FUCK, FUCK, FUCK!!!!

[Caribou]

As some of you might know, the past 10 months I've been working to get into University. I've studied my butt off, read loads of books and was so looking forward to being a student.
Last week I had the last 2 of my 5 exams. I didn't have too good a feeling about one of them, but hoped for the best.

Now I've just got an email from the University telling me that I have failed my history exam. I only had a 4,4 while a 5,5 was required.
I'm so angry and sad and confused. I was so looking forward to it and now it's not going to happen. I have to keep working for at least 1 more year.
And the thing that pisses me off most is that I failed the 1 exam least connected to the thing I want to do. I wanted to study English language and Literature and passed my Essay writing, Understanding of Literature and 2 exams on Dutch grammar and text writing. And this history exam was about 350 pages about French peasants and Spanish kings and other things I don't give a toss about and was so boring I couldn't get it all into my head.

I don't know what to do now. I'm also in the middle of moving away from home, because I got a room near the University, and all that's difficult enough as it is.

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. :(
I wanted this so much. :(:(:(:(

[Tompz]

sorry to hear

(n)

[RaZoRbLaDe KiSs]

Oh man that sucks! Are you sure theres no way you can retake the test? Maybe you could get in at midterms? (Sorry but im not quite there when it comes to colleges yet so I dont know too much about this.)

Im sorry to hear this though. Really really sorry. :(

[Caribou]

Oh man that sucks! Are you sure theres no way you can retake the test? Maybe you could get in at midterms? (Sorry but im not quite there when it comes to colleges yet so I dont know too much about this.)

Im sorry to hear this though. Really really sorry. :(

The thing is that I had to do a special kind of exam for people without the required amount of education. I quit school in my 5th year, so although I got the highest form of high-school education possible in The Netherlands, no university or college will have me because I didn't finish my last year.
I had also taken the History exam before and failed, but that was because I was too busy focussing on the other 4 exams. And sadly you only get 2 tries and then you're out.

[cookiepuss]

awwww. I'm sorry. let me try to put a positive spin on this...youre still moving near the university..you could let that be a daily reminder of the torn in your side or you can consider this your practice run. I think one of the hardest things about the first year of Uni is being away from home and managing a social life with studying/classes. but since you won't have the tests and classes you can still try to meet people...surely others living around you will be students...study for your exam at the university...and party it up a bit. it could be all the cool things about college without any of the lame classes.;)

[Planetary]

gutted

[Teh]

Failing one single exam, even twice will not have that much of an effect on your future. There will be more chances next year, anyway, take the year to settle in and make some money - make the most of it so when you do get into uni you can worry less about the other non-academic stuff.

Cookiepuss said it best, hey. Trust dem buddists.

[Freebasser]

Relax! University ain't all that.

People go on and on about how great uni is, and about all the people you meet, and you know what? There's only two people I met at uni who I would consider friends and still keep in touch with. The only thing I had in common with 98% of the people I met there was the fact that we all had a penchant for cheap booze. The best thing about moving away to uni was learning to take care of myself, and who says you can't still move to your flat, rent it out to a professional couple and have crazy adventures with them involving lycra jogging pants and cakes shaped like typewriters?

As for the career/post uni future side of things; in my opinion uni is just an excuse to arse about and watch Richard and Judy all day before you venture into the big wide world of work, and I've learned more in 6 weeks at my current job than I did in 3 years of university education. My degree isn't worth the paper it's written on to be honest.

[Teh]

As for the career/post uni future side of things; in my opinion uni is just an excuse to arse about and watch Richard and Judy all day before you venture into the big wide world of work, and I've learned more in 6 weeks at my current job than I did in 3 years of university education. My degree isn't worth the paper it's written on to be honest.

Speak for yourself, pal. :rolleyes:



:p

[Freebasser]

...but ...but... I was an art student!

*Wears turtleneck sweater and beret and contemplates the difficulty of drawing your legs*

[paul jones]

don't worry, just keep trying

and keep saying FUCK when things go pear shaped because it decreases stress(y)

[RaZoRbLaDe KiSs]

The thing is that I had to do a special kind of exam for people without the required amount of education. I quit school in my 5th year, so although I got the highest form of high-school education possible in The Netherlands, no university or college will have me because I didn't finish my last year..

Why cant you go make up your credits? Here if you quit school we can get G.E.D's or make up the credits in an adult school. You cant do anything like that? So you can at least get into some college?

[Teh]

Pffff, BA's. It proper annoys me when my mates doing arts degrees are sitting in the pub around May/JUne procrastinating putting off finishing their one essay of the semester. I was looking through the clearing pages the other week and you can do an arts degree in spa management, for fucks sake.

Any excuse to get people into higher education. The amount of people working in supermarkets on minimum wage who've been through uni and out the other end with good degrees in psychology, what's the fucking point, eh?

[Freebasser]

They really were quite difficult to draw.

[Teh]

They really were quite difficult to draw.

As long as you're doing something useful with your degree, yo! :D

[Caribou]

Thanks for the kind words people.

@Cookie:
The last 3 years or so I have been getting more and more independent. I've worked hard so I could do stuff on my own and have been taking care of myself, even if I was living in my parents' house.
I know I'll be fine living on my own. My best friend is also moving to the same place (she first lived on the other side of the country) so I won't be alone.
And I've still got my job, which means I'll have enough money to do fun stuff.

But on the other hand, I have been thinking for 3 years what I wanted to do with my life and then I finally knew and I have worked really hard for it. It isn't really about wanting to be a student or me thinking Uni is this almighty place, because I know it isn't. It's because I had this 'revelation' about a year ago and I knew I wanted to go back to school. I don't want to work in a sandwich shop for the rest of my life and I was really looking forward to all the new stuff I was going to learn and the books I was getting to read and just the feeling that I was doing something with my life...

I know I can try again next year, but I feel like I'm getting too old already. All my friends have nearly finished and I haven't even started. And they're younger than me!

[Caribou]

Why cant you go make up your credits? Here if you quit school we can get G.E.D's or make up the credits in an adult school. You cant do anything like that? So you can at least get into some college?

There are adult schools over here, but that is also a lot of work.
I've been to one after I quit school. You got everything from the 5th and 6th year, but in just 1 year time. It cost my parents a shiteload of money, and I screwed it up.
If I wanted to do that again I would have to wait a whole year to start as well, because I'm too late to apply for this year. So trying for the university exams again next year is a better option as it is quicker and costs me about 2000 euros less.