In my never ending quest for catharsis

[Kid Presentable]

I've been youtubing people's final moments with and tributes to their cats. Some videos are pretty out there, but it's hard to lose a pet so I can dig. My wife keeps saying "Why do you watch that shit?" and I guess I don't know. It's pretty raw stuff, good for leveling me out when I feel too happy.

Pelle (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AEP-JNhPXIk) is the name of the cat in this one. There's no death or anything, just an owner filming the last morning of his sick cat's life, before they put her to sleep. It's sad, but kind of nice in a way too.

[camo]

I held my little Gecko in place (head in the 'gas' tube) whilst the vet prepped the needle because she wouldn't stay still for her.

That was a pretty sobering experience :(

[Kid Presentable]

Yeah, fuck sorry about that by the way man. I remember you posting about it.

[camo]

Ta mate, yeah it was pretty bad. I'm in two minds as to replace her or not. I don't want the other one to get lonely. Apparently they do.

[pshabi]

I held my little Gecko in place (head in the 'gas' tube) whilst the vet prepped the needle because she wouldn't stay still for her.

That was a pretty sobering experience :(

Wait... you paid to get a gecko put to sleep? What about a flush down the toilet or a flyswatter or something?

[AceFace]

^ NOT NICE! :(

[kaiser soze]

yeah...that was asshole-like!

[camo]

Wait... you paid to get a gecko put to sleep? What about a flush down the toilet or a flyswatter or something?

No I paid for the treament, the euthanasia was free you tactless cunt.

[Kid Presentable]

I should never have watched the Pelle video in the first place. It's pretty much the saddest thing I've watched, now I'm bummed out about some stranger's cat. He counted her food pellets every day to check if she was getting better and it was always the same. Still, it's a break from all the normal youtube shit.

[cosmo105]

when i was 18 i went, alone, to the vet to put the cat i'd had for 7 years to sleep. she had been ill for some months (massive kidney failure) and there was just no point in treating it. it would just prolong her suffering and most likely fail anyway. i felt terrible - my family had just gotten a dog she was terrified of, and she was too scared to leave the room she usually stayed in to use her litterbox. until one night she sat in the hallway meowing low and painfully, ignoring the dog sniffing her all over. i knew something was horribly wrong.

cut to a few days later and the vet has told me all this, and i've driven there to say my goodbyes to her. they give me a few minutes alone with her. she was weak and sleepy but she still purred and cuddled up when i pet her, and i held her for a good few minutes. they came in and i stroked her while they injected her. she was still licking my hand when she finally went. i sobbed in my car for a good ten minutes then went to work.

FUCK. :(

[AceFace]

^ that made me cry here at my desk.

[cosmo105]

me too. she was the sweetest cat. the most cuddly, affectionate, curl-up-in-your-lap-and-fall-asleep-purring kitty ever. she lived a good life, i'd like to think.

[camo]

awww man that's too bad cosmo, sorry to hear that :(

[Lex Diamonds]

Cool thread man. Very fun, and that's the main thing.

[Kid Presentable]

Hey man thanks for upping this. I remember at this point I was finishing my last assignment in my undergrad degree. It's crazy to think I've started post-grad. How were your exam re-sits? I can relate, partying and shit is much more fun than uni. I fucked it up the first time I went, but you live and learn. You're smart and you'll probably do well now that you've gained a bit of momentum. One thing I learned is that catharsis can be good. It's good to know yourself and what works for you. People posted in this thread, which was cool of them. I suppose I should be a bit embarassed by these threads you've bought up because I do come off a little mopey, but I just can't bring myself to care. And that feels really good. (y)

[Lex Diamonds]

No need to thank me, I'm just glad I've touched you in such a strong and positive way today (nh).

[Lex Diamonds]

I actually passed all my re-sits, which was a huge relief. My head hasn't been in my studies for years and truth be told I went to uni because I didn't know what else to do. I've had an amazing time and fallen in love with the city, but I've really taken the piss by attending about 5 lectures in the entire 2 years. Somehow I just manage to cram and learn things on the fly, but when it came round to this year's exams I was going through some relationship shit as well as beginning to question my own purpose in being there so I bottled it and totally fucked everything up.

When the re-sits came around, I had stupidly just re-separated from my ex after a summer reunion (stupid to have gone back there, that is), and I found myself in a similar state of "fuck it" nihilism. I only spent around an hour revising for each exam and barely more than that on the courseworks. Luckily- after a month or 2 of dreading breaking the news to my mother that I had failed yet again- my results came through as low level passes, but the money they began charging this year for the re-sits is pretty extortionate and I can't afford to fuck up my final year. I'm already in about 3 years' wages worth of debt as it is.

This year in India is an amazing opportunity for me to learn something outside the academic spectrum as well as try and mature in terms of my work ethic and appreciation of the chances I'm given. Here's hoping I'll begin my third year as a "student" in the true sense of the word and grow out of this misanthropic alcohol & drug reliant lifestyle that I've been slipping into.

Thanks for asking.