speaking of sea changes

[hpdrifter]

I think I am going through one.

I feel uninspired by my job. I am trying to regenerate a good attitude about it because I used to really love it here but these days I feel unsupported, left twisting in the wind on some things.

I feel awkward and antisocial around all my groups of friends. I don't feel interested in the same things any more and in most cases would rather stay home. I find myself not caring what anyone thinks and just saying whatever is on my mind whether it's relevant, constructive, a non sequitur or just plain mean.

I am not motivated to exercise or eat reasonable portions so I'm getting fat.

I don't know what to do about it, I can tell I'm moving toward something, a new me is being born. Or maybe just a return of the old me.

It's uncomfortable and I wish it would just get on with itself already.

[MC Moot]

Sounds like the rains,once again,have found the Puget Sound…

[hpdrifter]

I am going to use this thread as my own personal blog.

It's sort of like when you're nauseous and you know you're going to vomit. You lay around feeling miserable, waiting. You put something you like on TV but you can't really enjoy it. You maybe try to eat something hoping it will make you feel better or drink some soda or water or milk or whatever people do. But nothing will make any difference. You just have to wait until your body tells you it's the right time and you run to the bathroom.

That's what I feel like emotionally.

[MC Moot]

Originally Posted by hpdrifter

You just have to wait until your body tells you it's the right time and you run to the bathroom.

That's what I feel like emotionally.

Be wary if your emotional mouth starts to water,like crazy...cause that's when I know I'm gonna hurl...the Dr prescribes ginger ale for the soul..

[hpdrifter]

But what would that be? Right now I can't think of anything that would make me feel better.

[yeahwho]

Jobs by definition are designed to make you feel uninspired. The bottomline is another job is..... another job. It's what you take to the job that counts. I realized a few years ago when I was working at a restaurant cleaning up at night after everyone went home that it didn't matter to anyone what I thought.

Let me explain, I threw a fit all by myself because most of the tools I needed to clean up the galley hood and floors were strewn all over the place, I was pissed and completely out of sorts about the mess, I had been for months.

Then I had a mini epiphany that nobody, not my family, not my friends and especially not my boss or co-workers could give a shit if poor little yeahwho was having a tough time at work. I realized that they were paying me $15.95 an hour if I was pissed off or if i was happy. My personal feelings did not equate into the wage or the standard of work.

I raised my game, I got happy (because fuck 'em if they can't get happy) I elevated my work standard beyond everybody elses and my life improved exponentially.

It's an inside game.

[MC Moot]

forward momentum...put sails to the wind,pull up your socks,get up and jump...In my experience positive change is best obtained through self initiation...

[checkyourprez]

Originally Posted by hpdrifter

I am going to use this thread as my own personal blog.

It's sort of like when you're nauseous and you know you're going to vomit. You lay around feeling miserable, waiting. You put something you like on TV but you can't really enjoy it. You maybe try to eat something hoping it will make you feel better or drink some soda or water or milk or whatever people do. But nothing will make any difference. You just have to wait until your body tells you it's the right time and you run to the bathroom.

That's what I feel like emotionally.

stick your finger down your throat and get it over with.

[hpdrifter]

Originally Posted by checkyourprez

stick your finger down your throat and get it over with.

Actually reading your posts works just fine.

[checkyourprez]

Originally Posted by hpdrifter

Actually reading your posts works just fine.

omg your so hilarious.

you feel like this for a reason. bad karma. talking all that head about me has taken its tole.

[hpdrifter]

Right, I get that.

My problem is that I'm in the moment it's percolating before it takes hold.

I'm going to eat. It's the only thing that sounds good.

[MC Moot]

Originally Posted by hpdrifter

Right, I get that.

My problem is that I'm in the moment it's percolating before it takes hold.

I'm going to eat. It's the only thing that sounds good.

mash potatoes and gravy might make it right...

I'm gettin older in my years
Feel me? I got a folder worth of fears
But it's cool, we gotta make it better
Don't take my sweater,y'all make my head hurt
I ain't even gonna finish this song, it's too long
I'ma watch Cops,in my La-Z-Boy,in my thong

[hpdrifter]

Well I went to an Indian buffet for lunch and ate my weight in vegetarian pekoras. Now my nauseous feeling isn't just emotional.

[yeahwho]

I usually smoke an expertly blended hand rolled cigar when my perspective needs re-booting. It changes my take on the day and gives me time to sort things out with a nicotine kick.

I haven't had to smoke a cigar in months, but for me that works incredibly well when I need to change.

[hpdrifter]

Originally Posted by yeahwho

I usually smoke an expertly blended hand rolled cigar when my perspective needs re-booting. It changes my take on the day and gives me time to sort things out with a nicotine kick.

I haven't had to smoke a cigar in months, but for me that works incredibly well when I need to change.

Thanks for the suggesto, buddy, but cigars are definitely not my thing.

I'm sure my perspective will reboot, maybe by the end of this work day.

[MC Moot]

Originally Posted by hpdrifter

Well I went to an Indian buffet for lunch and ate my weight in vegetarian pekoras. Now my nauseous feeling isn't just emotional.

mmmmmmmm PAKORAS!...even better than samosas...Didn’t you have the dip with them?…the mint would’ve done your belly well...

[hpdrifter]

No, I drenched them in korhma.

[mickill]

Originally Posted by hpdrifter

I don't know what to do about it, I can tell I'm moving toward something, a new me is being born. Or maybe just a return of the old me.

It's uncomfortable and I wish it would just get on with itself already.

I believe this is what's referred to as the chrysalis stage in ones life.

[hpdrifter]

When do I get to be a butterfly?

Has no one gone through this and come out the other side? Impossible!