My mum died this morning

[Adam]

and it feels strange. Its been expected since July and I knew it'd happen a few days ago very soon. I am some how relieved that she is at peace. I've been up all night; its 10am just gone here and I had some whiskey a couple of hours ago to try and sleep but to no avail...

She was great, wonderful and all the other things you associate with your mum.

And now I'm telling you guys which is the weirdest of all. I find comfort in my computers is why I am telling you 1's and 0's all this I think

[Yorkshire~Rose]

Oh Adam...I am so sorry to hear that :(
My thoughts are with you *hug*

[paul jones]

sorry about the sad news .

[Audio.]

oh wow, that horrible news. I feel for ya Adam. You should try to get some rest now.

[camo]

Hey I'm sorry to hear that. I know that these are just a bunch of words that cannot directly help you but I'm certain that anyone reading this thread has a little knot in their stomach and is hoping you stay strong and get through this.

[Guy Incognito]

Sorry to hear that Adam, i know what its like to lose a parent after a long illness and its not easy but it does get better over time and take some solace in the fact that your mum isnt suffering anymore. Keep yer chin up dude.

[Adam]

I'm ok. I lost my Dad to cancer last year to. Its been a heck of a 2 year stretch of bad luck...

I dunno what is wrong with me - shouldn't really feel like this. I just decided to be alone and came home. I've spent 4 days here in the last 7 weeks here and I'm happy to be home - just on my computer, listening to some music after a long shower.

She ain't suffering anymore and these last few days when she was just laying there, she looked happy and content and half aware of her surroundings - she knew what was happening which I think helped. My Dad refused to believe it when he was in his final few days and really did fight it and I think some how that was worse.

I hope when I am on my way out, I don't struggle too much and my family feels like I do - sad but happy of what they bought to life - Ie; joy to every1 who knew her...

...writing this even helps.

[mikizee]

Don't really know what to say except offer my sympathy...

It sounds like you are focusing on the positive, which is a good thing.

That's all you can really do.

[Fern]

sorry, bud...

[Rock]

Sorry for your loss. Hang in there.

[MC Moot]

My condolences...lo siento...via con dios...

[ms.peachy]

I'm really sorry Adam.

[kaiser soze]

man I'm sorry, I hope you find comfort knowing she is completely free

hang in there and stay positive, talking about this to strangers is an amazing step you have already made with your coping

[BangkokB]

I'm gonna say what everyone else won't say "That Sucks"
Sorry

[ScarySquirrel]

I'm terribly sorry to hear of your loss, man. Times like this can be tough, dude, so take care of yourself and all that jazz.

I've been through the same thing with losing my dad in 2005 so I know what it's like. If you need anything at all that I can possibly help with - just reach out, man.

[Freebasser]

*manhug*

Hang in there, matey. Chin up and all tha' (y)

[Knuckles]

Strength and love be with you and your family through this hard time.

[jennyb]

:( ... sigh

(((hug)))

[cookiepuss]

it must be really hard to loose both parents in such a short amount of time. I've only lost one parent and that's hard enough even 9 years later.
I'm sorry for your loss.

[ericlee]

don't feel strange about posting it here. Anyway you can let it out helps, bro.

I can't imagine loosing my mother but it will happen eventually and I totally understand what you mean about feeling relieved because I lost my father who was going through severe suffering and pain.

Hang in there.

[DandyFop]

There's no right way to deal with this kind of thing. I don't think anybody is prepared for something like that, even if you knew it was coming.

Big hugs and thoughts your way, seriously.

[Randetica]

im so sorry, wish i could do something to make you feel better

[monkey]

oh man, that's tough. im so sorry for your loss.
*hugs*

[trailerprincess]

Sorry to hear this news Adam, my condolences to you and yours.

[venusvenus123]

my condolences to you adam

[Burnout18]

sorry to hear that

[ET]

Not to sound like an ass, but be grateful that you got to spend time with them before they passed. Focus on the good times you had with your parents. Maybe that's what they'd want you to think about.

[MIKEtotheD]

Sorry to hear that, my condolences. :(

[spacemac9000]

Sorry to hear that, my condolences. :(

Im sorry for your loss. If you have half as many real world friends as you do all these "1s and 0s" than you are a very popular guy. Make sure to spend some time with them too. Try not to isolate yourself. Either way remember your not alone.

[sjp]

sorry to hear about that man. wish things like that didn't happen, happened to two of my uncles one year apart from each other one was like a dad to me.

[Adam]

:)

Thanks all - its amazing what 10 hours sleep can do to. I feel loads better.

ET - I think it is better to know in advance when you are about to die than it all be sudden. So I am thankful for that.

Gotta try and empty and sell the family home now - especially in this economic climate, I'm not sure how easy its gonna be. Each month I keep it, I'll be pissing £1000+ up the wall so I don't think its worth waiting until better time.

Its such a nice house to - spent most of my life growing up there, but you have to let go I suppose.

[abcdefz]

Sad news, Adam. I'm really sorry.

[HEIRESS]

Im so sorry adam. I hope you find the best way to make it through the next few months because they will be difficult.
reach out to us e-folk as much as you want!

[saz]

i've lost a few family members in the last few years, and another one is falling into very poor health as well. granted, it wasn't like i lost a parent, but still i found myself doing somewhat strange things to get through it. i'm very sorry to hear about your losses adam and it appears you're very capable of dealing with it.

[NoFenders]

I'm sorry to hear this Adam.

Always remember what she's taught you.

:cool:

[ToucanSpam]

I'm really sorry to hear this, man. My most sincere condolences go out to you.

[Matt]

i never know what to say to people when they've lost someone dear to them. i'm so sorry for your loss

Exactly why I haven't posted yet.

My best friend died last December, and I've still not come to grips with it. I can only offer my condolences to you in your time of need, Adam.

[hpdrifter]

Hey I'm sorry to hear that. I know that these are just a bunch of words that cannot directly help you but I'm certain that anyone reading this thread has a little knot in their stomach and is hoping you stay strong and get through this.

X1000

If it helps you to keep writing, use this thread as your journal.

[little j]

im sorry adam.
:(