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AdamK
05-20-2012, 08:09 AM
I’ve struggled with this over the past couple weeks and I haven’t really known what to say, but I knew I had to get something off my chest.

Like many of you I grew up with Beastie Boys music in the background of my life… ranging from listening to my License to Ill tape while doing homework in Junior High, or listening to Paul’s Boutique in my POS car in High School and most everyone that heard it asking who it was… to a 38 year old man that shares Beastie music with his 8 and 10 year old sons. (My boys can recite almost all of Paul Revere without any help… and I know I won’t win any Father of the year awards for that, but I’m still proud.)

I have to admit at first when Adam died, I was numb…. I didn’t know what to think and I continued to get texts and emails from friends saying how sad they were and how much their music meant to us growing up… As time went by it sunk in and I was surprised by how someone I never met in real life could have such an effect on me and I’ve searched for the words to explain it. (Of course they were a part of my growing up like everyone else here… but we’ve all had music we listened to growing up and plenty of artists have died and had no effect on me). Adam’s passing was so different… the past couple weeks I’ve been formulating what I would say in my head…. and this morning while reading a Facebook post by Matthew Hamilton (which is a great read by the way) Matt describes apoint where he’s telling AD-ROCK how Adam’s passing has affected him and he’s starting to get choke upped… AD-ROCK grabs his shoulder and says “WE grew up together” and motions back and forth between himself and Matt with his finger.

I have to admit, my eyes welled with tears at that, and I’m tearing up now as I type this… but AD-ROCK put it simply, not only did we growup listening to the Beastie Boys but they grew up with us… and they consider us as much of their family as we consider them part of ours. Here’s AD-ROCK who’s lost a brother taking out time to talk with fans and offer them comfort (fuck, I’m crying again).

Anyways, I apologize for all the rambling… but I needed to talk with others that are going through this like I am… I offer my thoughts and prayers to everyone, especially Adam’s wife and daughter, Mike and Adam, and the rest of the Beastie Family.

Now that I’m drained, it’s time for coffee and a smoke.

Peace

sab0tage
05-20-2012, 08:25 AM
Welcome Adam.

To be honest, I knew pretty much what I was going to read here before I started and I don't mean that in any negative sense whatsoever. It just goes to show what a great man Adam was, how tight the three of them were and how many people they touched across the world. I read the article on FB too and it certainly brought tears to my eyes. You've come to the right place anyway, everyone here can relate to what you are saying. I hope posting here has helped get a weight off your chest? Anyway, hi (y)

AdamK
05-20-2012, 08:32 AM
It sure does, and thank you for welcoming me to the board!!! Much love to the beastie family!!!

MsPacMan
05-20-2012, 08:39 AM
Thankyou for sharing that with us. Now I would like to share this with you.

On tumblr the other day; I read this:

You people? The ones who cry about celebrity deaths? The ones I make fun of for doing so?

Go right ahead today.

Adam Yauch is worthy of the tears.

AdamK
05-20-2012, 08:45 AM
Thankyou for sharing that with us. Now I would like to share this with you.

Thank you, this has been cathartic...

Adam Yauch is worthy of the tears.[/I]

Truer words have not been spoken...

RIP Adam Yauch... The world is a better place for having you in it...

Swooziemoonshoe
05-20-2012, 10:36 AM
Hi Adam, glad you posted. I did the same thing by coming here to vent and it's sad but lovely to read so many similar stories about how much this has affected people. I really think losing MCA IS different from other celebrity losses... Even the media coverage has been so heartfelt, it feels as though everyone who ever heard of the beasties is a bit devastated. Good to read that coming on here is helping you, your family sounds awesome.

Until I came on this board I felt like a bit of a weirdo for being so sad about this, so it helps to see other "grown ups" sharing the pain. My husband has been really sweet and it was great to go to the AIFST screening where everyone was getting really into the show and celebrating. I tried to talk about this in therapy but she really wasn't getting it...ha, sucks for you, therapist, that you don't know the awesome power of the beasties!

This is gutting but I'm so grateful to this board for letting me talk, and I'm really enjoying the music and videos again. So much to be thankful for, hey?

AdamK
05-20-2012, 11:15 AM
This is gutting but I'm so grateful to this board for letting me talk, and I'm really enjoying the music and videos again. So much to be thankful for, hey?[/QUOTE]

I completely agree with you Smoozy... So many of us have so much to be thankful for... This board is a place for Beastie fans to come together and share our thoughts and stories.

Lots of good vibes have come from Adam Yauch, and it's evidenced by the fans and how they are responding.

Cheers. (y)

Tati Pryor
05-20-2012, 11:30 AM
Thanks Adam for sharing this!:)

Love for MCA and the kids feed the soul (y)


Every time I read a testimony I cry ...

A big hug!

AdamK
05-20-2012, 12:34 PM
Thank You Tati!!!

Such a warm welcome from the board. :)

CHECKHEAD2004
05-22-2012, 10:51 PM
Welcome and I'm the same age as you and can relate to everything you are saying. Adam was an incredible man and I feel bad for all the people out there who don't get it. He is missed so much more than he will ever know or could ever imagine. So much respect.

Shelley

MCAadROCKMiKEd7
05-22-2012, 11:19 PM
I just wanted you to know that I read your post and that I speak for everyone when I say im here for you fellow beastie fan.

Its such a painful happening
I am happy to see that you are comfortable sharing your feelings with us.

Hold your head up!

AdamK
05-24-2012, 04:45 PM
Thank You Shelley and MCAADROCKMIKED7... it has been better... and seeing all the wonderful photos from MCA DAY has also been helpful. It's comforting to know others are going through this...

PortlandBGirl
05-24-2012, 09:47 PM
I am new to the boards too and am so glad to have found others who get it, I can't really talk to anyone in real life anymore about it because they think I am obsessed. I guess they are right. But I still need to talk about it.

Originally Posted by MsPacMan

You people? The ones who cry about celebrity deaths? The ones I make fun of for doing so?

Go right ahead today.

Adam Yauch is worthy of the tears.

So true. He was a gem.

I love that your boys know Paul Revere. My five year old knows a few lines (I didn't teach him specifically, he has just picked them up from hearing me sing it, that's my karaoke specialty). Now the training will begin in earnest!

AdamK
05-26-2012, 10:49 AM
Thank You PortlandBGirl... Its good to know our love of the beastie boys may be passed on to that generation... My boys picked up Paul Revere the same way...

And their listening to the beasties right now on Pandora. ;)

MC-ook
05-26-2012, 11:17 AM
(y)Thankyou for sharing that with us. Now I would like to share this with you.

On tumblr the other day; I read this:

You people? The ones who cry about celebrity deaths? The ones I make fun of for doing so?

Go right ahead today.

Adam Yauch is worthy of the tears.

Shuryno
05-26-2012, 01:32 PM
You people? The ones who cry about celebrity deaths? The ones I make fun of for doing so?

Go right ahead today.

Adam Yauch is worthy of the tears.

Oh man, this is so relevant. I never thought I could cry for an artist, but I did and I still do. I Guess I know now.

I can relate with what you wrote Adamk. I have been lost for words and as a 37 years old father, I literally grew up with the Beastie boys. As their music matured , so did I, the progression is almost on par. Since English is not my native tongue, my kids don't understand a word of the rhymes, but they know the beats.:)

I have been soaking myself in whatever I could find about MCA and the Bboys in the last couple of week, coming here sharing with other fans... trying to find closure or something like that I guess ...

AdamK
05-27-2012, 04:24 PM
Shuryno, I hear ya... been soaking things in Beastie as much as possible... my son and i mowed the lawn the other day on our rider... we listened to the beasties the entire time. Good memories my boys and I will for a long time. :)