Sometimes I'm afraid of trying to be super awesome

[Nuzzolese]

Have you ever gone for something that you tthought was the coolest thing you'd ever seen, only to wuss out at the last minute because you think it's too awesome for you to pull off?

I've got to work on not being afraid of being really awesome. Maybe it's a self esteem thing, like I think I'm not cool enough or not worth the attention it will get me. I do shy away from attention.

Usually I'm not even close to being awesome, and I don't try to be. I mean, what if I were to achieve super awesomeness, then I would have to live up to that by trying to be super awesome in every aspect, and I'd have to become this entirely different (awesome) person that isn't even me!

Like, sometimes I'll be getting dressed and I put on something wickedly stylish and daring and I think I look cool but then, as my hand is on the door, I pause and think "No...no, it's too much! It's too much style!" and so I have to go back and tone it down a notch.

Ya know? :eek:

[mickill]

You just gotta embrace it, man.

Awesome is a beast that needs to be tamed first. It can bite you hard if you try to approach it indirectly. It enjoys being preyed upon, for that is how it survives. It will bite you in the neck without you even knowing it. But if you face it head on, and challenge it, it will fear you. You have to wrestle the awesome to the ground and tear the flesh from the awesome and wear it. You have to have confidence in what you're doing. If putting on the awesome makes you feel self-conscious or inhibited, you don't have what it takes.

[Nuzzolese]

I WANT THE AWESOME!

but i'm scared

[rirv]

Sometimes, often when I've had a couple of drinks but often when sober, I become a bit loud and start talking to the group of people I'm in and I'll be really funny and people are laughing and I'm standing in the middle of it all miming something and then I realise I'm being a bit too awesome and tone it all down and revert to being unawesome.

[mickill]

I don't think you don't have the balls to confront the awesome.

I fear that the awesome would merely consume you and crap you out. And then you'd just end up being this turd that the awesome left behind in its wake.

[b i o n i c]

baby steps..

[Dorothy Wood]

I used to be afraid of the awesome, but I'm not anymore. sometimes you have to watch out though, because there's a fine line between awesome and obnoxious.

I think you should wear what you want, it's 2009, baby! anything goes!

[Audio.]

I'm way cooler than awesome.

[hpdrifter]

The older you get the less this will be a problem.

[DandyFop]

I get like this very very much so, especially with clothing like you talked about. I think people put themselves in the "I couldn't pull that off" category a lot. Personally I think it's because I go through a lot of phases, most of them being that I don't put in a ton of effort so when I do it's a noticeable change, and that's kind of an embarrassing thing to expose to people - OH, wow look how good you can look when you actually give a shit!

I also get like this about comedy...I never give myself credit, and only recently have realized in talking to other people that even though my negative side tries to convince me out of it, I do belong here, very much so. I need to accept and embrace the awesome.

[Ty Webb]

i'm stoked on being pumped.

[Dorothy Wood]

I dress fancy and cute when I go out most times, so when people see how I actually look day to day, they are probably confused. because I dress like a 12 year old boy.

sometimes I forget how colorfully I dress and I get embarrassed when I realize it, then I forget again.

I think that 9 times out of 10, people don't give a shit what you're wearing, they usually like it when it's different. I made a dress out of a giant blazer that for a year I'd put on and then take off because I thought it was too weird. until a few weeks ago when I decided to just wear it. and I got so many compliments! so I shouldn't have been afraid of it after all.

[paul jones]

I just had some toast and I thought maybe just eat the toast on it's on with some butter or go for some vegemite too so I put some vegemite and I felt more awesome sensations on my taste buds.

clothes?....I wear mainly band T shirts and timberland jeans ,sneakers and I always feel awesome that I never wear shirts and ties and shoes

[Audio.]

me, I wear slacks. Is it a crime to wear slacks?

[fucktopgirl]

Being afraid of being awesome is relate to the cycle, you know women cycle, period, menstruation, hormones. That kinds of things!

I am awesome, i think anyway!NOt everyday but somedays for sure.

I think everydody awesome, except ........

[Audio.]

except.....mmmm?

[b i o n i c]

you should wear a bandana around your knee like punky brewster
thatd be pretty awesome, and also sweet dude sweet(y)

[Nuzzolese]

POST PART I: In which I reply to mickill and ask for guidance

I don't think you don't have the balls to confront the awesome.

I fear that the awesome would merely consume you and crap you out. And then you'd just end up being this turd that the awesome left behind in its wake.

Do you think I could somehow train for it, and learn to tackle the awesome? Should I try baby steps, like bionic said, and go for small awesomes here and there? Or do you think the only way to be awesome is by going for the big awesome?


Post Part II: In which I discuss opening one door and closing another

See what Dorothy said about there being a fine line between awesome and obnoxious. I need to trust myself to either A: know when something is awesome, or B: not care.

There are different kinds of awesome, and sometimes one kind will cancel out the other. So part of this is an indecision on what kind of awesome to be, so I end up with neither awesome, with zero awesome. Safe territory.


Post Part III: Which is a continuation of Part II but with examples and a conclusion in self-discovery

I know that if I really committed to it, and tried, I could almost have a body like a real ballerina, almost like a skeleton with little muscles.

But I'm afraid to have that body. I'm afraid of the way I'll have to maintain it and see it decline. Part of me just wants to see myself that way, just once, just for a week or so. The other part of me is conflicted over whether or not I really want it. A lot of people, when they see that, they think the woman looks gross, that she doesn't really look like a woman.

So I don't have what it takes to be awesome, because I'm indecisive about what I really want.

[Dorothy Wood]

Post Part III: Which is a continuation of Part II but with examples and a conclusion in self-discovery

I know that if I really committed to it, and tried, I could almost have a body like a real ballerina, almost like a skeleton with little muscles.

But I'm afraid to have that body. I'm afraid of the way I'll have to maintain it and see it decline. Part of me just wants to see myself that way, just once, just for a week or so. The other part of me is conflicted over whether or not I really want it. A lot of people, when they see that, they think the woman looks gross, that she doesn't really look like a woman.

So I don't have what it takes to be awesome, because I'm indecisive about what I really want.



I don't think you should try to be a muscley skeleton, I mean, if that's how your body naturally is, that's fine...but I don't think it's healthy to strive for it. Unless you want to start dancing or something. If you want to do it anyway, you only have a limited window because once you start getting older, your skin's going to be all droopy and creepy and you'll look older than you are because you won't have any fat to support your skin.


anyhoo, I was just thinking about how when I have a boyfriend, I start dressing crazy. not like super crazy, but I take more chances than when I'm single. with the ex, I was wearing like neon and graphic hoodies and giving Nike dunks a try, purple skinny jeans, colorful tights. then when we broke up I was like, "hmm, I think I'm too old to dress like this, also, I look totally ugly".

:/

[hpdrifter]

The body thing is a trap, no matter how you do it it'll never be good enough. Chances are the women you see that have this body you think you want don't know they have it and are continuously striving to reach it as well.

You never reach the shape you desire even if you're already there and one day one week will turn into the rest of your life.

[Myu-to]

baby steps..
baby balls...