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speaking of sea changes
I think I am going through one.
I feel uninspired by my job. I am trying to regenerate a good attitude about it because I used to really love it here but these days I feel unsupported, left twisting in the wind on some things. I feel awkward and antisocial around all my groups of friends. I don't feel interested in the same things any more and in most cases would rather stay home. I find myself not caring what anyone thinks and just saying whatever is on my mind whether it's relevant, constructive, a non sequitur or just plain mean. I am not motivated to exercise or eat reasonable portions so I'm getting fat. I don't know what to do about it, I can tell I'm moving toward something, a new me is being born. Or maybe just a return of the old me. It's uncomfortable and I wish it would just get on with itself already.
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Re: speaking of sea changes
Sounds like the rains,once again,have found the Puget Sound…
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Re: speaking of sea changes
I am going to use this thread as my own personal blog.
It's sort of like when you're nauseous and you know you're going to vomit. You lay around feeling miserable, waiting. You put something you like on TV but you can't really enjoy it. You maybe try to eat something hoping it will make you feel better or drink some soda or water or milk or whatever people do. But nothing will make any difference. You just have to wait until your body tells you it's the right time and you run to the bathroom. That's what I feel like emotionally.
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Re: speaking of sea changes
Be wary if your emotional mouth starts to water,like crazy...cause that's when I know I'm gonna hurl...the Dr prescribes ginger ale for the soul..
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But what would that be? Right now I can't think of anything that would make me feel better.
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Jobs by definition are designed to make you feel uninspired. The bottomline is another job is..... another job. It's what you take to the job that counts. I realized a few years ago when I was working at a restaurant cleaning up at night after everyone went home that it didn't matter to anyone what I thought.
Let me explain, I threw a fit all by myself because most of the tools I needed to clean up the galley hood and floors were strewn all over the place, I was pissed and completely out of sorts about the mess, I had been for months. Then I had a mini epiphany that nobody, not my family, not my friends and especially not my boss or co-workers could give a shit if poor little yeahwho was having a tough time at work. I realized that they were paying me $15.95 an hour if I was pissed off or if i was happy. My personal feelings did not equate into the wage or the standard of work. I raised my game, I got happy (because fuck 'em if they can't get happy) I elevated my work standard beyond everybody elses and my life improved exponentially. It's an inside game.
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Re: speaking of sea changes
forward momentum...put sails to the wind,pull up your socks,get up and jump...In my experience positive change is best obtained through self initiation...
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Right, I get that.
My problem is that I'm in the moment it's percolating before it takes hold. I'm going to eat. It's the only thing that sounds good.
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Re: speaking of sea changes
Quote:
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Re: speaking of sea changes
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I'm gettin older in my years Feel me? I got a folder worth of fears But it's cool, we gotta make it better Don't take my sweater,y'all make my head hurt I ain't even gonna finish this song, it's too long I'ma watch Cops,in my La-Z-Boy,in my thong
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Well I went to an Indian buffet for lunch and ate my weight in vegetarian pekoras. Now my nauseous feeling isn't just emotional.
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Actually reading your posts works just fine.
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Re: speaking of sea changes
I usually smoke an expertly blended hand rolled cigar when my perspective needs re-booting. It changes my take on the day and gives me time to sort things out with a nicotine kick.
I haven't had to smoke a cigar in months, but for me that works incredibly well when I need to change.
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No, I drenched them in korhma.
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I'm sure my perspective will reboot, maybe by the end of this work day.
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Yep cigars seems to be mainly a dude thing. If a person is well researched and versed in cigars, I'm tellin' ya they are great. Just like anything else in life it's really about quality and time.
Money is one thing, quality is another thing altogether. Concentrate on quality. All aspects of quality and your life.
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Re: speaking of sea changes
have you tried doing something new? something that you wouldn't normally go for? something you enjoyed when you were a kid?
take a personal day from work and have at it!
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Maybe it's just the post-marriage blues?
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I think it's more than that. I have near constant anxiety, I dream about guilt.
It'll pass I'm sure and whatever I'm meant to get out of it I'll get. Just right now it sucks.
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Hey, you I'm here if you wanna chat.
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nows the best time to either draw, paint, or write songs.
Make the best of it before you get happy again and lose your creative spark. |
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I don't seem to feel inspired enough to write about anything except how I don't feel inspired.
It was just so weird, I went out to dinner last night with some friends and I just couldn't wait to get out of there. We got home and my husband was messing around with my drum kit (he doesn't know how to play it) and he was kicking the bass and every kick made me tense up, I had to ask him to stop. Then he was messing around on iTunes and I couldn't stand the sound of the music and had to keep turning it down because it was weirding me out. Then I dreamt about someone telling me I did something bad when I was drunk and I was wracked with guilt in my dream mostly for getting drunk, less so for whatever it was I did.
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I believe this is what's referred to as the chrysalis stage in ones life.
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When do I get to be a butterfly?
Has no one gone through this and come out the other side? Impossible!
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omg your so hilarious.
you feel like this for a reason. bad karma. talking all that head about me has taken its tole. |
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Re: speaking of sea changes
Saturn's return has something to do with the Sony Ericsson?
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Re: speaking of sea changes
I'm a year or two past that period but I always was a late bloomer so I suppose it's possible.
I am getting sick, I am almost positive. I wonder if that's all this has to do with.
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