sick of it all

[Dorothy Wood]

I'm sick of looking forward to things. it's all the same. what...so, say, you fall in love, start a family, maybe one of your kids is deformed. maybe you get cancer, maybe your husband does. maybe somebody you love dies. you get raped, you rape someone. your husband cheats, you cheat. you're hit by a car and become paraplegic. maybe you're badly burned and in constant pain. you're fired, you're homeless, you're a substance abuser. you're shot, you shoot someone. you get herpes. you go to war. war comes to you. you're starving. you're the kind of sick that never goes away. it's all sad, but these things happen.

so what's the fucking point? this isn't a "I hate myself and I want to die" thread, it's a "really, what's the fucking point?" thread. little snippets of joy? am I missing something? I know what happy is, I know what sad is. I know that happy can't happen without sad. but why so much sad? around the corner from every happy time is fucking disaster.

I'm really tired.

[TurdBerglar]

you just caused a dozen people contemplating suicide to actually follow though

[BBboy20]

lolz wut?

[ms.peachy]

There is no 'point'. It's about the journey, not the destination. Quit looking at the horizon that, no mater how hard you try, you will never reach. Instead, look around at the scenery. Notice the little plant that forces itself to grow up through the cracks in the asphalt. The rainbow the slick of oil makes in a puddle. If you choose to see only the bad things, recognise that that is the choice you are making.

[russhie]

hah, I had one of these moments in the car today. I'm horribly insecure about the way I look, and after trying on clothes today I was sitting in the car at some traffic lights and just out of nowhere thought "If I was dead I wouldn't have to feel like this anymore."

Now, I'm not suicidal - quite the opposite, actually - but I felt this massive relief when I thought it...I love the idea of never having to worry about it again, but I don't see an end to it...an eternity of ugliness and anxiety.

[Pike Bishop]

stick with the "I hate myself and I want to die" threads.

[paul jones]

I really need some podcast equipment and maybe a pc game about WW2

[paul jones]

I might get that Star Wars Galaxies game too,the pc online nerd interactive thing

[Bob]

Is this it? Is this what it's all about, Dorothy? Eating, Drinking, Fucking, Sucking, Snorting? Then what? Tell me, then what? You're fifty. You gotta bag for a belly. You got tits, you need a bra; they got hair on 'em. You got a liver, it's got spots on it, and your eatin' dis fucking shit; and looking like these rich fucking mummies in here. Is this what it's all about? Is this what I work for? Look at that, a junkie. I gotta fucking junkie for a wife. Don't eat nothin', sleeps all day wit dem black chades on. Wakes up with a qualude. And who won't fuck me, cuz she's in a coma. I can't even have a kid wit'er, Dorothy. Her womb is so polluted, I can't even have a fucking little baby wit'er!

[Pike Bishop]

I found a penny on the floor the other day.

[Pike Bishop]

Then I got hit by a car.

[paul jones]

what I really want is a U-Boat game

one of the sea wolves ones maybe or U Boat Commander:Battle in the med

[mikizee]

Try and find the simple joys in life.

For instance.... my office is on the 3rd floor, i got a window office, facing the street. I got a $1 coin, and glued it to the pavement on the other side of the road, so i can see it from my office. When I'm in my office I can look out and watch all these people trying to pick it up.

Its an endless source of amusement. One day we had about 10 people lined up along the windows watching pedestrians attempt to get the coin.

The simple joys I tell you.

[kaiser soze]

Try and find the simple joys in life.

For instance.... my office is on the 3rd floor, i got a window office, facing the street. I got a $1 coin, and glued it to the pavement on the other side of the road, so i can see it from my office. When I'm in my office I can look out and watch all these people trying to pick it up.

Its an endless source of amusement. One day we had about 10 people lined up along the windows watching pedestrians attempt to get the coin.

The simple joys I tell you.

(y)

Simple for you....not too simple for the poor souls trying to peel the coin off the ground

[taquitos]

this thread is relevant to my interests.

[Dorothy Wood]

lol, I forgot I made this thread.

I was pretty tired.

I guess I started it because my friend just cheated on her boyfriend of 6 years who loves her very much. the boyfriend is also my friend and a good man. also, I'm going to california wine country next week and have to stay in a house with 3 couples. and I'm going to want to curl up into a ball and die when I go to sleep drunk and alone on the couch. it won't be so bad, it seemed worse last night. heh. it's only one night, sometimes I'm just a crabby jerk. sorry.


the rest of the time I'll just be in unromantic L.A. stalking bbmbers.

[skra75]

Like the pine trees linin the windin road
Ive got a name, Ive got a name
Like the singin bird and the croakin toad
Ive got a name, Ive got a name
And I carry it with me like my daddy did
But Im livin the dream that he kept hid
Movin me down the highway
Rollin me down the highway
Movin ahead so life wont pass me by

Like the north wind whistlin down the sky
Ive got a song, Ive got a song
Like the whippoorwill and the babys cry
Ive got a song, Ive got a song
And I carry it with me and I sing it loud
If it gets me nowhere, Ill go there proud
Movin me down the highway
Rollin me down the highway
Movin ahead so life wont pass me by

And Im gonna go there free
Like the fool I am and Ill always be
Ive got a dream, Ive got a dream
They can change their minds but they cant change me
Ive got a dream, Ive got a dream
Oh, I know I could share it if you want me to
If youre going my way, Ill go with you
Movin me down the highway
Rollin me down the highway
Movin ahead so life wont pass me by

shit ain't all that bad :)

[pshabi]

I'm sick of looking forward to things. it's all the same. what...so, say, you fall in love, start a family, maybe one of your kids is deformed. maybe you get cancer, maybe your husband does. maybe somebody you love dies. you get raped, you rape someone. your husband cheats, you cheat. you're hit by a car and become paraplegic. maybe you're badly burned and in constant pain. you're fired, you're homeless, you're a substance abuser. you're shot, you shoot someone. you get herpes. you go to war. war comes to you. you're starving. you're the kind of sick that never goes away. it's all sad, but these things happen.

so what's the fucking point? this isn't a "I hate myself and I want to die" thread, it's a "really, what's the fucking point?" thread. little snippets of joy? am I missing something? I know what happy is, I know what sad is. I know that happy can't happen without sad. but why so much sad? around the corner from every happy time is fucking disaster.

I'm really tired.

You sound like a barrel of fucking laughs. I'm guessing a relationship with you would make suicide seem like Disney World. Jesus, YSSCKY.

[cosmo105]

the rest of the time I'll just be in unromantic L.A. stalking bbmbers.

lol?

[cookiepuss]

There is no 'point'. It's about the journey, not the destination. Quit looking at the horizon that, no mater how hard you try, you will never reach. Instead, look around at the scenery. Notice the little plant that forces itself to grow up through the cracks in the asphalt. The rainbow the slick of oil makes in a puddle. If you choose to see only the bad things, recognise that that is the choice you are making.


^^^(y)

My suggestion to you Dorothy, is to read Paulo Coelho's book "The Alchemist". it will perfectly illustrate what ms. Peachy is saying.


uh...wine country? NApa? uh..I live in northern Ca wine country. so where exactly will you be?

[BangkokB]

Any time I'm feeling sad and depressed, I put some pornos on repeat playing on 5.1 really loud and leave. For a couple of days.

[Dorothy Wood]

^^^(y)

My suggestion to you Dorothy, is to read Paulo Coelho's book "The Alchemist". it will perfectly illustrate what ms. Peachy is saying.


uh...wine country? NApa? uh..I live in northern Ca wine country. so where exactly will you be?


oh god. I fucking hate The Alchemist. sorry dude. like a billion people recommended it to me so I read it and totally puked on it. no offense. :/ I've offended some real life friends with my hate of it.

I know what ms. peachy is saying. I get all that. I practice all of that, perhaps even more than most people. I just feel like I have it all figured out. that's why I think there's religion, so people don't go around feeling like this, like life is ultimately worthless in the scheme of things (though I feel this, I don't know that it's necessarily true).


pshabi, actually, I am a barrel of laughs. and how do you know that dying isn't like disney world huh? have you been to heaven? hell? fantasy afterlife land? I'm guessing no. sit down.


cosmo, I'm gonna be in L.A. next week from the 13th-19th. if you and echewta and babs want to have a party for me k thnx. ;)

cookie, I dunno what kind of wine country we'll be in. my ex-wife is planning everything, I'm just going along with it.

[taquitos]

life is worthless, you're right. nothing to do but smoke weed, drink beer and die

p.s. dorothy, i really think you should check these guys (http://www.lambgoat.com/graphics/features/soia.jpg) out, they may be able to reach you
and to help you deal with and better understand the issues that are affecting your life.

[cookiepuss]

oh god. I fucking hate The Alchemist. sorry dude. like a billion people recommended it to me so I read it and totally puked on it. no offense. :/ I've offended some real life friends with my hate of it.

I know what ms. peachy is saying. I get all that. I practice all of that, perhaps even more than most people. I just feel like I have it all figured out. that's why I think there's religion, so people don't go around feeling like this, like life is ultimately worthless in the scheme of things (though I feel this, I don't know that it's necessarily true).


pshabi, actually, I am a barrel of laughs. and how do you know that dying isn't like disney world huh? have you been to heaven? hell? fantasy afterlife land? I'm guessing no. sit down.


cosmo, I'm gonna be in L.A. next week from the 13th-19th. if you and echewta and babs want to have a party for me k thnx. ;)

cookie, I dunno what kind of wine country we'll be in. my ex-wife is planning everything, I'm just going along with it.

lol. not offended. Coelho is entirely too dreamy and optimistic for some people...it's just what popped into my head when I read Peachys response, because of the journey not the destination thing.

I'm guessing you're going to be further south than where I'm at. I'm north of San Fran and so is Napa. otherwise I could kidnap your alchemist hating ass and save you from third wheel coupledom misery.

of course I spell like shit, so you probably think I'm dumb and don't want to hang out with me. ha ha.

[TAL]

This should be in Other Music.

[Dorothy Wood]

life is worthless, you're right. nothing to do but smoke weed, drink beer and die

p.s. dorothy, i really think you should check these guys (http://www.lambgoat.com/graphics/features/soia.jpg) out, they may be able to reach you
and to help you deal with and better understand the issues that are affecting your life.

TAQUITOSSSSSS,

no to the p.s.

yes to the first part. except you forgot about petting puppies and cats! :p:p:p

[HotAndWet]

That's really weird you posted that, I was just saying something really similar the other day about life, "what's the point" etc etc ehh

[DandyFop]

cosmo, I'm gonna be in L.A. next week from the 13th-19th. if you and echewta and babs want to have a party for me k thnx. ;)


Holy fucking yes.

[Junker]

I thought you were talking about the band.

[venusvenus123]

i wish i could join the party in LA!

it would make my life more meaningful for a while.