Miho
04-05-2008, 01:33 AM
When you're talking to people, and somewhere in your mind, you're thinking "I hope I don't say anything wrong or hurtful about another person, and the person I'm talking to may tell them that", knowing that you would never say such a thing, but you feel terribly guilty. Another thing is having a very guilty conscious.
The awful part about this irrational fear is that it forces me to seclude myself from 99% of the people I work with; just getting my job finished. And another method I have is to stop hanging out with said person I fear about thinking badly of me, as a way to repent, unless that person comes to me to talk and hang out, then I sense I did nothing wrong. (I hope I'm making sense at this point) This feeling can eat you from the inside.
The awful part about this irrational fear is that it forces me to seclude myself from 99% of the people I work with; just getting my job finished. And another method I have is to stop hanging out with said person I fear about thinking badly of me, as a way to repent, unless that person comes to me to talk and hang out, then I sense I did nothing wrong. (I hope I'm making sense at this point) This feeling can eat you from the inside.