[LuciferHam]

This is true. The main other option is staying an my not bad media job at a main NZ television company for the rest of the year, trying to make more contacts and get more experience, while also playing gigs and practicing drums.

Or fucking off overseas on a working visa to either UK or perhaps AUS, which I'll probably do at some stage anyhow.

I signed up for the cruise, but the closer it gets to doing, the more I realise I'll be stuck in a cabin for 6 months, unable to drum and pursue artistic projects while getting older and loosing opportunities to have some kind of a 'break' utilizing my talents.

I'm probably just being a neurotic bastard.