I'm not waiting for someone to be there to do stuff I really want to do otherwise I'd probably never get anything done! :p

[trailerprincess]

I just want to go to bed and sleep.

[mikizee]

I dont want to goto work tomorrow

[trailerprincess]

Lets both skive and have fun :D

Fun>Work

[Teh]

I've grown used to doing stuff on my own recently because i'm a little bit sick of my friends, and i love it. I used to hang around with a group of friends that were pretty objective, not that we didn't get along, but everybody had their own tastes in music, fashion, etc, and we all went along to each others gigs (ie, we'd all go and see The Spinto Band even if there was only one or two people out of six that liked them), and it was good like that. We could all talk about it afterwards because we all had our own tastes and opinions.

The people i hang about with these days bore me to tears. Some are fucking fantastic and i love them, and some don't listen to music, not at all. How is that possible? Others that do listen to music just say ok to absolutley everything and come to absolutley every gig with me, and this is not a good thing. They just come for the sake of it, i can't talk to them about the music after the gig, or the artist, because it's all new to them! One of them can't swim, and has never learned or even tried. (Again, how? It's like That scene in Garden State.)

I still like them, though, but sometimes enjoying what i want to do alone with my thoughts/mp3 player is just as good, and less awkward at times. I always buy clothes or goto music stores by myself and wouldn't have it any other way.

I could've explained this better, but anyway, i sympathise with ya insertnamehere, but seriously, don't see your situation as a bad thing. As soon as you start going out yourself you'll probably find you meet people pretty quickly.

[insertnamehere]

well i do stuff by myself because i have no choice, but not like, fun exciting stuff. i really don't even know what to do for fun. like tonight, i may go out and buy a printer. if i had someone to go with me i could be like "hey want to go with me to buy a printer" and then it would be good times with talking and laughing in the car and in the store and maybe they'd have something they wanted to do while they were out, and probably we'd go someplace for dinner and have a good conversation and just sit and blather on for a couple hours. it would be a whole event. but i've got no one to call, so if i end up getting out of bed to go, i'll just drive to the nearest store supplying printers, identify the cheapest printer, make my purchase and go.

i'm thinking that i probably don't want to do the kind of "going out" you referred to in your first post, cooldog. i just want to hang out with some people. spend some time with someone and talk or play video games or scrabble or something.

[bigblu89]

Step one would be get off the fucking internet and just go take a walk or something.

I don't know where you're from, but you'd be suprised how many people don't mind making small talk.

[insertnamehere]

I guess what it boils down to is that, being the social retard that I am, I don't really understand how to make conversation with a total stranger, or why you would want to. I pretty much don't talk to people unless it is forced, like, we work together or someone introduces us. If someone approached me not that kind of way, say, walked up to me in a store or on the street I'd be like ugh what a weirdo go away! Class doesn't even count as a forced situation, because you can go to classes all day and get by fine without saying a word to anyone.

I did try taking to the girl in my suite, but she pretty much acted like "ew get away from me I'm too cool to talk to you." That was my conscious effort to make friends this summer. It seems to me like everyone else is just as disinterested in talking to strangers. So I don't know where everyone that tells me to approach people gets their ideas of that working or being pleasant. I mean, I'm sure it must happen, but I never see it. I think part of my problem is I get along much better with guys but I can't talk to guys for fear of it coming off the wrong way, and if guys talk to me, I take it the wrong way. Well, maybe not "take it the wrong way" but interpret it differently than "hey want to hang out and have a totally platonic friendship where I treat you like I woud any of my guy friends?"

[Jitters]

hey jitters, want to go to the zoo?

Arrange a time and meeting place and I am so there (y):D

[insertnamehere]

Meet by the Africa entrance, 10am sharp!

Actually, no, I'd feel kinda like a pedo.

[insertnamehere]

Come to think of it, I think the zoo lives halfway between where I live and where you live. I forgot that you were an actual feasible visitable distance from me.

Still though, I'd feel like a pedo. Want to come to the zoo with me little boy? I'll bring some candy!

[ggirlballa]

and i'm just starting high school honestly will it be hell?

[Jitters]

Come to think of it, I think the zoo lives halfway between where I live and where you live. I forgot that you were an actual feasible visitable distance from me.

Still though, I'd feel like a pedo. Want to come to the zoo with me little boy? I'll bring some candy!

The offer sounds great to me, candy only further greases the wheels.

Here you are saying you want human interaction but when you get the chance to hang out with someone who's only got about three years of age difference and you use the excuse of feeling like a pedo :rolleyes:

[insertnamehere]

and i'm just starting high school honestly will it be hell?

highschool isnt bad, to me it seemed just like all the earlier schools. no reason to freak. it's more an issue of me being weird and poorly adjusted. if you have friends now, im sure you'll still have friends when you start highschool. oh, and i'm not in highschool, for the record.


jitters, dear, the idea of meeting internet people to me is just kinda sketchy in general. i may run away to nyc to see the bboys at hammerstine but would have not place to stay and though about asking someone here but thats a little to weird for my taste. although pretty much everyone else seems to have met/partied with/stayed with/slept with/married a board member

[Jitters]

jitters, dear, the idea of meeting internet people to me is just kinda sketchy in general. i may run away to nyc to see the bboys at hammerstine but would have not place to stay and though about asking someone here but thats a little to weird for my taste. although pretty much everyone else seems to have met/partied with/stayed with/slept with/married a board member

That's a valid point, one that I can understand but in all due respect............. THE ZOO! :cool:

I honestly can't even remember if I've even even been to one. You wish to deny me this pleasure?

[Nuzzolese]

Which episode of My So Called Life was it?

[cosmo105]

you can only be a victim if you admit defeat

[insertnamehere]

Which episode of My So Called Life was it?

I'm watching all of them

[Teh]

well i do stuff by myself because i have no choice, but not like, fun exciting stuff. i really don't even know what to do for fun. like tonight, i may go out and buy a printer. if i had someone to go with me i could be like "hey want to go with me to buy a printer" and then it would be good times with talking and laughing in the car and in the store and maybe they'd have something they wanted to do while they were out, and probably we'd go someplace for dinner and have a good conversation and just sit and blather on for a couple hours. it would be a whole event. but i've got no one to call, so if i end up getting out of bed to go, i'll just drive to the nearest store supplying printers, identify the cheapest printer, make my purchase and go.

i'm thinking that i probably don't want to do the kind of "going out" you referred to in your first post, cooldog. i just want to hang out with some people. spend some time with someone and talk or play video games or scrabble or something.

So basically you just need human contact because you haven't had any for so long, and you're sick of being on your own 100% of the time.

Well its sucks but the only person that can really change it is you and yah yah i guess you've heard that before, aye! Some people are pricks like your flatmate type person, who sounds like she's so wrapped up in herself she doesn't give a fuck about anything else, so who'd really want to be friends with her anyway? People won't think you're wierd just for hitting up conversation, right enough, some people won't want to talk to you but that's nothing to do with you, it's just how they're feeling, or whatever's going on in their life. For every person that seems uninterested there will probably be another that'll be pretty happy to talk trash for a bit.

It's difficult to just make friends on the street but in an environment like university classes, or if you've got a job, most people will be the same as you and will have come along having known nobody there to begin with. Just be outgoing, nobody will hate you or think you're nuts for that.