ahhh. very bad.

[jammytastic]

first time in bout 2 years that ive done the bad drug.

im kinda ashamed of myself because in the last 6 months ive been shiny clean. not a bit of anything other than alcohol has passed my lips. now im ascared that im back on th ebad track. but in fairness ive been so very good i deserve a break. ive been working my arse off and ive been basically a hermit not going out and when i do i get a touch tipsy and then home to bed.

at the same time i just dropped 4 and now im sitting on my bed talking to a screen. how gay am i?

ok you dont need to answer that because i know how gay i am. quite.

fact of the matter is i ended up in some dudes gaff on the north road and i kinda got a bit scared what with him chewin the face off himself and him being the brother of a very bad BAD ex.

ok shut the fuck up.

my mates audrey and nic are on my bed playing boxing on the wii. ive never seen them so agressive. very funny very funny.

i wish i could have kurt but kurt is with michelle and that makes me very very sad. ive yearned for kurt the last 3 months and i just cant bring myself to make any kind of move. he got with michelle tonight because i refused his drunken embrace at the bar in cocos.

ahhhh i feel shit.

[taquitos]

oi

[taquitos]

2008 must be the year of the sissy whiners

[jammytastic]

fuck you!! hahaha

im allowed whine i havent whined in about 2 days im due for a good one.

and i really liked kurt. but he went with the big tit option and i have no tits!!

i have nipples (in fairness i have fantastic nipple) but alas no tits.

a fine arse it has to be said though

[paul jones]

JUST SAY NO!


(y)

[ericlee]

you dropped four what? The only thing that I know you can say you dropped is acid.

[TOY]

Hope it wasn't H stuff, but that's like something you do all of the time

:(

[jammytastic]

it wasnt H thats the superbad thing and i do NOT do that all the time. iwas strung out for a while when i was wee but not for years and years.

the bad thing was e. ectasy.

woke up feeling so shit and disgusted with myself.

never

ever

ever again.

[marsdaddy]

Love is a drug?

[cookiepuss]

you dropped 4 e tablets?

fucking no wonder you feel like shit. there's no need to EVER TAKE THAT MUCH! (unless you got some bunk ass shit that's cut with more speed than MDMA) Maybe I've been spoiled with relatively pure MDMA, but where I'm from one dose will do ya.

But since you've completely depleted all the seratonin in your body please do the following:

go to a health food store (whole foods?)
get a supplement called 5HTP
take 50-100 mg a day for the next few days. (DO NOT TAKE MORE THAN 100 MG a day. Again more does not = better. in fact it could screw you up worse if you take too much. stick to the dosage I've outlined here.)


you'll be less depressed and it will help repair the damage you've done.

[mikizee]

I hear bananas are good for seratonin recovery following taking E.

[jammytastic]

they were white mitzis. pure madness. 4 would be pretty much easy going for me. i felt like shit the next day. brand new now.

pills were my staple diet for years. i know how to feel better. sleep and water. water and sleep.

anyway e is shit. it only makes me talk shite (more than usual anyway) and dance like a whore.

anyway well go back to counting the clean.

4 days.

[tracky]

i had my first one on new years. i didn't like it, thankfully, otherwise it would just be another thing to add to all the other shit i take. thats why i've never tried it before, i figured i have enough addictions already. apparently these were really good for everyone else. i think i was just uncomfortable and probably would've enjoyed it more if i wasnt in a massive crowd. i'm certainly not rushing out to get more.