Ever question your own reality?

[Adam]

I'm not high.

I've had a funny old week. Hurt my ankle running which means I had to drop out of the half marathon. I had to be off work ill and I came back Wednesday to find out after a couple of hours that I lost my job the day before.

This is where it all becomes a blur. I remember being shocked as it was pretty unexpected after the assurances I had a few weeks previous. I was told several reason through several chains of command. One of the reasons was a complaint from one of my offices and I remember saying "that makes sense" after being told because some clash of personalities/office politics bullshit had been going down there for well over 6 months.

Anyway, when I go to question this further it's like it never happened, not denied what I was told but changing of subject. Like someone fudged up by telling me. And I don't want to cause trouble like I was on the edge of doing. Now I am questioning what I was told on the phone during that moment of shock while I was literally shaking - did I just hear something else from what I was actually being told?

I get two people into serious trouble if I persist with this which won't lead to any compensation, apologies or reinstating. But if I leave it here, I'm gonna get confused looks like I've made it and I picked up the wrong end of stick and tried to be really bitchy about it - bitch stick.

Another funny thing is, they've replaced me for this week because I originally said I'd be off all week with this injury - now that person is staying on for a few more weeks because I'm no longer there. Everyone at work is up in arms about me leaving and I'm very touched about how much they care for me and that I will be missed :o

But yeah, I'm questioning reality - like it was some lucid dream, but it wasn't. I'm sat here not at work, unemployed and my ankle still really hurts. I've been assured I wasn't sacked but it was service changes.

Is this madness? Am I really in a padded cell right now?

[tejana]

Yep. This is life.

Nobody ever said it made sense, was fair, or didn't hurt.

Best luck, really. I just encourage you NOT to burn any bridges. I'm afraid I may have, and that's why I'm still unemployed.

You just need to take care of yourself.

[Adam]

yeah, trying not to hate.

I keep having these moments of rage and then clarity. I always come here to when I'm down on myself which I know doesn't help much of my rep but if I am having fun, I come here less and less - so I'm good, my persona is just
slightly skewed here I feel.

It's a good point about the bridges, I don't think I've done anything where they can't be repaired or strengthened without too much work (y)

[Myu-to]

LET THEM EAT CAKE!!!

or shit.

[Kid Presentable]

Yes.

The other week I shaved off my pubes with an electric trimmer. It followed on from an incident about three days prior.

I woke up at 3am and the red 'power' lights from the bedroom tv and dvd player were reflecting close together in the window like eyes. Red demon's eyes. I'd spent the week prior trying to invite demons into my body, to see what possession was like.

I woke up the night after and the reflection was different (what probably happened is that I looked at a different part of the window) - now it looked like two pairs of eyes. It was 3am that time as well.

[paul jones]

I question the 'reality' of deluxe packages in these difficult times.

It used to be about the music

[Adam]

Everyone needs a pension dude.

[paul jones]

Everyone needs a pension dude.

they are rich enough and I need cigarettes