I guess I'm jealous

[cookiepuss]

My co-worker is getting out of this hell hole office.

She younger than me, probably cuter than me and getting her masters in what I got by BA in. she'll probably succeed where I failed. her dad is paying for her school and stuff.

I happy for her and I like her alot but I'm jealous. I've wanted out of this job for two years, but I've stayed so that I could get some more credentials so I can move on in a better way with a better salary. the way things are going I'll be here at least another year and I hate it. I'm not even sure this industry is for me...it's completely different than what I went to school for. but I feel I've gone too far to turn back now.

basically it kinda sucks to be me right now.(n)

[sound boy]

you still have a job and a BA degree. idk what you look like but if you are cute, things in life could be a lot worse.

[abcdefz]

...maybe it can be motivating for you.

Heck, maybe she can even help you out wherever she's going.

[cookiepuss]

...maybe it can be motivating for you.

Heck, maybe she can even help you out wherever she's going.


exactly. I will have to use this to help keep me motivated. and of course you never know what will come of our connection.

I really like this person, and I'm not accustom to feeling jealous...so it's kind uncomfortable.

[abcdefz]

I'm not accustom to feeling jealous




*turns green*

[hpdrifter]

Hang in there, her path is not necessarily yours. There are people at my office who are further along in their career than me but are the same age. It sucks but would I necessarily want their job? Probably not.

[cookiepuss]

Hang in there, her path is not necessarily yours. There are people at my office who are further along in their career than me but are the same age. It sucks but would I necessarily want their job? Probably not.

that's true...but I do kinda wish I that when i was her age I had gone for my masters. I still can, I know that..but it won't be easy for me to do at this point. So i gotta deal with the regret that I didn't beleive in myself enough at that time to go for it.

I'll get over it. I'm just going through a lot emotionally right now and really questioning myself.

[paul jones]

don't worry !

just set a few illegal animal traps around the place and film it for youtube(y)

[Nuzzolese]

It's not like your life is over or it's too late for you. You could use her as inspiration

[cookiepuss]

It's not like your life is over or it's too late for you. You could use her as inspiration

no. that's not it. I realize that my life isn't over.

I'm in the process of changing careers. What she's doing now is more like what I use to do. it is a bit late for me to change back to my old career when I've come this far with my current one. Not impossible, but it would basically be stupid you see...to turn back now. So you see I can only be jealous that she will likly accomplish the things in my old career that I could not.

She can't really inspire me in my current career because she's doing my old career. the only thing that can inspire me is that she's leaving this shit hole and that can inspire me to hurry up, get my credentials and get out of here so I can run my own business or something.

unfortunately the two businesses are not directly related so there is no way for me to exactly meld one with the other. some of the skills bleed over but that's about it.

also I did not choose this career change. it plopped in my lap and I decided to give it a try because I though I might make more money with it, but i never in a million years thought I'd be where I am. I'm not even sure I want this because I only see one side of the business and it kinda sucks.

all of this is a personal problem, I realize that. I don't think anyone here can really understand what I'm going through. or at least ti doesn't seem that way right now.