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[kindness09]

hi all! I’m new to the site, but a long time Beastie admirer. Sure Shot is when the music clicked for me. And the Tibet freedom concerts are what exposed me to the Tibetan plight (Chinese occupation). The Beastie’s commitment to the cause opened up a whole new world for me. Like Adam Yauch, I too had explored many paths. Buddhism is what clicked for me :)

MCA’s journey and exploration have inspired my own. His life has given me confidence in mine. I have one son. He will be our only child. I was scared at first to raise an ‘only child’ until I searched famous only children and found out Adam is one too :)


By writing this, I’m beginning to realize right now why the loss of Adam Yauch is hitting me so hard.

I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer in 11/2008, (one day after my 36th birthday). I was 7 months pregnant.

The type of thyroid cancer I had is generally very curable and very survivable. Lymph nodes, salivary (parotid) glands are taken into consideration and sometimes impacted by treatment.

3 weeks after delivering our son via c-section at 42 weeks (he likes to take his time in life), I was back in surgery having my thyroid removed. This was in February 2009. Surgery and recovery went well.

We had just moved away from the Chicago area in September 2008 so when I heard the 2009 lollapalooza line up at Grant Park would included the Beastie Boys, I was stoked!! I was going to take a trip home to see them!

Then the news came and I was so bummed. Yet feeling the same relief (I had for myself) to hear the survivable/treatable nature of MCA’s cancer. So, I’ve been waiting….checking in. Making sure it sounded like MCA was doing well. And then Friday happened. I saw ‘Adam Yauch’ trending and thought…..'what’s up?!?’ and then I read the news…..and I stopped, looked up to the ceiling and said ‘oh no’. Those two small words were beyond emotion filled, as it stopped my 3 year old in his tracks to see what was wrong with mommy.

My heart is so sad right now. I thought we would both be cancer survivors. I am crushed. I am reeling. Cancer sucks.

Adam Yauch impacted my life so positively. I have lost a mentor. I know he did not know me, but I am so grateful to have gotten to know him from the life he shared with the world.

Thank you Beasties, Thank you MCA.

Adam Yauch and the Beastie Boys will never be forgotten in this household. My son is already a huge fan! Intergalactic and Sure Shot are his top two you tube videos! He loves them as much as Angry Birds, and that says a lot!

Beastie Boys FOREVER!!

<3 you all <3

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[Headgotchecked]

I sympathize with you, Kindness. I am also a cancer survivor (acute myelogenous leukemia, age 9) and one of the things that I battle with even today is something they call "survivor's guilt". I hate sharing my story, and people tell me that I am "lucky", because it makes me think of all of the people in my life that I have lost to this family of diseases... and there's no justice, no sense of fairness to any of it, you know?

In my years of health (September 18th will mark 26 years since my diagnosis) the only thing has ever really made me feel good is lending aid to those that were ill. I've contributed in a myriad of ways, from something as simple as stopping to talk with someone battling cancer, or to donations, and I've even had my personal story published in a book written to rally up those afflicted with the disease. And as I sit here typing this, it just dawned on me that it never occurred to reach out to Adam and send him a copy of that book... -.-

Man, fuck cancer.

[kindness09]

I hear ya....no justice, no fairness.

{{hugs}}