speaking of sea changes

[hpdrifter]

I think I am going through one.

I feel uninspired by my job. I am trying to regenerate a good attitude about it because I used to really love it here but these days I feel unsupported, left twisting in the wind on some things.

I feel awkward and antisocial around all my groups of friends. I don't feel interested in the same things any more and in most cases would rather stay home. I find myself not caring what anyone thinks and just saying whatever is on my mind whether it's relevant, constructive, a non sequitur or just plain mean.

I am not motivated to exercise or eat reasonable portions so I'm getting fat.

I don't know what to do about it, I can tell I'm moving toward something, a new me is being born. Or maybe just a return of the old me.

It's uncomfortable and I wish it would just get on with itself already.