10 minute freak out AND package from my estranged father

[Dorothy Wood]

so I came home a little tipsy from a lovely dinner with some friends to a messy kitchen with an overflowing garbage can (I am the only one who takes out the trash because the alley is too "scary" for the other girls, but I've been boycotting lately.)

then I cleaned the absolutely filthy litter box, which I thought had been cleaned by my friend/roommate who owns the other cat in the house, but hadn't (I didn't realize she didn't do it because I'm all stuffed up and can't smell things) .

all the while, anger building. I tried to ignore the open cupboards and garbage can, but I couldn't, so I slammed them all shut and pulled out the garbage bag and straightened and replaced it with a new one (I will probably take it out tomorrow and ruin my boycott...again).

then, I look in my room, and there's this filthy cardboard portfolio package thing from my dad. ON MY BED. dirty cardboard that's been dragged across the country and plopped down on my sheets where I fucking sleep by a "well-meaning" roommate. what. the. fuck.

:mad::mad::mad:

anyway, the package was filled with drawings my mom did in 1978/79, and some old kid art I did when I was little. some old ice capades pennants (smurfs, snorks, teddy ruxpin, and more! man, did I ever love the ice capades), a fuckin "just say no" button (which rules), some old posters I had when I was a tot. and this paper ice cream cone thing from 1st grade where you got a scoop for every 4 books you read. jesus, that thing...just like, slapped the back of my head as soon as I saw it, and jostled out such vivid memories of the pride I had...how much I must have stared at it as a kid to have it so burned into my mind?

and then I burst into tears for about 30 seconds. and then I was fine. weird. it's hard to be upset when there's snorks and paper ice cream around.

[paul jones]

It wouldn't have been the same if you were already in a good mood(y)

[taquitos]

omg.


if you had friends underwater who would you know?

[TurdBerglar]

i realise i can't remember much at all from childhood. like if someone sent me shit from that age i wouldn't know what the fuck it was. it would be just a bunch of junk to me.

[taquitos]

memories are just sad to me, i think.

[TurdBerglar]

i don't even remember shit from highschool


i'll bump into people and it seems they know me but i don't know them and after talking i realise they're from highscool.

i've got alszheimers :(

[Lyman Zerga]

i love pretty much everything that reminds me of my childhood

[Dorothy Wood]

I have a freakishly good visual memory. actually looking at those things just made me realize how much I liked them, and how I never really had a lot of stuff...or rather, I treasured the stuff I had, and looked at it a lot and liked it instead of always wanting new stuff.

I never really got presents or toys other than at holidays when I was a kid, but I always got a pennant of some kind as a souvenir. there are some circus ones in there, and one that says I saw a unicorn, there's a sesame street live one...old tucson? I think I liked the pennants more than the events, because I cannot remember any of them...I recognize the pennants as if I'd gotten them yesterday.


I wonder if I can sell them on ebay? people love the 80's.

[RobMoney$]

Girls are slobs, it's a time-proven fact.
It's not just your roommates.

[ms.peachy]

I know there are some real and very legitimate issues with your dad, but it was really thoughtful of him to send you that stuff - he could have just tossed it, you know? But he saw that it might be meaningful to you and wanted you to have it. Sounds to me like he's trying. I'm not saying you need to go have some big teary reunion with him, but maybe a thank you card might be a nice idea.

[AceFace]

poor cat!

[Videodrome]

I know there are some real and very legitimate issues with your dad, but it was really thoughtful of him to send you that stuff - he could have just tossed it, you know? But he saw that it might be meaningful to you and wanted you to have it. Sounds to me like he's trying. I'm not saying you need to go have some big teary reunion with him, but maybe a thank you card might be a nice idea.

i concur.

[b i o n i c]

I know there are some real and very legitimate issues with your dad, but it was really thoughtful of him to send you that stuff - he could have just tossed it, you know? But he saw that it might be meaningful to you and wanted you to have it. Sounds to me like he's trying. I'm not saying you need to go have some big teary reunion with him, but maybe a thank you card might be a nice idea.

also all this stuff thats about to go on ebay has been carried along by the man for 30 years, i wonder why he did that

[MC Moot]

I don't mean to be heavy at all but it just struck me that perhaps he is sick or maybe even dying? I had a friend years back whose Mom sent him all his trophy's and childhood sporting ribbons during her terminal stage whilst he had no idea she was ill due to dysfunction/estrangement...:(

*knocks on wood*